Four Brothers and a Bride

Chapter 55: Chapter 55

ASHAL

"Are you angry right now, Mr. Rollins?" Dr. Welsh asks. She is a good-looking woman in her early forties with a sophisticated bent. She sits across from me, one leg crossed in front of the other with a pen and book in her hands. While laying on my back on the tuxedo sofa, I squeeze my stress ball harder and exhale deeply.

"I think so. A little bit."

"What are you angry about right now?"

"It’s not what, it’s who." I shut my eyes to pretend I am talking to myself in an empty room where no one can judge me, hoping that way I can express myself better.

"I am angry at the woman I love. We um...we attended a birthday party together. Before that, she promised me that she wouldn’t try socializing with certain people at the party. I left her by herself for a few minutes during the party to handle some things and when I got back to her, she was exactly where she said she’ll be."

"Keep going."

"The thing is, she broke her promise and did converse with the people she promised to stay away from...and she didn’t tell me about any of it. I had to find out from my brother and it made me look stupid."

I can’t believe Olivia spoke to Ashton and Demi. I can’t stop myself from wondering who else she must have talked to at that party. Why did she talk to them? Why did she intentionally omit that little detail when we discussed the party afterwards on our way to the penthouse? I am so pissed.

"Okay." I hear Dr. Welsh scribbling in her notebook. "Have you had a chance to talk to her about this?"

"I am too angry to. I don’t want to lose myself when I am around her and hurt her and I can’t talk to my brothers either because I lied to them to defend her. That’s why I’m back here."

"I understand, Mr. Rollins and I am very glad you resumed our sessions. Now, let’s circle back a bit. Can you tell me the exact emotions you felt when you discovered the woman you loved and trusted had lied to you?"

"Anger, obviously. Betrayal. Pain." A little pause. "This doesn’t count as an emotion but I did feel unloved." The last statement feels heavy in my mouth.

"Unloved?

"Yes. I tend to doubt her feelings for me whenever she lies to me."

"Is this peculiar to your relationship with her or extends to other people in your life?"

"I wouldn’t say it’s peculiar to my relationship with her." I shift uncomfortably. "It’s a thing with me. I tend to doubt people’s affection for me and it doesn’t help when they lie to me."

"How long have you been feeling this way? Was it before this relationship or after it?

I exhale deeply. "Long before. My brothers and I grew up under our father’s iron fists. He is very good at showing us tough love, as they say. There were four of us with this face and every day, the challenge of being on father’s good books grew steeper. I was also dealing with bullies at school during that period. It was just a lot of pressure for me. Despite being the son of a wealthy businessman, I felt like my father constantly pitted my brothers and I against one another to secure his affection. Then, something happened in school."

"What happened?"

"I beat up my bullies in school. I don’t recall how it went down but the boys were deathly scared of me afterwards. My brothers and I even had to change schools because of my action. That’s when my entire family really started to look at me differently. I mean, I always wanted to be a little different from my brothers growing up but that was not what I had had in mind when I thought of making my own mark one day. They all looked at me like I was a freak, especially father. I’ve always felt unloved and unworthy ever since."

"How has this affected your relationships with women?"

"I constantly feel like I have to work twice as hard as my brothers to get a woman to want me for the long haul, you know. This face and body mostly attract women who don’t want me for just me. It attracts women who want to be with me for my name, fame and money. I don’t mind that but then I worry my BPD wills scare them away. Unlike my brothers, I actually want to build a life with the one woman I cherish but my condition keeps driving a wedge between us. I always feel inadequate because of it. I feel unworthy because of it. To make matters worse, she’s in love with one of my brothers." I hate how pathetic my voice sounds at the end.

"Are you also angry at your brother?"

"No. He doesn’t want anything to do with her."

Dr. Welsh continues to pick my mind apart and uncover layers of hurt I didn’t even realize I had.

"Do you think your anger might be masking another emotion like fear or shame? Fear that you aren’t worthy of being loved just like your brothers? Shame over the things your anger has driven you to do in the past?"

ball harder and open my eyes. I hate it here. This is exactly why I can’t keep up with my

working on my communication skills to help me express my anger in a healthy way which is appropriate with the intensity of a particular situation. I agree to take a walk to blow off steam and avoid very intense situations that have the potential

need to stick with

back at work. Is Olivia really interested in sticking with me or is she doing it because she thinks Asher has completely moved on from her? What

her rather than going through Lily. For this, I got a second phone number that only has her number saved since my major line is still saved as Asher

I pipe

I’m taking an online cooking class." Olivia replies with a low chuckle. "It’s

okay. You’re learning.

me. She’s been sick

contagious? Get Fitz to get her out of

that." Then in a low whisper. "It’s

at the gate. Unless she’s had sexual relations with any of the bodyguards, there’s no other boyfriend outside the four walls of the penthouse who could be responsible for her pregnancy. If she hasn’t been cozying up to any of the guards, then it has to be that one night when I

Has she been seeing any of the

enthusiastically. "She is very professional with them. She already told me it belongs to her lover. She’s only ever been

"Her lover?"

with him, Ashal. I can see it in her eyes when

I can’t let her tear me and Olivia apart, not after everything we’ve been through

you

okay?" She squeals excitedly and thanks me for spoiling her lately. All I can think of is how she still hasn’t spoken a word about talking to my family members at

up some things. I dial Lily’s number next and she picks up almost immediately. She

tells me you aren’t feeling too strong. Are you

"Yes sir."

to support yourself and your child while I get someone to replace

"R-Replace me?"

walking around pregnant and barefooted, did you? Need I remind you that you are a live-in housekeeper who is expected to double as a friend to my wife and keep her company? If you can no longer perform your duties maximally because of your condition, I have no choice but to relieve you of such duties and find a capable replacement. I’m sure your baby’s father would

my baby’s father, sir. The night we spent together..." Her voice wavers with tears. "I haven’t been with anyone else...I am certain it’s

98-99.9%? Is that what you are saying, Lilian DeMarco? You haven’t had any kind of relations with any other man in that building? You better think twice before you lie to me. If there’s even a slight chance that someone else could have fathered your child, now is a good time to talk because if you make me go down the path of a paternity test, it won’t end well

gasps. "You are the only one who didn’t

Go figure it out with your child’s father. I don’t

don’t fire me...I have nowhere

baby are you really

utters

one of the guys

would you lie

and would make a great

with Olivia if she is down. It’s hard enough trying to keep Olivia in the family and getting father to accept her. Father will

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her vanity mirror. She looks stunning in the bodycon dress I sent over. She’s is almost ready for our big date and smells so nice. "That’s not possible. How did you

pride as her eyebrows knit with a tight frown. Still, I don’t break character and whip

looking and came in here pretending to be him. Don’t worry, I’ll have it back to him long before he realizes

in the driveway. I know what she’s thinking. "Yes, I borrowed his car too obviously. I didn’t want the security team alerting him under any circumstances so I left no stone

do you want from me? We’re done. I am with Ashal now. He loves and cherishes me more than you

that, Liv. You’re breaking my

the pieces. Get out or I’ll scream for help."

out before you make me leave. You have everything confused. Contrary to what you thought, I didn’t abandon you or deny

don’t care. Get out, Asher or

I wanted to see you. I came to tell you that everything I had been putting in place for us to have a life together was coming to fruition. I

told me that you had just accepted his proposal to stay married to him and have a family with him. He even said mother was a witness. I couldn’t believe it. I was too shocked and angry to realize that I had