Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Read Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 256 – Marabella POV

Kora howled in my head, her pain amplifying mine, making it ten times worse. I felt like I couldn’t breathe, like the air was being crushed from my lungs, agonizingly slowly. Everything was fine, then it wasn’t. I knew something was up with him because he was blocking the bond. He had been quiet all night. Yet I didn’t expect him to reject me.

A person can only take so much before they break and only suffer for so long before the suffering becomes nothing but a burden to carry. In the midst of so much darkness for so long, so much loneliness in your life, you realize it is no longer worth it, that you can’t live with the heartache.

Everything was in chaos, and when I look at what has come to pass in my life, I wonder how the h**l I got here. What was the one part of my life that determined it would get to this point? Where did I go so detrimentally wrong that I ended up here at this exact moment? Was it because I wasn’t strong enough like they all claimed?

Looking at Lucas, who was frantically calling my name, I glanced around and thought, is this it? Is this all it will ever be, and will I always be this unhappy? Unhappy in love, disappointed in life, and down with how things turned out. I couldn’t hear a word he was saying. I am sure he meant well, but I was deaf and mute to my surroundings, drowning in my grief.

For years, I lost the perception of seeing myself clearly. Kyan let me see who that was, only then to take it back from me. My life I thought, was changing. I was giving value to myself, and I allowed myself to see a future with him and Jonah. Now that dream was gone, and I was back where I started. Standing up, I felt nothing. Nothing at all like I switched off to life, pulled the plug. I was d**d long before I recognized I was d***g.

Alone and grieving for a life of that would never be. I thought we would work it out, had it mapped out in my head. Now there was no map, and I was stumbling blindly back into the abyss of myself. This isn’t the life I wanted or would choose for myself. So this time, I will choose differently. If the shadows wanted me, they could have me, so with that, I chose d***h.

How foolish of me, how silly of me to believe I was anything but another burden. I won’t be the burden anymore; I won’t go back to that place. I couldn’t go back to living on autopilot, going through the motions but not living the moments, doing what’s expected while expecting nothing in return. No, I couldn’t live like that anymore, and if that was living, I wanted no part of it.

and as I watched his name pop up on the screen, it vibrated off the bedside table and started ringing again. Bending down, I picked it up and unlocked it. Kora

everywhere, and I heard Lucas talking to me through the door. I must have said something back because he left. I had no

could identify the traits because they were mine so long, and I refused to live like that again, making my family suffer again by watching me turn back to an empty shell. No, I

Jonah POV

source was Kaif. Kyan wasn’t answering his phone, so I tried Lucas, who

was twenty minutes out of the city and driving like a madman, trying to get back to them. Yet I was torn in two directions. I

gut instinct told me something was wrong. I knew Kyan rejected her. There was no doubt that that was the crippling pain I felt coming from him. Giving up when no one would answer,

whined restlessly, and I grabbed my phone to see a text message had popped up without me noticing. Relief flooded

should have been you.’ I nearly swerved off the road as I dialed her number, yet still, she

is Mara?” I

home,” Kyan answered, and I swerved off the road, sending dust

“Where are you?”

Kyan answered, and I tossed my door open. Jax was

get back

on my way back,” Kyan says before he groans and I hear

knew he had an accident, but he was alive and breathing. I knew that much because I was still alive even though for the first time, I wished I was d**d when I felt the pain of her tether to him disappear. Jax shifted before I even had time to register what