I Am The Luna

21. A Kiss Deeper than Words or I Am The Luna Chapter 99 By Moonlight Muse

SEBASTIAN.

The sound of the shower running fills the room and I sit on the bed, running my fingers through my hair for the hundredth time.

How do I do this?

There’s no time left…

I have to leave her…

Standing up, I leave the room silently and walk down the hall to the children’s room. The light to Jai’s room is on and I can hear quiet talking.

I hope for what it’s worth that his injury at least helped Valerie forgive him a little. To this day, I don’t think Jai was in his right mind when he ended up sleeping with Cara back then.

He had been so distraught I don’t think he even knew who it was in that bed, simply rambling about how he needed to find Valerie.

I make sure I’m not making any sound as I slip into the children’s room and look at the two little angels in bed. They’re fast asleep and I realise I’m leaving them again.

I’m always leaving them. I sit down on the bed and look down at Zion, running my fingers through his dark hair. Take care of your mom and this pack, son. Be the Alpha I never could be.

Why did she have to love me? Why did she have to be fated to a fool like me? All I do is hurt her even when I don’t want to…

I look over at Sia, her pale cheeks are flushed with a pink hue, and her breathing is shallow. He poisoned her… my little princess…

I brush a few strands of her hair off her face. It’s so similar to Zaia’s… She’s going to grow up and look just like her mother and she will grow up.

She will live a healthy and happy life. I will get that antidote. Even if it’s the last thing I do, she will survive this and she will heal.

My heart clenches, the pain in my chest is almost crippling. Leaning down, I kiss her forehead softly, inhaling her scent.

I’m sorry I won’t get to see you grow. I kiss her hand gently before I kiss Zion, knowing he’ll grow up strong. Take care of your sister for me, son.

I close my eyes, trying to calm the storm that is bubbling inside of me. Casting a final glance at the children, I stand up, not wanting Zaia to realise I’m missing from the bedroom. I get up. turning away and then stop.

back, I look down at

kind of father

One you don’t need.

never forget this moment. I love you both so fucking much and I don’t deserve

stinging, but I take a deep breath, turning away for the final time and striding to the door. If I look back, I don’t know if I’ll be able to walk away with the strength I

to the bedroom, I can still hear the sound of water.

into bed, place my arms behind my head and close my eyes. I hear the shower switch off and after a few moments I hear her

to

rustle as she gets dressed. There are a few moments of silence before

fingers gently comb

I can’t do this. Fuck, I can’t leave her. My eyes

my jaw. She must have picked up on

orbs. Instead, I tug her close,

thudding in rhythm to my

and I pull her head

don’t respond- I

without giving myself

talk to me,’ she

I reply quietly. She makes the mistake of looking

it?” she asks softly. “Nothing, relax. Why are you so worried?” I ask, reaching up and brushing the

as I run my fingers down her neck. Her face is make-up- free,

they are glistening with tears. “I don’t know… I’m scared.” She whispers,

I

reply quietly, clenching my jaw as I try to

to find Gerard, and we are

Together…

an underlying urgency in her

many promises will I break? Our hearts are thumping violently before I claim her lips in a deep,

whimpers softly against my lips, kissing me back with equal intensity as her eyes

I’m sorry.

of her neck as I kiss her harder, never

You deserved better.

her soft plush lip, cherishing the taste of her lips, the

and

for you will never

arms around her, and she grips onto me equally hard. Our bodies are moulded together as if made for

its own plans You are the

back, gripping the back of her neck and hair as I kiss her like it’s for the last time and I know it