I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

Valerie has given him something for the pain for when

you need rest and

are here.”

rogues had

something I realise is a reflex to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a sadness in his eyes and

so sorry,” I

have

More deaths…

is ready.” He kneels before me and

all misjudge situations. You were incredible out there. I’m damn proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking

my hair back,

say before he stands up and takes his leave. The words are comforting… but they didn’t

done and I have rolled the rug away, not wanting the children to see any signs of this tomorrow, I mop the

car, and I’m still covered in blood. I need a bath Once everything is clean and I’ve disposed of the bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the

stronger. I fuss with the blankets

I gaze down at her, wishing all her pain and illness

I peck them ever so lightly, not

not sure Sebastian is in there, but if he is… he’s going to be angry. I enter the room, and the first thing that hits me is the smell of smoke. Then I see him standing

and sexy as ever as he leans against the wall with a cigarette in his hands; he rarely smokes There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know what to say. I walk to my suitcase and take out some yoga pants and a tank top and head to the bathroom

up. “He says when I’m about to

at him, feeling as if I’ve just

way I

before my eyes replays in my mind and the way I mercilessly flung his heart into

this tomorrow? I’m tired.” I

want to be

and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our eyes meet

I said, I

where you stand in this twisted

have cost Jai his life. Your recklessness and your ego- “Please stop.” I plead quietly. My heart is thundering, and I

hold me. He looks down at

“Zaia-”

so much more in them as he grabs me by my arm and yanks me close, wrapping his arms tightly around

course through me, but more than that it’s the warmth and power of his embrace that cocoon

as I hold

my cheeks as he

His voice is

him without any hesitation.’ I whisper through the bond. ‘I wanted him dead

is nothing wrong with that. You followed your instincts, nothing more. He wasn’t a good person, and he tricked you. You simply did what you had to.’ His voice is softer

all. I-I want to find them and end this once and for all. They can’t keep terrorising us!” I say, frustrated as

arms as he holds onto me