Housewife Gone Wild

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I felt like a plastic bag just drifting wherever the wind took me, powerless to steer my own life.

Ever since I met Ryan, everything has been out of my hands.

“Ryan, I’ve been on and off with Nathan so many times. I feel like such a heartbreaker, totally irresponsible. Are you sure you want someone like me?” I didn’t want to trash myself, but that’s just how it is–my feelings are all over the place, and I can’t seem to control them.

Ryan looked at me, eyes wild and intense. “Good and bad aren’t for the world to decide. I make up my own mind about you”

“I’m worried you’ll regret this someday, thinking I’m not faithful when it comes to relationships,” I said, half–joking, half-

serious.

“You’ve got money and looks. What is there for you to be afraid of losing?” Ryan shot back, and it hit me hard.

I stared at him, stunned. He curled his lips into a wicked smirk. “I stopped believing in ‘forever ages ago. Relationships only exist when there’s mutual attraction. You really are a heartbreaker–always making promises and never keeping them.”

I was stunned. Not long ago, I thought Ryan was just this sweet, naive guy.

was just an

things I can’t control,” I stammered,

nobody really gets to do whatever they

carry so much weight on your

thinks I was dealt a winning hand, but nobody sees the thorns and fangs hiding behind

I listened to them drinking and feasting, chatting about how much cash

was the moment I understood–if I didn’t take charge of my own life, I’d just end up stuck in another steel drum, curled up while the people profiting off me sat in the

and strikingly handsome face, unable to imagine the kind of stories hidden behind

then reached out and

desire in his embrace–it felt like he just needed someone to hold

husky. “Victoria, you say your life isn’t perfect anymore because of the divorce. If that’s true, then my soul

his tall body trembling ever so slightly, as if a part of his

I’m sorry,‘ I said softly. ‘I used to be one of those people in the crowd who envied you. I never really tried to understand you, and I always judged your opinions because of where you came from. That was my

used to it. Right now, all I care about is figuring out

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