His Trouble Maker

Chapter 147

Chapter 147

JESSICA

“Seriously?”

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Riot barks a laugh somewhere to my left, but I barely hear him. Grayson’s too close. When he broke down earlier, my heart shattered in a million pieces.

Seeing him cry for me makes me question if I deserved him. I’m too fucked up for Grayson Westwood but he didn’t care about that.

He’s always there for me, saving my ass. I didn’t believe him when he said to me that he loves me because I saw many versions of love but his version always makes me go back to questioning my love for him.

My eyes flicked to him once–stupid, stupid–and he was already there, already looking at me like he’s so afraid I’ll just run away from him like I always do.

What did I do to deserve him?

Sometimes I wonder if I prayed so hard or that he just loves me. Whatever it is, I think I’ll take it.

“I…I don’t really think you should tie Riot-”

– Tighten the rope!” Grayson shouted and I licked my lips, trying to stop myself from tearing this…beautiful

reunion.

He saw us. It will take a fool to know why he’s acting like this. He saw me and Riot earlier.

“Grayson, he’s fine-”

He looked at me and when he did, all the reasons that I loved him were gone. Sometimes, it’s like I’m loving two versions of him. Grayson is too soft for me but cruel to others. “Why, Jess?”

“Huh?”

I said it without thinking. I knew what he meant. Of course I did. But I couldn’t say it. Couldn’t answer while my throat burned like that. While he looked at me like he already knew and was still asking anyway.

I swallowed hard. My hands went cold. My jaw clenched, like if I just held it tight enough I could stop my whole face from falling apart.

“Don’t,” I whispered.

understand everything,” he said, softer now. “But I can

That tore through me.

His face broke a little, just a twitch, just enough to ruin me. “I

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doing that thing he does, breathing through pain like it doesn’t matter as long as I’m okay. But I could see

and it wasn’t accusatory. It was wrecked. Like he was trying to understand something that didn’t

I had let Riot hold me. I let myself lean into it for

thing I could say. The only thing I could offer without falling apart. “I was scared. I

let it happen,”

“Please don’t look at me

breathed out, sharp, like that

forget how to?” he asked, barely louder than a breath. “Or was

heat but didn’t touch him.

fix it,” I whispered. “I’ll

to realize I’m starting to lose him. “Do you

Moon goddess, please.

stared at the ground for a second. Then at me. Then through

“You could be a storm. You could be my undoing. You could burn this pack to the ground and I’d still fucking want

My breath caught.

lie to me again, and I’d still come back. You could break me in half, Jess. And I’d still try to find a way

He

you scare the

“Grayson…”

He stepped in then.

voice dropped. “I’d forgive you. I’d

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mine.”

the corner of my eyes. I

how to stop loving you,” he

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him. Just the edge of his shirt, two fingers curling in

He let me.

broke. “What are you saying,

slowly. He cupped the side of my face, fingers slipping into my hair. “I think you’ve

Hold it. Let it out like it hurts to even speak. “I think I know

“You’re wrong.”

confused, Jess. Between Riot