Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 167

My hands go to his chest making my palms tingle and an overwhelming need to get closer to him rushes over me. I am not sure if it is my emotions and needs or his when I feel his excitement against the inside of my leg making me pull away and break the kiss.

I go to get off his lap but he holds me there and my heart rate picks up, fear starting to seep into me.

“It’s just my reaction to you being this close Sage, we have talked about this so many times, it doesn’t mean anything more will happen” Andrei tells me.

“Please don’t back out Sage” Sierra whimpers in my head.

“Sage?” Andrei says, pulling my attention back to him. I relax letting out breath and I feel guilt smash into me from him. I hated feeling his guilt every time I freaked out. He didn’t do this to me, he didn’t ruin me.

I shake my head, pressing my lips to his forcing the fear away and focusing on his feelings instead and ignoring my own. Andrei groans, clutching me to him before pulling away, his lips travelling down my jaw and neck. Arousal floods me from him, the feeling so foreign to me it took me a few seconds to figure out why between my legs was pulsating with a need that scared me. He sucks the skin on my neck before running his tongue across the same spot. A breathy moan escapes me and I jump when I feel his canines press against my skin.

He goes to pull away but I run my fingers through his hair knowing if he doesn’t I will chicken out and it will never happen.

“ Sage, do you want this? You are really tense” he says, kissing my neck.

“Just do it please Andrei before I back out” I murmur waiting for the pain, my heart hammering in my chest so hard I knew he could hear it.

“I can smell your fear, Sage” Andrei says before moving and turning around. He pressed me against the bed and moved between my legs pressing his weight down on me.

“Nothing more Sage, just like training, you can tell me to stop, and I will stop. But I won’t mark you while you are petrified of me. I won’t mark you just because your wolf and I want to and you feel obligated to, so if you don’t want me to, tell me stop and I will” he says looking down at me.

My breathing was becoming heavier, tears blurring my vision as panic started to set in along with anger. I was angry because I was so fucked up, a fucking disappointment and useless to the one person I am meant to be for.

“Shh Sage breathe, what do you want?” Andrei asks and I snap at him, my anger at myself bubbling over and leaving my lips.

“To be fucking normal, I want to be normal and not used goods. I don’t want to be scared to want you, I don’t want to fear you but I will never be normal and you deserve better than some broken toy everyone has used up” My words spit out in an angry rush.

I swallow my anger receding and I let out a breath, shame hitting me, yet Andrei doesn’t say anything a t my sudden outburst, just presses his head against my collarbone, my chest rising and falling rapidly as I try to catch my breath..

Why was shame one of the most horrid things to live with. You know in your head that what happened was wrong and mentally in a sense you know it wasn’t your fault, but why do I feel ashamed? Why am I the one that feels dirty, disgusted and why after everything and being free of them does it still have to haunt me. I am free now yet that nagging voice still says not for long, even though I know they’re dead, know they can’t touch me yet they still control my body, control my fear, control me.

that’s all you know Sage, you fear not being good enough because that’s how you see yourself, don’t think for one second I

Goddess gave me you, trusted me with you, I am the one not deserving of you. I am not a good man, I know that, you know that, my entire pack knows that, so don’t ever say I deserve better than you, because I never should have been blessed with you, not after everything

he didn’t deserve me and I chuckle. Here I was thinking I wasn’t good enough and he would be repulsed by me while he felt the same, two people impossibly

funny?” Andrei laughs,

thinking how

have to do it now, I can mark you when

Andrei whenever you’re close, you just need to ignore me and do it” I tell him, turning my neck to him. I close

to be” Andrei whispers, his

me to stop Sage, tell me to stop and

hot hand moves higher, pushing my shirt up with the movement before he palms my breast. I gasp, pulling away when I feel his thumb brush over my nipple. My body responded to his touch even though fear pulsated through

between my legs as

him. I watch as he grips the hem of my shirt before tugging on

I gulp before nodding as he lowers himself

trust me to touch you, trust that I will stop if you ask me to” Andrei whispers before kissing my

teasing my nipple until it is a hardened peak. His lips follow his hand as he nips and sucks my skin before he sucks my nipple in his mouth. His tongue flicks over it before he moves to the other, hesitating and gauging my

on the feeling of his tongue on my skin instead of what he is doing. Sparks rush moving everywhere he touches and a

back, kissing my lips. His tongue delving between my lips softly and I pull him closer as his hand trails up and down my thigh before moving to the inside of my leg. He moves so he is beside me leaning over me. I feel his hand pull my leg up draping it over his and I still, going completely immobile when I feel his hand reach the apex of my legs sitting on my thigh, yet

just me Sage,” Andrei whispers against my lips before I feel his hand

When I don’t he reaches over grabbing my hand gently before kissing my fingers. I watch him when he suddenly sucks on three of my fingers, his tongue swirling around them before he pulls them

moving over mine when he presses it between my legs. His hand on mine controls the movements as he runs m y own fingers through my folds and I gasp

friction he was building. The sensation scared me and thrilled me, making me moan softly. Andrei swallows my

before pushing his between my legs. Sparks rush over my skin, the feeling almost too much and Andrei kisses me hard, my lips bruising as his hand moves taking the place of mine. I move my hand to hair, running my fingers through it and pulling him closer when I feel his finger run down the seam of my lips and I am shocked by the

his hand, wanting to find out where the feeling ended. It felt like it was building

creating. Andrei lifts himself up, pushing between my legs and settling between them, his lips moving lower and I feel his tongue dip inside my belly button making me freeze wondering what the hell he was doing. I sit up

him when he moves his face between my legs giving him a full view of my scars and burns, how destroyed my body is. Everything they did he now

lodges in my throat as I watch him, my face

breath on my core as I waited to see what he would do when his grip on my thighs tightens and his tongue runs a straight line from my ass to my clit. Sparks rushing everywhere, his tongue swirling around my clit before he

underneath me as I collapse on the bed.

bliss. My core pulsates and I cry out as my body convulses in ecstasy as it ripples