His Dark Obsession by Moonlight Muse

25. My Fate

EVELYN.

He steps back, his heart thundering, and I know he’s going to do something. Will he stab me again? Snap my neck? Or will he be more inventive this time, make it more painful, slower, really go for the heart by ripping it from my chest?

A soul can only break so many times before it is irreparable. Peering up at him, it makes me wonder what

his next move will be.

Is someone hiding out here? His loyal friend wasn’t there when we left the gathering.

I can see the raw guilt and regret in his eyes, but are those feelings genuine? Or just a mask to hide his

true intentions.

I’m telling myself they are, because it is all I have.

Ever since he returned from talking to the she-vampire, I knew he had a plan… he is going to side with them as he does every time. He’ll turn his back on me, throw me away like every other time.

He will become their king and he will have no remorse for me…

His hands cup my face and my heart squeezes, pounding violently in my ears.

Why does it hurt more than ever? Just once I want to know what it’s like to be wanted, to be loved, and not seen as the monster, the burden and the one responsible for the destruction of a never-ending cycle

of heartbreak.

However, the more I think of his intentions, the more his betrayal hurts, and writhes through me like an infection, as I crave what I’ve never wanted before.

The feelings I feel for him are foreign, and for once, I wish for my normal sadistic nature, the uncaring,

dark version.

Is it because this time he treated me with some care?

That he showed me some level of love?

I’m not sure, but my heart is breaking knowing that even Zedkiel doesn’t want me. That he’ll never want me. He just wants her back.

For the first time, Zerachiel’s counterpart is showing me some love, something that I couldn’t ever imagine.

Unlike them, I hold memories of our past lives, even if they are blessed with no memory of me or the pain. I’m the one who has to relive it every time.

He still looks the same, he always does, maybe sometimes he has dreads, or locs, the last time he had even dyed his hair… but it’s always him. Always the same man…. just a little more broken each time we meet, but for the first time, those golden-green eyes are showing me a version of him that I have always yearned for.

But I am struggling to understand why he is giving up on me? I’ve tried to behave. He’s shown tenderness, instead of blatant hate, and showed love instead of vengeance.

I can’t bring myself to hate him for what he’s about to do and I find myself speaking words I haven’t spoken or meant in such a long time.

“I love you.” I whisper, unable to stop myself from showing the vulnerability I am feeling as the darkness

inside of me begins to rise.

I’m fighting it, because I don’t want to disappoint him, but for what?

He will betray me…

He always does….

Yet, I want to hear those words too…

Need to hear them at least once…

“I love you too.” He says softly, making my eyes widen in shock.

I scan his eyes, trying to understand him.

His eyes are full of such intense emotions and, for the first time, I feel weak.

No, it’s not the type of love I want, but it is real. It’s there in some form. I blink up at him, my mind replaying his words on repeat.

said he

listen to me until the end, ok?” He says quietly. His deep voice is like a pleasant hum in my ear, his

going to miss him.

Miss his touch.

thunder fills the air outside as the rain begins to pour down, hitting the cracked stone, and spraying

“Ok.” I murmur.

It’s not goodbye until all hope is lost. I’m going to break this curse,

feel an icy wave of dread wash over me and my heart twists painfully in my chest, yet I can’t

will always choose her and that’s ok… I’m used to it.” I whisper, looking away from him when he grips my chin, tilting my face up and forcing me to look at him.

head, his thumb brushing across my lips gently, and

I will always choose the both of

I refuse to give in to that emotion. His words, as much as I long to believe him, history always repeats, and I am

I am delusional.

You will always choose

is struggling. If I can make it better for

need to suffer.

into the darkness ahead as I pull out of his

and I look at him sharply.

the realm of the gods to get the

He says

If he goes, she’ll be

darkness inside of me flare up inside of me, threatening to take over and I

flicker black as he reaches for me, but I step

I need your help.” He says, making

my help?

“With what?”

back! Surely, he doesn’t expect me to help him get her

doesn’t know she’s there, but if he goes, then he’ll know, and they’ll be

And me?

be alone once again…

are you doing?” Ziahra’s voice comes, and I turn sharply seeing her, Kash

is vast, but there is also more. An ancient magic

the hollow of

doing the right thing.” Zedkiel says, his

snarls,

26. A Little White Lie

EVELYN.

gaze returns to me, and I don’t know what to do. I can easily unleash

going to tell me the truth, or is he just trying to

won’t keep getting chances to right the wrongs of our past. I need you to trust me, Evelyn. I don’t want to hurt you; you have to know that.” There’s an

Trust him?

single time, he will cast me aside for her…

used to

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LIFETIME NINE YEARS OLD)

her shoulder. “You’re it! You’re it!” I giggle as I spin around, my white dress tangling around my legs, and I grab two fistfuls of it

hard to run in the snow!” Evangeline giggles, as we plough through

as she tries to get back up, whilst I roll onto my back and lay there staring at the snow falling down. The snowflakes glitter as they rain

tongue poking out from between her red lips, as she tries to catch the

as she smiles

my mouth, trying to catch one and giggle when I feel the iciness touch my tongue, the

laugh and she giggles, rolling on her side. Her raven dark hair falls around her angelic face like a cascading waterfall, we are identical in every way, except for the scratch across her freckled nose, from us playing yesterday.

mischief, and I know she is about to do something when her hand reaches out and taps my shoulder. “Ha! You’re it, you’re it! Can’t catch me!” She taunts playfully, rolling out

looking at the sky that is almost as white as the snow, the clouds heavy as the snow continues to

Ah, so pretty!

Evie, let’s play, I got you!” She shouts, and I turn my head. She pouts, waiting for me to get up and I shriek in excitement as I try to

her face. She grabs a handful, smearing it down my face, and I laugh excitedly, trying

too, and shakes her head, the snow falling from

surely up to my knees!

beside me and bunches up her lace dress, she wipes the snow off my

silly.” She coos. “There’s your beautiful face.”

brightly