His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

can feel that festering rage bleeding through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my

he sighs. “I don’t know all… but you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating pain that is tearing through my chest to the point I want to rip my own heart out

can feel his struggle, and soon

said that Evangeline was going

His

as the sting of betrayal twists

not enough to keep her… She never

be spreading, but I realise

curse… or curses.

need to

close my eyes, trying to focus on

pondering over what

answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with obvious

but how do we do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will happen to her with Evelyn in charge? I don’t think it’s a

can go to the realm… Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be a

I’m fucking grateful I at least have him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see that I want Evangeline back. Not only want… but need

but you are both foolish!

up, but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better.

play this shit blame game, but

I feel a heaviness settle inside, weighing

‘Do

only you are bound by

I frown slightly.

prisoner who sees your

me, when she released that anger,

She didn’t.

myself that repeatedly because I’m about to

by my side; her breasts rising and falling and a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but

to free

too is a victim of the curse… I’ve seen what it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do you hate her so much?’ I ask

always ruins everything!’ He

frown, ‘Have you ever shown her

I’m the one who is saying this, especially when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t here, but I also know

hope for the likes of her!’ He spits and I fall

you

doesn’t reply, and it gives me my

hates me, for being able to kill our mate in

entirely, as

to try to get some sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only link I have to Evangeline, and for that reason, I have

to think of a

I

seems to

are ancient

mean I

I had seen the books she had left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will have to go to the

something in there to help him, but he hasn’t said