Four or Dead by G O A

Four or Dead

Chapter 80

Emma

After the meeting, I am hit with a crazy bout of morning sickness....in the afternoon! I guess 'morning sickness' is just a phrase. I haven't had time to study anything about what goes on during pregnancy. I think subconsciously I keep thinking has to be a mistake. Not that I never want to be a mother but this is just not the time to be dealing with the side effects that growing a small human can cause. \*

I'm also terrified that I have no idea how to be a good mom. My mom died when I was young and my dad hurt me. Not exactly much of an example of great parenting. Also with the life I've fallen into, I'm not sure it's even safe for a baby. The thing is, even though I know I have the choice to end my pregnancy, I can't bring myself to consider it. It's not this baby's fault that I am completely ill-prepared. Besides...isn't that something I should talk with the father about? \* I

I don't know

I want to keep the baby but what if...Jayden doesn't? I have no doubt he's the father. We weren't exactly careful and he was the last one I was with before being with Zane. Thank god I was able to keep Zane from ever being able to get me pregnant. Knowing him he had a plan to trap me like that all along. Too bad someone else had beat him to it. That also has my stomach turning, thinking of what he would have done if he found out I was carrying another man's baby. *)

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"Hey." Wyatt pops his head in and I can't help but smile. "How are you feeling?"

I grumble. "Like I lost all my breakfast too quickly and not at all in a pleasant way." I)

He chuckles at my pouting and I start to feel a little better. He has a way about him that I find relaxing and I could use that right now. The other guys would be freaking out and treating me like I'm injured. I love that they care about me that way and I know they will be amazing protectors to the baby but sometimes you just want to be treated normally

"Im sorry. Can I get you anything? Ginger Ale maybe?" He asks

"Smoothie?"

For some reason, the sound of blended fruit makes my stomach roll again. My face must reveal my thoughts because Wyatt chuckles. He walks over to where I'm laying on my bed and sits beside me

"What sounds good?" He asks and I consider the question

"Flaming hot Cheetos," I say proudly and he sputters out an amused laugh. 7)

"The sound of a smoothie is bad enough to make you sick but flaming

hot Cheetos sound good. I'm guessing this is a small peek of the weird

cravings I'm to expect the next few months." He says shaking his head, but he leans down and leaves a kiss on my forehead

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he sits up he lets out a

he wants to say but he's holding

my eyes because he's quick to add, "Not that I won't

he's right but I don't want to be sidelined on what's coming next.

don't want to be whisked away and protected, which is exactly what they will want to do once they find out. Don't get

don't know what will happen when all this stuff goes to hell. A lot of people could get hurt and none of us want

selfish of me to want to be a part of everything, but it's not just me I need to worry about now. I'm growing a tiny person inside me and I know

sure if I'm ready to be a mom, but trying means being careful and

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that it's true, but

not exactly the kind of news you tell someone over the

but

I need them if I'm going to get through this. I sit up straight and pull out my new phone and dial Asher's number. He's been off since I saw him again and I think he may be feeling a little unwanted so I need to be sure to rectify that. As much as he plays tough, he can be hurt easily and I never want to be the one to hurt him. I have been off too,

the hormones but I want to be near them right

the sound of the call going through I lift the phone to

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"Hello?" I smile instantly

if I was there he

that casual way of his when

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I say truthfully and I hear him let

miss you

You hesitated there." I tease

sighs and lets out a short chuckle. "Of

and wanting to feel some control in my life, and I've hurt the guys in the process. I'm giving them scraps of me when I should be there with them. The guilt hits me hard and

Freakin hormones

to see you guys. Is that okay?" I

came home but I know you want space." He says

that tasted like sour milk

I think I need to spend

there. I look to Wyatt and he gives me a small smile. Things between us have happened quickly and we are still so new that I am not sure what to

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