His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger. Anger won’t get

are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an

feel his struggle,

going to

His

sting

to keep her… She

but I realise that she’s been trying so hard to

curse… or curses.

need to

my eyes, trying to

massage my forehead, pondering over what

answer.’ Zerachiel mutters

how do we do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will happen to her with Evelyn in charge? I don’t think

let’s see. There must

him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity

you are

the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me, all my life you have

this shit blame game, but he’s

a heaviness

‘Do

you are

I frown slightly.

sees your stupidity lifetime and lifetime

Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she

She didn’t.

have to tell myself that repeatedly because

and falling and a part of me wants to hate

wants to

victim of the curse… I’ve seen what it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do

always ruins

you

Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is

of her!’ He spits and I fall silent, staring

you kill

and it

and it’s why he hates me, for being able

well, not entirely, as Evangeline had the

presence. I also know she’s the only link

on her, trying to think

I

seems to

way. There are ancient arts that they excel

mean I should attempt to

had left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will

something in there to help him, but he hasn’t said