I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

Valerie has given him something for the pain

Stay, you need rest and it’s not safe.” I

men are here.” He

wolves that refused to pledge their allegiance to me. Even the rogues had run, clearly fearing their lives. It’s

to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a

so sorry,” I

have families? Children?

More deaths…

alright, this is war, and my pack is ready.” He kneels before me

proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking a home in my pack would become this

my hair back,

The words are comforting… but they didn’t come from

any signs of

bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the children’s room, they’re both fast asleep and I smile softly, feeling warmth fill my heart and I gently caress their hair, about to kiss them when I remember I’m

me feel stronger. I fuss with the blankets before I gently check Sia’s pulse,

I gaze down at

going to make you better. I peck them ever so lightly, not wanting to get this filthy blood on them

going to be angry. I enter the room, and the first

he rarely smokes There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know what to say. I walk to my suitcase and take out

that you fucked up. “He says when I’m about to step into the bathroom, making me

at him, feeling as if I’ve just been punched

best way I

the way I mercilessly flung his heart

tomorrow?

just… want

you a clear warning, Zaia, a fucking warning not to go anywhere with them and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our eyes meet and I’m just staring back into a pair

and like I said, I messed

where you stand in this twisted

quietly. My heart is thundering, and I look up at him. “I don’t need this

want you to hold me. He looks

“Zaia-”

and when he looks into my eyes, his soften. There’s regret, guilt, pain and so much more in them as he grabs me

close my eyes, sinking into his embrace. Sparks course through me, but more than that it’s the warmth and power of his embrace

wrap my arms tightly around his waist, never wanting to let go. His heart is thudding hard and so is mine as I hold

as he kisses

voice is quiet

him without any hesitation.’ I whisper through the bond. ‘I wanted him dead

is nothing wrong with that. You followed your instincts, nothing more. He wasn’t a good person, and he tricked you. You simply did what you had to.’ His voice is softer now, soothing yet strong, and I’m

and end this once and for all. They can’t

as he holds