I Am The Luna

19. A Moment of Uncertainty or I Am The Luna Chapter 97 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

I know I should have listened to him, but I truly believed I was doing the right thing. I honestly didn’t think things would end up this bad. The festering thoughts aren’t easing up, and I feel mentally exhausted.

“Go with him. Show Atticus his room. I’ll clean this up. “I tell Valerie gently. She’s shaken by it all, and I know she’s going through a lot. I hope she at least realises she does love him.

Everyone deserves a second chance, right?

She nods and I give her a smile, watching Atticus lift him carefully. “You did amazingly. Now go with him.” I whisper to her.

She’s about to say something, but instead, she simply smiles and nods before she helps Atticus with Jai, supporting his head. She’s got blood in her hair and over her clothes, but like me, she has far bigger things to be concerned about.

They leave the room and my smile fades as I slowly drop into one of the chairs, my face falling. No longer able to keep the mask of strength on my face.

Everything went wrong tonight… This was not what I was expecting to happen.

I wanted to make things right between the rogues and us, to prove that they were just like us… But they’re not, and the painful truth is they don’t like us and never wanted to create an alliance of peace.

Then Jai, Jai shouldn’t have gotten hurt He almost died because of me… How many more people’s lives will I be responsible for in the war that I have created?

I’m terrified. Terrified of what I can possibly do… I killed someone with no hesitation and the most chilling part is, I know I’ll do it all over again if I have to. I look down at my blood-covered hands. Look at the blood behind my fingernails…

Who am I becoming?

Do I even recognise myself?

Is Sebastian hating what I’m becoming?

I’m pathetic, aren’t I? I wanted him to pull me into his arms and tell me it’s going to be ok… or simply just an embrace, glad that I am home, and safe. But instead, he turned his back on me.

I place my head in my hands, brushing my hair back as I try to pull myself from my spiralling thoughts.

My eyes sting with tears but I can’t cry. There’s so much I need to do and to explain to Sebastian….

“Zaia…”

I look up when Atticus enters the room and I quickly sit up looking away as I try to compose myself.

“Hey…”

his room. Valerie has given him something for the

Atticus. Stay, you need rest and it’s not safe.” I say

men are here.”

ones who helped us escape and stopped those wolves that refused to pledge their allegiance to me. Even the rogues had run, clearly fearing their lives. It’s all a mess. I will have to go there and figure out how

something I realise is a reflex to hide his real emotions. “Seven.” He says softly. There’s a sadness in his eyes and although he’s trying to act ok,

so sorry,”

they have families? Children?

More deaths…

my pack is ready.” He kneels before me and gives my

damn proud of you. Who would have thought the pregnant woman seeking a home in my pack would become this goddess? You are incredible,

my hair

The words are comforting… but they

rug away, not wanting the children to see any signs of this tomorrow, I mop the entire floor. Finally, the smell of blood has eased up, replaced by the citrus smell of

car, and I’m still covered in blood. I need a bath Once everything is clean and I’ve disposed of the bloody clothes and towels, I head upstairs. I pop into the children’s room, they’re both fast asleep and I smile softly, feeling warmth fill my heart and

stronger. I fuss with the blankets

her back and I gaze down at

be ok, my angel. We are going to make you better. I peck them ever so lightly,

sure Sebastian is in there, but if he is… he’s going to be angry. I enter the room, and the first thing that hits me

he leans against the wall with a cigarette in his hands; he rarely smokes There’s a deep frown on his face and I don’t know what to say. I walk to my suitcase and take out some yoga pants

says when I’m about to step into

over at him, feeling as if I’ve just been punched in

I made a mistake, but I also handled it in the best way I possibly could. I’m trying.” I reply quietly. I

fading before my eyes replays in my mind and the way I mercilessly flung his heart into the woods. I

tomorrow?

just… want to

you a clear warning, Zaia, a fucking warning not to go anywhere with them and you did just that.” He says as he advances on me. Our eyes meet and

I said,

you stand in

stop.” I plead quietly. My heart is thundering, and I look up at him. “I don’t need this

to hold me. He looks

“Zaia-”

There’s regret, guilt, pain and so much more in

eyes, sinking into his embrace. Sparks course through me, but more than

I hold on tight, as if he might just slip away. That

cheeks as he kisses

don’t cry.” His voice is

hesitation.’ I whisper through the bond. ‘I wanted him dead for

he tricked you. You simply did what you had to.’ His voice is softer now, soothing yet strong, and I’m unable to hold back the small sob

sick of it all. I-I want to find them and end this once

brush my arms as