His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

bleeding through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger. Anger won’t

our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating pain that is tearing through my chest to

struggle, and soon the

that Evangeline was going to

His

up as the sting of betrayal

not enough to keep her… She never wanted this

be spreading, but I realise that she’s been

curse… or curses.

to fight

my eyes, trying

my forehead, pondering

the answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with

we do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will happen to her with Evelyn in

can go to the realm… Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your brain.’

to help keep

you are both foolish!

but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel

play this shit blame game, but he’s meant to be

feel a heaviness settle inside,

‘Do

think that only you are bound by

I frown slightly.

am bound…. A prisoner who sees your stupidity

that… I can see the effect the curse has been having. When Evangeline had pushed me, when she

She didn’t.

have to tell myself that repeatedly because

and a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but one thing that Evangeline says sticks

wants to free

a victim of the curse… I’ve seen what it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why

always ruins

frown, ‘Have you

who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t

of her!’ He spits and I fall silent, staring

can you kill

reply, and it

for being able

her sleep, she looks just like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as Evangeline had

decide to try to get some sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only link I have

to think of a way

ideas?’ I ask

to hesitate before

way. There are ancient arts that they excel in.’ Zerachiel mutters

frown. Does that mean I should

to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will have

was something in there to help him, but he hasn’t