I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

in his room. Valerie has given him something for the pain for when

Atticus. Stay, you need rest and

here.” He

allegiance to me. Even the rogues had run, clearly

something I realise is a reflex to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a sadness in his eyes

so sorry,”

have families? Children?

More deaths…

and my pack is ready.” He kneels before me

right. We all misjudge situations. You were incredible out there. I’m damn proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking a home in my pack would become this

brushes my hair back, and

words are comforting… but they

blood. Once everything is done and I have rolled the rug away, not wanting the children to see any signs of this tomorrow, I mop the entire floor. Finally, the smell of blood has eased up, replaced by the citrus

I’m still covered in blood. I need a bath Once everything is clean and I’ve disposed of the bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the children’s room, they’re both fast asleep and I smile softly, feeling warmth fill my heart and I gently caress their hair, about to kiss them when I remember I’m

blankets before I gently check

down at her, wishing all her pain

so lightly, not wanting to get this filthy blood on them and then leave the

be angry. I enter the room, and the first thing that hits me is

hands; he rarely smokes There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know what to say. I walk to my suitcase and take out some yoga pants and a tank top and head to the bathroom to

says when

over at him, feeling as if I’ve just

I also handled it in the best way I possibly could. I’m trying.” I reply quietly. I don’t

life fading before my eyes replays in my mind and the way I mercilessly flung his heart into the

we do this tomorrow? I’m tired.” I say

just… want

and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our eyes meet and I’m just staring back into a pair

like I said,

where you stand in this twisted

I plead quietly. My heart is thundering,

to hold

“Zaia-”

There’s regret, guilt, pain and so much

his embrace. Sparks course through me, but more than that it’s the warmth and power of his embrace that cocoon me in this

let go. His heart is thudding hard and so is mine as I hold on tight, as if he might just slip away. That maybe

as he kisses the top

cry.” His voice

I whisper through the bond. ‘I wanted him dead for his

your instincts, nothing more. He wasn’t a good person, and he tricked you. You simply did what you had to.’ His voice is softer now, soothing yet strong, and I’m

to find them and end this once and for all. They can’t keep terrorising us!” I say, frustrated

my arms as he holds onto me