Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0309

How do I tell her that I feel lost? How do I tell her that nothing in my life makes sense? Why was I even placed in this world to begin with? I’ve lost the energy and will to do anything because I feel like nothing matters anymore.

“I just want to be alone, Mom,” I reply. “There are things I need to work out.”

I didn’t want to tell her that I’m struggling with everything, including my identity. She will just circle it back to Rowan and tell me to move on and leave the past behind. I know I should, but it’s hard to leave the past behind when you’ve held on to it for so long. It is hard to let it go when you let it become. anchor.

your

“I know. I know that things aren’t easy for you, but I promise, when you give yourself a chance, everything will fall into place and you’ll find your happiness.” She pulls me into her arms, and I lay on her shoulder as tears fall down my cheeks.

“I just don’t know what to do, and I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy, not that I’ve been happy these past few years. I was faking it most of the time.”

“You say you don’t know what to do? How about you start by righting your wrongs? Maybe that will give you the peace you clearly need.”

my nails dig into the skin of my palm before I let go. I wanted to argue with her, but I know she’s right. Maybe that will give me a

“Thank you, Mom.”

that I was pushing you for your

“I know”

kiss on the forehead before

and please remember to shower. It

while, staring off into nothing. Thoughts are flashing

I stand up and rush to my closet, almost tripping in the process. I fling the doors open and dig up a pair of sweat pants,

run out of the house, but I don’t turn back.

+15 BONUS

the days

nights and dinners. He never slept over, but the few hours he was there