Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

By the time we were leaving, I had my emotions under control.

I didn't want to admit it, but my attraction to Gabriel was still there. It's been years. Almost a decade and yet, it took so little for him to get me excited.

I hated that. Hated it because while I was married to Liam, it took a bit of coaxing to get me aroused enough for the act. Don't get me wrong, Liam wasn't a bad sexual partner. He didn't suck at sex, but my arousal didn't come easily when he wanted us to get intimate.

It didn't take much from Gabriel. One intense look, and those rough hands on my skin, and I was dripping wet for him. Ready for him to take me. What does that say about me? That my ex-husband didn't get this side of me, while the man that shattered me, did?

After a quick cold shower, to wash away my arousal and shame, I got dressed and headed for breakfast. The entire time we were having out meals, I avoided Gabriel's knowing gaze.

"Are you ready for this?" I ask Lilly as she takes her backpack.

Surprisingly, Gabriel had announced that he'd also be there for Lilly's first day of school. I didn't argue with him. There was no point in doing it.

"Yes," she answers cheerily. "Noah told me that their school is awesome. I can't wait to see that for myself."

Her nervousness was definitely gone. Not that I was complaining or anything. This was so much better than her being anxious.

"That's great, darling" I tell her before taking her hand. "Now, let's get moving before you're late on your first day."

The ride down the elevator is silent. I was stiff standing next to Gabriel while Lilly stood in front of us. His presence was overwhelming, to say the least. I wanted to get as far away from him as possible, but there wasn't anywhere to go.

Lilly literally bounces out of the elevator when we get to the first floor. She's the strangest child I've ever met. I mean who gets excited on their first day of school? Most children are terrified of being the new student.

up!" she demands, as she

up the space between them quickly, so I am

gosh!" Lilly

a sleek

excitement. "You're taking me to school in a

first day at a new school. You

would have done the job, but a limousine? Yep. Definitely going to have a problem with him spoiling her. "Thank you so much," She screams before launching

our daughter, I couldn't take this from her. She was happy. What kind of mother would

we don't hurry up, we

the car

sit between

just don't

body heat seeping through to me. Not when I still

playing in my head.

really talk much. Lilly is a chatter box and fills up the silence

up head starts giving me anxiety. All of a sudden, I am now the one who's nervous. Nervous for my baby girl. When the driver parks,

and motions for me to follow

long for Lilly to

we will give Lilly a

they give guides according to gender.

I whisper as I kiss her