Fated To The Alpha (Ezra, Katya)

Read Fated To The Alpha [by Jessica Hall] Chapter 222 – “You will have to ask Kyan, I can’t answer some things, not because I don’t want to, but now you see, now you see he does not hate you, Mara. He loves you, he always has, just like I do,” Jonah says softly.

My brain seems to sputter at his words; I must have heard that wrong or understood it wrong. I blink, staring I dumbfounded at his words. What do I say to that when I have a mate, Jonah has a mate, and as much as I wanted his words to be true, I knew once he found his mate, I would be tossed aside. Like I always am. The unseen.

Suddenly the thought of being invisible to Jonah made my chest squeeze uncomfortably. Why couldn’t I have one thing go right? Yet what we want and get are two different things. Jonah wasn’t mine, no matter how much I wished he was, how much I prayed he was, and it didn’t change the fact he didn’t belong to me. Being with Jonah would be easy, natural, but it still screamed the same thing in my head, he isn’t mine, and I couldn’t take someone else’s mate, could I?

“Mara?’ Jonah asks, reaching for me, and I can see his uncertainty. Was that because of me? Was he suddenly regretting his words, realizing he shouldn’t have said them because he can’t possibly have meant them?

“I should go,” I whisper, and he reaches for me again, but I climb off the bed.

“Mara, you can’t leave, wait,” I rush out of his room and head for the spare room; spotting my phone on the kitchen counter on my way past, I snatch it off the bench before locking myself in the room. It would never work; I had a mate, and Jonah was yet to find his mate, but he would, and where would that leave me, with an angry Kyan, well more irate because he already hated me and I didn’t need to give him more reason to by betraying him for his best friend.

“Mara, open the door,”

“Just leave me alone Jonah, why did you have to ruin it,”

“Ruin what?” he asks, twisting the door handle before banging on the door.

“This, why would you ruin it? You were the only person I didn’t have to pretend in front of, and you ruined it, you shouldn’t have said it, I have a mate, you have a mate and we,” I don’t finish the sentence. I couldn’t; it hurt too much. I wanted, the gods know how much I wanted it to be Jonah, but I was not going to ruin and destroy his chance at true happiness because I wasn’t his mate, and she was out there somewhere.

She deserves him more than me, which is why she is fated to him and not me. When I was destined to someone who didn’t want me, a punishment for being what I am, for being an abomination, darkness doesn’t deserve light. It only deserves darkness and the solitude of being lonely. That is my punishment for hurting people, for being the monster I am, the bad omen.

“Mara, you are speaking nonsense; open the d**n door,”

“Just go away, please, Jonah, just leave m e be,” I tell him. Tired of this life, this never-ending battle. Kora was also saddened by Jonah’s words, whimpering in my head; she wanted Jonah just as much, yet she also longed for her mate and for Kyan to accept us. She was torn but knew we would only be ruining Jonah in the long run, depriving him of finding the one he belongs to.

“Mara?” Jonah asks, but I say nothing waiting for him to leave. I sent a message to my father, asking him to pick me up. However, knowing he probably wouldn’t answer until in the morning, so I was shocked when my phone started vibrating in my hand as a reply came in.

Dad: I can come to get you now. Where are you?

Me: At Jonah’s in the City, it is too late now, come tomorrow.

doesn’t text back straight away, and I assume he has fallen back asleep when my

I am close. See you in a few hours. I’m already on

unless you were mum. She had him under her thumb, and dad did too, but he preferred my father deal with the political stuff while he focused more on raising us. He was fun and happy to get his hands d***y, while my

I glance down at my phone to see my father’s face pop on the screen. The photo was taken on my sixteenth birthday. Dad managed to get home in time for it. He usually did on special occasions, but he was also busy like mum. Dad always traveled, but no matter how far he went that

suddenly she vanishes when she is sucked into the other realm to deal with Moon Goddess issues. Sometimes she takes one of my dad’s. They to were able

when suddenly my father was looking for her one day, and he traveled between realms himself. Mum seems to think the door was suddenly left open to him because she brought him there a few times. That was also when she realized

I quickly answer it before whispering into the phone. “Hey,

he says before yawning, and I suddenly

handbag and chuck my phone in it before reaching for the door. Only when I swing it open Jonah is lying in the hall. He jerks awake and blinks up at me when I

Jonah sighs before noticing my bag and phone

glances toward the living room, and the sun isn’t even up yet,

downstairs; I

head, and Jonah sighs, rubbing a hand

walking off toward his room. I walk to the door, and Jonah catches up to me

now; it couldn’t be. I never should have come here it was a mistake because now I have lost

something instead of just standing there? If you don’t feel the same, that is fine, but I wasn’t going to pretend anymore that I don’t love you, and I was sick of waiting for you to realize I do, and now you are running from me,” Jonah says folding his arms across

a mate out there, I have a mate, so we can’t be

“Says who?”

I

I don’t care about fate, I care about you, I want

what about Kyan? I am not coming between you and Kyan and your weird bond. Just because he doesn’t want me doesn’t mean he will let you have me,”

and Kaif; we can. He will

I shake my

Mara, I know Kyan is your mate, he loves you, and I know you want your mate, but I also know you want me

am not some toy. You can’t

Your mother has two

mates, or do you love

it out,” I shake my head. He makes no sense. My parents work because they are all mates, you can’t just choose whoever you want on

mate out there,”

you don’t feel the same way, and I will walk away, and you can be with

k**l him to hurt

her, though I had a feeling she was right. Kyan would just hurt us by hurting him if we ever admitted or tried to be with

we belong to him, that he chooses what we are

that he had stepped closer while I was debating with Kora; his hands run up my waist before he steps closer

We