Four or Dead by G O A

Four or Dead

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It's been three days since my outburst at the Blood Lodge. I wanted to humiliate Alekos, to hurt him as he had hurt me, but now, I feel sad about saying those awful things to him because deep down, I do want..

a family and happiness. And once he learned I was not spying on him, he treated me well-he and Reyes. They might have fucked me and used me as a human sex toy, but they also took care of me, and snuggled with me, and fed and kept me company. And now I am stuck with Stefan who has barely said anything to me since we returned to the apartment. I am lonely and miserable because Alekos and Reyes have not shown up since Friday night. Not even a phone call to ask how I am

The truth is, 1 am more than miserable. I am in agony. The pain in my chest is so bad I don't have the energy to get up from the couch

Despite spending a lot of time on the couch napping or watching TV shows-alone because Stefan can barely stand looking at me I feel so tired

Maybe if I talk to Alekos and Reyes and tell them that I am sorry for saying that I hate them and that it was a lie, they will return to me

I don't have a phone or Alekos' number, but Stefan does. Maybe he will let me use it?

Somehow, I muster the energy to get up from the couch to look for Stefan and immediately get dizzy. I've mostly survived on cheap wine and ice cream in the past three days. My head is pounding like hell, Chapter 163

probably because I got so drunk last night that I even tried to kiss Stefan, but he pushed me away and yelled at me never to touch him again

Blinking away tears, I go look for Stefan. He is neither in the kitchen nor his room, so I go out on the terrasse. It is so hot outside, and the summer sun shines so bright it blinds me for a moment. I wait until my eyes adjust before I continue looking for Stefan when I hear his voice coming from the direction of the sunroom

"Took you long enough to realize she is not the one for us," Stefan says to someone

Is he talking about me? My eyes finally adjust enough to see him leaning against one of the crystal walls of the sunroom. He is talking on the phone, and our gazes meet as he says, "I will get rid of her in a bit and have the cleaning lady remove any trace of her from the apartment

choose the next bitch to open her legs for

me anymore. Not only that, but they are already looking for someone to replace me. My heart starts to pound hard against my rib cage, my chest hurting so bad, I feel I will have a

water and look at myself in the mirror. No wonder Alekos does not want me anymore. I look like I have aged at least ten years, all pale and

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are gaunt. If I was plain before, now I look hideous. Not

hate

have gone to a national park, never to be seen again, and become one of the

the bathroom. Unsurprisingly, he is waiting for me next

out of his apartment right now." His tone is so cold I am freezing, but I resist the urge

can't help but feel like falling into a bottomless pit of desperation and grief. My ears ring, and my lungs suddenly stop working, but my voice is unexpectedly steady as I say, "Could you help me get out of the city?" He shakes his head. "I am not your nanny. You are a grown-up ass woman. I am sure you can figure things out." Snapping his fingers, he adds, "You have five minutes

Iam a rabid dog. "Could I

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the bus." He closes his wallet, then opens it again and takes out a one-hundred bill, and after throwing it

This hurts so much, I

run out of the apartment, tears streaming down my face. I call the elevator, and when it stops and the doors open, the two women and the man inside it laugh upon seeing me, I go for the stairs. Instead of going down, I go up

truth instead? Just be honest with him.... Now I am all alone, without money, shoes, and wearing one of Reyes's shirts. And

happy. Am I so horrible for wanting happiness when others like me are suffering? The other day, when I told Reyes I missed him, I wasn't lying. If I had known that was the last time

face between my palms, thinking about what

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my face with the sleeve of the shirt, I force

of God, and I shall not falter," I say under my breath as I climb

for the complete experience all for free. The next

and turn to look at it for the last time. My heart bleeds, my soul screams in agony. I don't