I Am The Luna

21. A Kiss Deeper than Words or I Am The Luna Chapter 99 By Moonlight Muse

SEBASTIAN.

The sound of the shower running fills the room and I sit on the bed, running my fingers through my hair for the hundredth time.

How do I do this?

There’s no time left…

I have to leave her…

Standing up, I leave the room silently and walk down the hall to the children’s room. The light to Jai’s room is on and I can hear quiet talking.

I hope for what it’s worth that his injury at least helped Valerie forgive him a little. To this day, I don’t think Jai was in his right mind when he ended up sleeping with Cara back then.

He had been so distraught I don’t think he even knew who it was in that bed, simply rambling about how he needed to find Valerie.

I make sure I’m not making any sound as I slip into the children’s room and look at the two little angels in bed. They’re fast asleep and I realise I’m leaving them again.

I’m always leaving them. I sit down on the bed and look down at Zion, running my fingers through his dark hair. Take care of your mom and this pack, son. Be the Alpha I never could be.

Why did she have to love me? Why did she have to be fated to a fool like me? All I do is hurt her even when I don’t want to…

I look over at Sia, her pale cheeks are flushed with a pink hue, and her breathing is shallow. He poisoned her… my little princess…

I brush a few strands of her hair off her face. It’s so similar to Zaia’s… She’s going to grow up and look just like her mother and she will grow up.

She will live a healthy and happy life. I will get that antidote. Even if it’s the last thing I do, she will survive this and she will heal.

My heart clenches, the pain in my chest is almost crippling. Leaning down, I kiss her forehead softly, inhaling her scent.

I’m sorry I won’t get to see you grow. I kiss her hand gently before I kiss Zion, knowing he’ll grow up strong. Take care of your sister for me, son.

I close my eyes, trying to calm the storm that is bubbling inside of me. Casting a final glance at the children, I stand up, not wanting Zaia to realise I’m missing from the bedroom. I get up. turning away and then stop.

look down at them once more,

kind of father is never

One you don’t need.

their faces, knowing I’ll never forget this moment. I love you both so fucking much and I don’t deserve

breath, turning away for the final time and striding to the door. If

of water.

top off, I get into bed, place my arms behind my head and close my eyes. I hear the shower switch off and after a

to miss

before there’s a rustle as she gets dressed. There are a few moments of silence before I feel the bed dip and she slowly gets in between the sheets, trying

she murmurs, and I feel her fingers gently comb through

break. I can’t do this. Fuck, I can’t leave her. My eyes snap

She must have picked up on the change

those amethyst orbs. Instead, I tug her close,

thudding in rhythm to my

she murmurs, and I pull her head

respond-

giving myself

me,’ she pleads through

you are ok.’ I reply quietly. She

you so worried?” I ask, reaching up and brushing the wet locks of

her neck. Her face is make-up- free, and she looks breathtaking.

are glistening with tears. “I don’t know… I’m scared.” She whispers, her voice shaky.

looks into my eyes, and I wonder if

quietly, clenching my jaw as I try to push away my

we are going to defeat the Sable. Together,” she reassures me, but I wonder if she’s reassuring herself as

Together…

she whispers, an underlying urgency

I claim her lips in a deep, passionate kiss, sending rivets of

me back with equal intensity as her eyes

I’m sorry.

of her neck as I kiss her

You deserved better.

nibble on her soft plush lip, cherishing the taste of her lips,

and I

love for you will never

around her, and she grips onto me equally

You are the fucking rhythm that my heart beats

her back, gripping the back of her neck and hair as I kiss her like it’s for the last time and I