Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Chapter 203 Katya POV 

One week later,

There is nothing worse than everyone thinking you are the solution to their dilemma. Sure, I could have saved him, but how do you choose whose life is worth more? How do you choose who to kill and who to save? Essentially playing god, and how do I live with choosing, what will the ramifications of that decision be, how do you choose whose life is more valuable when all life is precious. 2

Marabella learnt the hard way. She choset o save her pack, but by doing so damned, the man she loved, cursed herself and paid the price. A never-ending cycle of pain. Now I am the one to choose who could live or die. The risks of altering a future that I have no control over could be my downfall and the ruin of those I hold dear.

Choosing to do nothing and watch Kyan’s heartbreak was the hardest decision of my life. I already regretted it, but Dominic’s men had already killed the rogues and I

men had already ked the rogues and I couldn’t take the life of someone undeserving. Skeletons Seline said, make sure you choose which to live with and I understood that with a clarity that was terrifying. Every decision I make from now on will haunt me, it will break small pieces off and I don’t know how Seline bore the weight of those decisions, how she chose between her children, her children she entrusted me with and this job was impossible. I am not ready for this; I am not ready to take her place and the expectation that came with it.

Was it too much to be normal, free of consequence, and free to live without choosing? I felt tired, and this was just the beginning. I was already emotionally exhausted, and I felt dead inside. So many lives have been lost, and I just watched because sometimes choosing to do nothing was a better option. This was all set in motion a long time ago and I was beginning to realize how right Seline was. We choose mates, not their destiny. Sometimes fate could be cruel, and I had t. o learn to take the punches and avoid causing more unnecessary destruction. 

One derician can have a domino effect

One decision can have a domino effect. One wrong move and the entire thing will fall around you. Get it right and we may just survive it, but with death comes life and once that life is over, death comes for us again. A never-ending cycle. Each time washed of our sins and sent back until we get it right or choose not to. I realized Seline chose not to. She chose to break the cycle of living with the things that haunted her. I wondered if I would make the same decision one day. Could I force this onto someone else? I am grateful for Seline bringing me back, but now I pay the consequences of my sacrifice. My kids forced to pay the sacrifice when they died with me.

“Kat?” Ezra whispers, his hands dropping on my shoulders and I hadn’t realized I had been staring at my father’s body in the coffin. Completely zoned out and thinking of what if I found another way? Would he still be here? His death was one skeleton I didn’t want to live with. It was his choice, his life to sacrifice, but it doesn’t change the fact it was the man who raised me. The man that taught me to ride a bike, the man who tossed his pack away and his title for me. He was my

ride a bike, the mai ho tossed his pack away and his title for me. He was my father, my safe place and the hero of my stories growing up, and I killed him.

“Kat?” Ezra repeats and I look at him, finally able to pull my eyes away from the man that raised me. I kept waiting for him to wake up and call me that god awful nickname, but now I would take the teasing. Anything to hear him say it again. Instead, I had been listening to his voicemail on repeat just so I could hear his voice and pretend he was still here and was just too busy to pick up. 2

Andrei walks up behind Ezra and pats his shoulder before nodding at him. Ezra looks at him before walking off only for Andrei to take his place. He was wearing a suit which was odd; I was used to seeing him dressed casually, yet he looked handsome. I could actually see the similarities he shared with our father.

“I don’t know what to say,” Andrei admits and I nod before feeling his hand wrap around mine, engulfing it. He rubs circles in the back of my hand with his thumb.

“We don’t need to say anything, dad

“We don’t need to se anything, dad knows. He knows already,” I tell him.

“I never would have put you in that position. I understand the consequences o f you having to do that for me, but I can’t thank you enough. I can’t make this up to you or dad”

“Yes, you can. You can live for him. He died to make sure you kept on living. He knew Sage was the only way that would have happened. You needed her more than him”

“But what about you?”

“You’re my brother. His death I will learnt o deal with. I couldn’t live with yours in m y hands and neither could dad. I didn’t have to do what he asked. I could have saved him, but I would have been condemning you and your family. One life for three, it was the right thing to do, and i tis what he wanted”

“I’m sorry Kat. I know that would have been the toughest decision to make

know it was the right one. I have no regret over choosing Sage. I

you, you meant more than his own life and that he would give up everything to make sure you have the life you deserve, with your mate and your son. He gave it

my shoulders before pressing his cheek

I wrap my arms around his

of the church. Sage was waiting for us outside, her eyes bloodshot from crying. The guilt on her

me like she thought I would turn away from her, cast her away for his death. She looks at Andrei as if

shouldn’t approach so; I move to her instead and open

pained n o matter what. I may not have my father but he was right, saving their family was worth the sacrifice knowing my brother would be happy, Jonah would have both parents and Sage gets to live after a life full of heartache, and finally the cycle of Donnie’s and Sierra’s torment had come full circle. He saved more than Sage, he ensured Jonah and Andrei had a future. He would finally

part of mine,” I tell

worth saving. She deserved a happy ending after everything she endured; she deserved peace and happiness and Andrei and Jonah deserved the love she

that both packs were at home to celebrate the life of my father. His funeral differed from my mothers, he earned his place in both packs and earned the respect of everyone and his place amongst both packs. He redeemed himself for his past failures. My father

me, neither did mum because I know everything they did was never to hurt me,

realized I had painted wrong from the beginning. All a misunderstanding based o n fear of each other and fear for the packs we

*

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The next day,

many people

idea to bring Marabella while it was still so raw for Kyan. Andrei, Sage and Jonah stood at the back with us and Lucas, spotting us, waved us forward. I shake

belong up there with

will want

gave his life for

his for your daughter, that means you are worthy enough in his eyes” Lucas tells me and I felt torn when Lucas leant closer to whisper to me not that he had to, the crowd of those talking would drown

daughter is Kyan’s mate, you are family whether or not Kyan knows it,” Lucas whispers and I pull away to look

wondering how

me he wouldn’t give his life for just anyone. His life was reserved for

“Dominic knew?” 

in this world he loved more than Kyan. Dominic saw you coming before even

DCCOM

wondering i f Dominic saw a

closer. When he pulls away, he stares at me and I nod once. I don’t know what he needed redemption for, but I knew it

him up a bit,” Lucas says, looking

to an empty

e could before sitting down next to Lucas. Jonah looked so small sitting beside the man. When the music started, the chatter quieted down and the aisle between the pews cleared. I

passed me.

stone and void of all emotion. He was present; the shadows surrounding him, tainting him, were black as coal. The darkness encased him, numbing him as he walked behind his father’s coffin, a silver urn

watched as they placed the coffin at the centre of the room. The men walked backt o their seats as one of the funeral directors set up the coffin for open viewing before