Four or Dead by G O A

Four or Dead

Chapter 80

Emma

After the meeting, I am hit with a crazy bout of morning sickness....in the afternoon! I guess 'morning sickness' is just a phrase. I haven't had time to study anything about what goes on during pregnancy. I think subconsciously I keep thinking has to be a mistake. Not that I never want to be a mother but this is just not the time to be dealing with the side effects that growing a small human can cause. \*

I'm also terrified that I have no idea how to be a good mom. My mom died when I was young and my dad hurt me. Not exactly much of an example of great parenting. Also with the life I've fallen into, I'm not sure it's even safe for a baby. The thing is, even though I know I have the choice to end my pregnancy, I can't bring myself to consider it. It's not this baby's fault that I am completely ill-prepared. Besides...isn't that something I should talk with the father about? \* I

I don't know

I want to keep the baby but what if...Jayden doesn't? I have no doubt he's the father. We weren't exactly careful and he was the last one I was with before being with Zane. Thank god I was able to keep Zane from ever being able to get me pregnant. Knowing him he had a plan to trap me like that all along. Too bad someone else had beat him to it. That also has my stomach turning, thinking of what he would have done if he found out I was carrying another man's baby. *)

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"Hey." Wyatt pops his head in and I can't help but smile. "How are you feeling?"

I grumble. "Like I lost all my breakfast too quickly and not at all in a pleasant way." I)

He chuckles at my pouting and I start to feel a little better. He has a way about him that I find relaxing and I could use that right now. The other guys would be freaking out and treating me like I'm injured. I love that they care about me that way and I know they will be amazing protectors to the baby but sometimes you just want to be treated normally

"Im sorry. Can I get you anything? Ginger Ale maybe?" He asks

"Smoothie?"

For some reason, the sound of blended fruit makes my stomach roll again. My face must reveal my thoughts because Wyatt chuckles. He walks over to where I'm laying on my bed and sits beside me

"What sounds good?" He asks and I consider the question

"Flaming hot Cheetos," I say proudly and he sputters out an amused laugh. 7)

"The sound of a smoothie is bad enough to make you sick but flaming

hot Cheetos sound good. I'm guessing this is a small peek of the weird

cravings I'm to expect the next few months." He says shaking his head, but he leans down and leaves a kiss on my forehead

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he lets out a

he wants to say but he's

but I think they need to know." He must see a hint of sadness in my eyes because he's quick to add, "Not that I

but I don't want to be sidelined on what's coming next. I just need to

what they will want to do once they find out. Don't get

you safe, and so do I. We don't know what will happen when all this stuff goes to hell. A lot of people

not just me I need to worry about now. I'm growing a tiny person inside me and I know a good mother would never put their baby

ready to be a mom, but trying means being careful and thinking things

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hate that it's true, but

It's not exactly the kind of news you tell someone

roll my eyes but add a smirk so

kind of support. These guys are all I have in the world now, and I need them if I'm going to get through this. I sit up straight and pull out my new phone and dial Asher's number. He's been off since I saw him again and I think he may be feeling

and independent and maybe it's the hormones but I

call going through I lift the phone to my ear and

this book for free. Don't miss

"Hello?" I smile instantly

I swear if I was there he would be smiling and trying to

He says in that casual way of his when he's

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I hear him let out a long

miss you

you sure? You hesitated there." I tease

"Of course I miss

are muttered softly and hit my right in the heart. I have been so selfish. I have been angry and scared and wanting to feel some control in my life, and I've hurt the guys in the process. I'm giving them scraps of me when I should be there with them. The guilt hits me hard

Freakin hormones

to come to see you guys. Is that

more if you came home but I know you want space." He says

that tasted like sour milk coming

but I think I need to spend

he gives me a small smile. Things between us have happened quickly and we are still so new that I am not sure what to

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