Four or Dead by G O A

Chapter 3

When I was finally alone I let the tears fall and I slid down the wall until my knees hit my chest and I buried my head in them. My body trembled as I let out everything I was feeling. I shouldn’t miss my next class because my dad would be told and he would beat me for it, but I just couldn’t handle this anymore. Why did I keep fighting to live if this was the life I had? I was beaten and raped and tormented! This was it, I wasn’t doing it anymore.

After a few deep breaths, I let my tears dry and I thought about how to do it. There were so many ways, but I had to be sure it wouldn’t go wrong. Jumping wasn’t guaranteed sometimes, so that was out. Jumping in front of a car could result in a few broken bones but I could still possibly live, so that was out too. I thought hard and paced as I did until it hit me. My dad had a gun in his office. He had threatened me with it before and as far as I saw he didn’t even bother to lock it away, probably because he knew I would never go in there.

But I was desperate and I would be dead so what did it matter if I went in? I could do it right there so he would have to clean up the mess of what he led me to. I was never a spiteful person but something about killing myself in his chair and him finding me and having to deal with the fall out of my death made me smile. I wish I could see his face when he found me and how he planned to explain it away. I had to go now though while he wasn’t home to be sure I couldn’t be stopped. With one last breath to boost my resolve, I stepped out from my hiding place and began walking across the field to the front of the school where my bike was parked.

My mind was focused on one thing so I didn’t care who saw me leaving and I mounted my bike not even feeling bad when I knocked several over.

“Hey Sunny where’s the fire?” Jayden’s voice rang out from the direction of the front steps of the school.

I ignored him and turned my bike around and jumped on. There were footsteps coming toward me so I took off as fast as I could. My focus zeroed in with determination and I pumped my legs as fast as I could not even bothering to wait for cars to pass. So what if they hit me, I would just get back up and keep going until this was done.

someone yell to me

stopping. When I finally

you!” Someone yelled from behind me while I fumbled with my

be heard behind me and someone pulled my arm to make me turn to them. My chest

have been killed! What is wrong with you?”

me go!” I growled at him, pulling my

my key inside and I burst through the door and headed straight to my father’s office. I opened several drawers and slammed them

is it?” I asked desperately

cool metal. My heart was pounding as I felt the weight of it in my hands. I slowly pull it all the way out and kept my

you doing?” Leo asked and I lifted my eyes to him and pointed the gun at the four boys I had grown to hate over

out!” I screamed holding the gun and pointing

I wasn’t a murderer. I