His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

the hold I have

sighs. “I don’t know all… but you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating

his struggle, and

Evangeline was going to sacrifice herself

His

sting of betrayal twists in

to keep her… She never wanted this

darkness seems to be spreading, but I realise that

curse… or curses.

need to

close my eyes, trying to focus on remaining

massage my forehead, pondering over what I

given us the answer.’

do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about

she can go to the realm… Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your

grateful I at least have him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see that I

are both foolish! Impulsive! Stupid!’ He

handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me, all my life you have just

can both play this shit blame game, but he’s meant to

and I feel a

‘Do

only you are bound by these

I frown slightly.

sees your stupidity lifetime

I can see the effect the curse has been having. When Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she didn’t mean

She didn’t.

to tell myself that repeatedly because I’m about to lose

and a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but one thing that Evangeline

to free

I’ve seen what it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do you hate her so

ruins everything!’ He

you ever

nothing but ruin everything.

no hope for the likes of her!’ He spits and

can you

reply, and it gives me

can’t and it’s why he hates me, for being able

sleep, she looks just like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as Evangeline had the habit of curling

I also know she’s the only link I have to Evangeline, and for that reason, I have to keep her close. I don’t need her going

on her, trying to think

I ask

to hesitate before

There are ancient

frown. Does that mean I

quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I

to help him, but he hasn’t said anything