I Am The Luna

25. A Broken Heart ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 103 By Moonlight Muse

Please say this is a lie…

His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.

Sebastian left me.

Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.

It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.

I cannot breathe.

Sebastian…

“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.

Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?

I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?

Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.

Mom… Dad… Sebastian…

In the end, I failed. Just the way I am failing Sia and my people…

Why is the goddess doing this to us?

“You chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself. I feel so alone… I am alone…

I was the wrong person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my best, but I’m not doing enough…

Why did you make us for one another if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him again? Why did I unwrap my damaged heart for him?

He was my strength… he was the one who I had learned to forgive and not only did I fall for him again; I fell for him all over again.

I don’t want to feel this pain…

over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart,

chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears running down my cheeks. “I can’t tired…” cope

going to be ok. We’re going

How?

I felt

was saying goodbye, wasn’t

Mom… she’s gone too.

Dad…

it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and my eyes

look

talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead

hear me, please please

with nothing but a wall and I cry

my vision begins

I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it.

How do I recover?

how I feel, but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I hugged and kissed my babies, breaking into

the only strength I need, but how do I tell them their dad has left them once

darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt,

me, the only thing I know is, I

Sebastian is truly gone.

Mom is dead.

Dad is missing.

the facts that keep

I’m a failure…

and bring me home… once again, he’s the one who was there to pick me

the mate bond exist when it only gives others

My heart hurts…

I don’t move when it opens.

and kissing my forehead. I turn away, my eyes stinging as I stare out through the open window at the moon above. Nothing can

crack, murmuring something about the children being asleep. He sits on the floor beside the bed, stretching his legs

from anyone. Even my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them the best life they deserve and Sebastian… I wasn’t good enough for

wrapping his arms around me, but I don’t want anyone to touch me. I just want

clawing inside of me, but I refuse to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain and doom. “Come on, where’s that beautiful smile that we all melt over?”

hiding for a bit, but it’ll show through soon. Here Zaia.” she offers me a chocolate

the goddess’s wishes? Her mission

around my knees, refusing the mug of hot chocolate that Valerie offers me. “It’s

shake my head,

haven’t eaten all day, Red,” Atticus

I don’t want anything…

didn’t take Sebastian leaving well at all. How will I tell the children their father is gone? That he has left