I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

the pain for when he wakes

need rest and it’s not safe.”

here.”

allegiance to me. Even the rogues had

lose?” I ask softly. He looks down, smiling slightly, but it’s something I realise is a reflex to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a sadness in his eyes and

so sorry,” I

have families? Children?

More deaths…

is ready.” He kneels before me

was right. We all misjudge situations. You were incredible out there. I’m damn proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking a home in my pack would become this goddess? You

brushes my hair

say before he stands up and takes his leave. The words are comforting… but they didn’t come from the man I

not wanting the children to see any signs of this tomorrow, I mop the entire floor. Finally, the smell of blood has eased up, replaced by the citrus

wearing the sweatpants and shirt we had in the getaway car, and I’m still covered in blood. I need a bath Once everything is clean and I’ve disposed of the bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the children’s room, they’re both fast asleep and I smile softly, feeling warmth fill my

stronger. I fuss with the blankets before I

slightly before turning onto her back and I gaze down

ever so lightly, not wanting to get this filthy blood on them and then leave the room glancing

the first thing that

There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know

you fucked up. “He says when I’m

him, feeling as if

a mistake, but I also handled it in the best way I

in my mind and the way I mercilessly flung his heart into the woods. I swallow as I look at the man

do this tomorrow?

just… want to

I gave you a clear warning, Zaia, a fucking warning not to go anywhere with them and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our

said,

argue… not when I know where you stand in this twisted

stop.” I plead quietly. My heart is thundering, and I look up at him.

just want you to hold me. He looks down at

“Zaia-”

but begging and when he looks into my eyes, his soften. There’s regret, guilt, pain and so much

into his embrace. Sparks course through me, but more than that it’s the warmth and power of his embrace that cocoon me

is thudding hard and so is mine as I hold on tight, as if he might just slip away.

my cheeks as he kisses the top

cry.” His voice is

him without any hesitation.’ I whisper through the bond. ‘I

simply did what you had to.’ His voice is softer now, soothing yet strong, and I’m unable to hold back the small sob that escapes me. The weight of the evening coming crashing

declared war, Bastien… I’m sick of it all. I-I want to find them and end this once and for all. They can’t keep terrorising us!” I say, frustrated as I step back

hands brush my arms as he holds onto me