His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

that festering rage bleeding through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger.

sighs. “I don’t know all… but you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating

feel his struggle, and soon the

going

His

up as the sting of betrayal twists in

keep her… She never wanted this or

but I realise

curse… or curses.

to

heavily, I close my eyes, trying

forehead, pondering over what I

the answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with

I go there

the realm… Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your brain.’ Zerachiel replies

I don’t say anything. Right now I’m fucking grateful I at least have him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I

but you are both foolish! Impulsive! Stupid!’ He

been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made

shit blame game, but he’s meant to be a part

feel a heaviness settle

‘Do

that only you are

I frown slightly.

bound…. A prisoner who sees your stupidity lifetime

When Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she didn’t

She didn’t.

myself that repeatedly because I’m about

breasts rising and falling and a part of me

wants to free

I’ve seen what it can do to a

always ruins everything!’ He

you ever shown

I’m the one who is saying this, especially when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t here,

likes of her!’ He spits

can you kill

and it

it’s why he hates me, for

like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as Evangeline had the habit of curling into me

try to get some sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only link I have to

on her, trying to think of

ideas?’ I

to hesitate before

the vampires will know a way. There are ancient arts

that mean I

for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will

there to help him, but he hasn’t said anything