I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

for the pain for when he wakes up. I’m

Stay, you need rest and it’s not

here.” He reassures

were the ones who helped us escape and stopped those wolves that refused to pledge their allegiance to me. Even the rogues had run, clearly fearing their lives. It’s all a

lose?” I ask softly. He looks down, smiling slightly, but it’s something I realise is a reflex to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a sadness in his eyes and although he’s trying to act ok, I know

so sorry,” I

have families?

More deaths…

this is war, and my pack is ready.” He kneels before me and

proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking a home in my pack

hair back, and I

his leave. The words are comforting… but they didn’t come from the man

Once everything is done and I have rolled the rug away, not wanting the children to see any signs of this tomorrow, I mop the entire floor. Finally, the smell of

disposed of the bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the

the blankets before I gently check Sia’s pulse,

her back and I gaze down at her, wishing all her pain and illness were

you better. I peck them ever so lightly, not

I enter the room, and the first thing that hits me is the smell of smoke. Then I see him standing there. He’s only in a pair

and sexy as ever as he leans against the wall with a cigarette in his hands; he rarely smokes There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know

says when I’m about

feeling as if I’ve just been punched

best way I possibly could. I’m trying.” I

memory of Olivan’s life fading before my eyes replays in my mind and the way I mercilessly

do this tomorrow?

just… want

I gave you a clear warning, Zaia, a fucking warning not to go anywhere with them and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our eyes meet and

said,

I know where you stand in this twisted play

ego- “Please stop.” I plead quietly. My heart is

to hold me. He looks down at

“Zaia-”

when he looks into my eyes, his soften. There’s regret, guilt, pain and so much more in them as he grabs me

I close my eyes, sinking into his embrace. Sparks course through me, but more than that it’s the warmth and power of his embrace that cocoon me

as I hold on tight, as if he might just slip away. That maybe this is all a dream and I’m going to

my cheeks as he kisses the top

His voice

any hesitation.’ I whisper through the bond. ‘I wanted

to.’ His voice is softer now, soothing yet strong,

of it all. I-I want to find them and end this once and for all. They can’t

arms as he holds