His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

17. A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

I need something or someone to tell me that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there is hope.

through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger. Anger won’t get me anywhere. I’m trying to fucking keep that in

“I don’t know all… but you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating pain that is tearing through my chest to the point I want to rip my own heart out to end

can feel his struggle, and soon the

said that Evangeline was going to sacrifice herself

His

flares up as the sting of betrayal twists in

her… She never wanted this or

but I realise that she’s been trying so

curse… or curses.

need to

heavily, I close my eyes, trying to

my forehead, pondering over what

given us the answer.’ Zerachiel

realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will happen to her with Evelyn in charge? I don’t think it’s a

the realm… Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your brain.’

have him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see that I want Evangeline

are both foolish! Impulsive! Stupid!’

the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me, all my life you have

know we can both play this shit blame game, but he’s meant to

and I feel a heaviness

‘Do

only you are bound

I frown slightly.

am bound…. A prisoner who sees your

Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she didn’t

She didn’t.

that repeatedly because I’m

a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but one thing that Evangeline says sticks in my

to free

a victim of the curse… I’ve seen what it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do you hate her so much?’ I ask

ruins

you ever

Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She

there is no hope for the likes of her!’ He

you

it

it’s why he hates me, for being able to kill our

Evangeline… well, not entirely, as Evangeline had the habit

I also know she’s the only link I have to Evangeline,

on her, trying to think of a way to reach

ideas?’ I ask

seems to hesitate before

will know a way. There are ancient arts that

I should attempt to

entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him

hoped there was something in there to help him, but he hasn’t said