Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 167

My hands go to his chest making my palms tingle and an overwhelming need to get closer to him rushes over me. I am not sure if it is my emotions and needs or his when I feel his excitement against the inside of my leg making me pull away and break the kiss.

I go to get off his lap but he holds me there and my heart rate picks up, fear starting to seep into me.

“It’s just my reaction to you being this close Sage, we have talked about this so many times, it doesn’t mean anything more will happen” Andrei tells me.

“Please don’t back out Sage” Sierra whimpers in my head.

“Sage?” Andrei says, pulling my attention back to him. I relax letting out breath and I feel guilt smash into me from him. I hated feeling his guilt every time I freaked out. He didn’t do this to me, he didn’t ruin me.

I shake my head, pressing my lips to his forcing the fear away and focusing on his feelings instead and ignoring my own. Andrei groans, clutching me to him before pulling away, his lips travelling down my jaw and neck. Arousal floods me from him, the feeling so foreign to me it took me a few seconds to figure out why between my legs was pulsating with a need that scared me. He sucks the skin on my neck before running his tongue across the same spot. A breathy moan escapes me and I jump when I feel his canines press against my skin.

He goes to pull away but I run my fingers through his hair knowing if he doesn’t I will chicken out and it will never happen.

“ Sage, do you want this? You are really tense” he says, kissing my neck.

“Just do it please Andrei before I back out” I murmur waiting for the pain, my heart hammering in my chest so hard I knew he could hear it.

“I can smell your fear, Sage” Andrei says before moving and turning around. He pressed me against the bed and moved between my legs pressing his weight down on me.

“Nothing more Sage, just like training, you can tell me to stop, and I will stop. But I won’t mark you while you are petrified of me. I won’t mark you just because your wolf and I want to and you feel obligated to, so if you don’t want me to, tell me stop and I will” he says looking down at me.

My breathing was becoming heavier, tears blurring my vision as panic started to set in along with anger. I was angry because I was so fucked up, a fucking disappointment and useless to the one person I am meant to be for.

“Shh Sage breathe, what do you want?” Andrei asks and I snap at him, my anger at myself bubbling over and leaving my lips.

“To be fucking normal, I want to be normal and not used goods. I don’t want to be scared to want you, I don’t want to fear you but I will never be normal and you deserve better than some broken toy everyone has used up” My words spit out in an angry rush.

I swallow my anger receding and I let out a breath, shame hitting me, yet Andrei doesn’t say anything a t my sudden outburst, just presses his head against my collarbone, my chest rising and falling rapidly as I try to catch my breath..

Why was shame one of the most horrid things to live with. You know in your head that what happened was wrong and mentally in a sense you know it wasn’t your fault, but why do I feel ashamed? Why am I the one that feels dirty, disgusted and why after everything and being free of them does it still have to haunt me. I am free now yet that nagging voice still says not for long, even though I know they’re dead, know they can’t touch me yet they still control my body, control my fear, control me.

because that’s all you know Sage, you fear not being good enough because that’s how you see yourself, don’t think

gave me you, trusted me with you, I am the one not deserving of you. I am not a good man, I know that, you know that, my entire pack knows that, so don’t ever say I deserve better

good enough and he would be repulsed by me while he felt the same, two people impossibly messed up and

so funny?” Andrei laughs, pulling away and looking down

just thinking

I can mark you when you aren’t so scared”

to ignore me and do it” I tell him, turning my neck to him. I

need to be” Andrei

Sage, tell me to stop and

pounding in my chest and goosebumps rise on my skin as his hot hand moves higher, pushing my shirt up with the movement before he palms my breast. I gasp, pulling away when I feel his thumb brush over my nipple. My

up on his knees between my legs as I

him. I watch as he grips the hem of my shirt before tugging on it wanting me to take it off. I hesitate a second before sitting up and

asks, I gulp before nodding

you, trust that I will stop if you ask me to” Andrei

and exploring my body. His fingers teasing my nipple until it is a hardened peak. His lips follow his hand as he nips and sucks my skin before he sucks my nipple in his mouth. His tongue flicks over it before he

fingers through his hair and he growls before sucking the other one and sparks rush over m y skin, his emotions calm against my frantic ones but I focus on his, focus on the feeling of his tongue on my skin instead of what he is doing. Sparks rush moving everywhere he touches and a moan escapes

of my leg. He moves so he is beside me leaning over me. I feel his hand pull my leg up draping it over

just me Sage,” Andrei whispers against my lips before I feel his

over grabbing my hand gently before kissing my fingers. I watch him when he suddenly sucks

over kissing me before I feel his hand guide mine between my legs, his hand moving over mine when he presses it between my legs. His hand on mine controls the movements as he runs m y own fingers through my folds and I gasp when he rubs my fingers against my clit. His movements slow as he manipulates my hand to do what he wants, rubbing my clit in circular motions and a shudder runs through me and

touch me, only using my hand as I felt my stomach swirling with nerves and anticipation as my stomach tightened at the friction he was building. The sensation scared me and thrilled me, making me moan softly. Andrei swallows my moans, kissing me when I pull my

Sparks rush over my skin, the feeling almost too much and Andrei kisses me hard, my lips bruising as his hand moves taking the place of mine. I move my hand

out where the feeling ended. It felt like it

Andrei lifts himself up, pushing between my legs and settling between them, his lips moving lower and I feel his tongue dip inside my belly button making me freeze wondering what the

between my legs giving him a full view of my scars and burns, how destroyed my body is. Everything they did he now had a close up view of and I clench my eyes

says and I feel him kiss the inside of my thigh. My breath lodges in my throat as I watch him, my face heating seeing where he is when he runs his hands up my thighs pulling them further apart, his lips trailing down my thigh before he

do when his grip on my thighs tightens and his tongue runs a straight line from my ass to my clit. Sparks rushing everywhere, his tongue swirling around my clit before he sucks it in his mouth and my head falls

devours me, I feel him chuckle at my reaction to him before sucking harder. His tongue tastes every inch of me and my arms give out underneath me as I collapse on the bed. My legs shake in his strong grip as pleasure builds, his tongue relentless and I was climbing that peak again, climbing it faster and I moved my hips against his mouth, writhing at the feeling he was giving

core pulsates and I cry out as my body convulses in ecstasy as it ripples through me in waves. The sensation was too