Four or Dead by G O A

Four or Dead

Chapter 163

It's been three days since my outburst at the Blood Lodge. I wanted to humiliate Alekos, to hurt him as he had hurt me, but now, I feel sad about saying those awful things to him because deep down, I do want..

a family and happiness. And once he learned I was not spying on him, he treated me well-he and Reyes. They might have fucked me and used me as a human sex toy, but they also took care of me, and snuggled with me, and fed and kept me company. And now I am stuck with Stefan who has barely said anything to me since we returned to the apartment. I am lonely and miserable because Alekos and Reyes have not shown up since Friday night. Not even a phone call to ask how I am

The truth is, 1 am more than miserable. I am in agony. The pain in my chest is so bad I don't have the energy to get up from the couch

Despite spending a lot of time on the couch napping or watching TV shows-alone because Stefan can barely stand looking at me I feel so tired

Maybe if I talk to Alekos and Reyes and tell them that I am sorry for saying that I hate them and that it was a lie, they will return to me

I don't have a phone or Alekos' number, but Stefan does. Maybe he will let me use it?

Somehow, I muster the energy to get up from the couch to look for Stefan and immediately get dizzy. I've mostly survived on cheap wine and ice cream in the past three days. My head is pounding like hell, Chapter 163

probably because I got so drunk last night that I even tried to kiss Stefan, but he pushed me away and yelled at me never to touch him again

Blinking away tears, I go look for Stefan. He is neither in the kitchen nor his room, so I go out on the terrasse. It is so hot outside, and the summer sun shines so bright it blinds me for a moment. I wait until my eyes adjust before I continue looking for Stefan when I hear his voice coming from the direction of the sunroom

"Took you long enough to realize she is not the one for us," Stefan says to someone

Is he talking about me? My eyes finally adjust enough to see him leaning against one of the crystal walls of the sunroom. He is talking on the phone, and our gazes meet as he says, "I will get rid of her in a bit and have the cleaning lady remove any trace of her from the apartment

you at home tonight. Tell Reyes he can choose the next bitch to open her legs for us. Tonight, if possible,"

want me anymore. Not only that, but they are already looking for someone to replace me. My heart starts to pound hard against my rib cage, my chest hurting so bad, I feel I will have a heart attack. Blood rushes to my ears, and I feel so dizzy and

I wash my face with cold water and look at myself in the mirror. No wonder Alekos does not want me anymore. I look like I have aged at least ten years, all pale and

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I was plain before, now

hate myself

national park, never to be seen

Stefan, I get out of the bathroom. Unsurprisingly, he

right now." His tone is so cold I am freezing,

bottomless pit of desperation and grief. My ears ring, and my lungs suddenly stop working, but my voice is unexpectedly steady as I say, "Could you help me get out of the city?" He shakes his head. "I am not your nanny. You are a grown-up ass woman. I am sure you can figure things out." Snapping his fingers, he adds,

me out like Iam a rabid dog. "Could I at least have some money? Just

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feet. "This should be enough for the bus." He closes his

to them? A cheap whore? This hurts so much, I

and before I have a mental breakdown in front of Stefan, I run out of the apartment, tears streaming down my face. I call the elevator, and when it stops and the doors open, the two women and the man inside it laugh upon seeing me, I go for the stairs. Instead of going down, I go up and up and up until I reach the rooftop and collapse to my knees, the hot gravel burning my skin, but I barely feel any pain as I

Why didn't I tell him the truth instead? Just be honest with him.... Now I am all alone, without money, shoes, and wearing one of

with him, Reyes, and Stefan. I just want to be happy. Am I so horrible for wanting happiness when others like me are suffering? The other day, when I told Reyes I missed him, I wasn't lying.

palms, thinking about what to do.

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After cleaning my face with the sleeve of the shirt, I force myself to

and I shall not falter," I say under my breath as I climb

for the complete experience all for free.

and turn to look at it for the last time. My heart bleeds, my soul screams in agony. I don't want to go. But