Chapter 86

JESSICA

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“You’re out of your fucking mind,” I whisper, but it doesn’t sound like me. It sounds like someone else a girl I don’t recognize, one who thought she knew the limits of what he’d sacrifice.

But clearly, I didn’t.

A dry, bitter laugh claws its way out of my throat. I pace. No–I spiral. Across the room, back again. I run a hand through my hair, tug too hard at the roots, because the pressure keeps me from screaming. “You didn’t. You didn’t do that. Tell me you didn’t just–tell me you didn’t give it to Riot. Riot, Grayson? Are you even hearing yourself?”

He looks at me then. Really looks. And it’s worse than if he’d ignored me. Because he’s calm. He’s heartbreakingly calm. Like this isn’t the end of everything. Like he hasn’t just stripped himself of the only thing that’s ever anchored him.

My stomach turns. The bile builds slow, bitter, hot. I press a fist to it. “No. No, you don’t get to do this. You don’t get to give up being Alpha and call that love. That’s not how this works.”

Grayson says nothing. He’s just standing there watching me with his bored expression.

Damn him. I cannot believe–I cannot believe he’s looking at me like this is fine.

“Say something,” I spit, voice rising. “Don’t you dare just stand there like you haven’t set fire to the only thing that ever made sense in your life. Say something, Grayson.”

He finally stands.

And god, he’s still every inch the Alpha, even without the title. Broad shoulders. Steady stare. Voice low and clear as he says, “I’m not erasing it. I’m choosing you.”

I shake my head too fast. It rattles something loose in me.

“No,” I say, barely above a whisper. “You don’t get to choose me like that. You don’t get to throw yourself into a freefail and expect me to catch you. I never asked for this. I never asked you to give up who you are.”

The tears come fast, hot, and I wipe at them angrily. Like if I smear them across my cheeks fast enough, they won’t count.

“You don’t love me,” I say, and I hate how broken it sounds. “We had a plan.”

Grayson takes a step forward.

I step back.

And it keeps going like that–him advancing, me retreating until my shoulder blades kiss the cold wall and he’s close enough that

I can feel the heat radiating off him, simmering beneath the calm he wears like armor

He doesn’t touch me. That might’ve hurt less.

says, voice quieter now,

pretend it’s fate. You didn’t choose me, Grayson–you abandoned everything and slapped my name

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shove at his chest, and he

and fast and hopelessly human. He barely moved. And the way he just absorbed it, like he’d already

it to him like it wasn’t your entire life. Like it wasn’t the last thing your father gave you. Like I

Still, he said nothing.

I couldn’t

pressing the heels of my hands into my eyes as if that might stop the room from spinning. I gripped the edge of the table just to feel something solid beneath my fingers,

the future we planned and then stand there and ask me to pretend

I heard him breathe my name.

didn’t turn.

he said it like a prayer, like it was the only

dare just

stepped closer, and I felt the heat of him

it,” he said quietly. “I’m

words landed with the kind of weight you can’t measure. Not in pounds or distance or time.

right out of

around slowly, heart in my throat, and looked at him–really looked–and for a moment I wished I

Because he looked destroyed.

in a way that most people would see. But I saw it. I knew him too well not to. It was in the way his shoulders didn’t square up the way they used to, in the way his eyes didn’t hold that same fire. He looked like a man who had carved out the best

time,

“I know,” he said.

then he dropped

a tilt of

Know what?

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like each word cost him something. “And I know what it looks like. I know it doesn’t make sense to anyone else… maybe not even to you. But it makes sense to

like he was biting down on something

that it mattered more than you. Because every time I walked into that war room, every time I stood

his head, once, hard, like he hated himself

how I was slowly becoming someone you wouldn’t recognize. Someone who could win

I didn’t know if I wanted to run or

And God, the way he looked at me–like he was standing on the edge of something vast and unforgiving, like this was

slower now, like

me,” he said, softer now, almost reverent. “But it was never really mine, Jess. It was an obligation dressed as a legacy. A throne built on rules I didn’t write. And the longer I held it, the more it started to feel like I was trying

me, but that I had always been the thing he wanted most, not

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