I Am The Luna

Chapter 119

I Am The Luna by Moonlight Muse Chapter 119

An Exchange
SEBASTIAN.

All I see is the look in her eyes as she raised the gun and shot me.

I’ve lost her.

She will never forgive me, and why should she?

I brought this on myself…

The same thoughts circle my mind, slamming me with the brutal truth of what I have done.

Spinning, screaming, and shouting as they whirl around my head; and there’s nothing I can do but accept it.

I was close to death after she shot me, but Gerard refused to let me die, although both Gaultier and Zade didn’t mind if I did.

All I remember was Gerard saying he would not let me die and if anything happened, they would all suffer the consequences.

I now stare out at the moon through the skylight. Night has fallen, but it’s just another painful day gone. Another day that I am haunted by the memories of the Alpha Queen shooting me without any hesitation.

I deserved that.

There was a moment she was shocked… but it was just a secondary reaction. She didn’t turn back as she left the room, but I shouldn’t be expecting anything, anyway. When the one who pushed her to this was none other than me.

How many times have I betrayed her trust? Far too many times.

I know that… but then why do I sit here thinking of her day and night? With every day that passed I realised that, that I don’t think I could live without her. Which doesn’t matter anyway, this isn’t about me…

The guilt of every fucking stupid decision I’ve made, the regret of every fucking time I’ve caused her pain, claws at me. Ripping me apart with guilt and regret from the inside.

She deserves so much fucking better. Yet I know that she loved me, and I destroyed her faith in me repeatedly. I can feel my wolf’s agony inside of me, his anguish at the fact I do not have her nearby. 1

I don’t deserve her, not anymore… she was too good for me from the start… and although I thought I did good, all I did was fucking hurt her.

I’ll never forget the way her lavender eyes were full of pain.

My head drops as I feel the stinging in my eyes as my vision blurs.

Why did I always fuck up even when all I want is the best for those I love?

“What is going on?!” Gaultier’s distant snarl makes me look towards the doors. Something must have happened…

I stand up, silently making my way to the door and open it. They’re probably watching me in this room, anyway.

I try to be careful, but I also know they will never fully trust me, regardless. Gaultier slams his fist into the wall as Zade growls at him.

“Calm the fuck down. We can’t let…” he trails off when he sees me.

to them, and

need to fucking know. Aren’t you meant to

due to the poison in the bullet, I am still not fully recovered, but I am getting

so fuck

I’ll just go ask Gerard what the fuck is going on,” I shoot back coldly,

doesn’t involve you,” Zade

that now of all fucking times they figured out the cameras?” He spits,

don’t react, cocking a brow. “Cameras? What are we talking

they understood the message.

will help them get a step ahead instead of being spied on all the damn

Gaultier snarls

him.

and I’m doing my fucking

than me, able to mask his scent and heartbeat efficiently and I don’t think he even realises I can sense him and that is something I don’t plan to let

any of you notified Gerard of this? It’s no small

they

has stopped, he’s

him? That somehow, they found out?” Gaultier

you think they’ve discovered

you

in that pack. Maybe we do need to tell Gerard and Father right

do,” I say, just as Lawrence begins

is no maybe to it.” hist voice comes from to the left, making both men tense as he steps into the

course…” Zade says, lowering his

happened?” he

this, Zaia… destroy

All the cameras have been pulled.” Zade says,

Agatha?

look up sharply, my heart thudding as I stare at

Mom?

it must be some

mind is spinning as

the borders of the pack. See if you can mind link her.” He commands, and he

this my mother?” I ask. The words are

Lawrence looks at me.

are family.” He says, almost

What?

to you,

I mean- yes, about Gaultier, but Mom belongs on our side. She’s always been my greatest cheerleader, to know that even now I am making her proud

good.”

she do

mind is a fucking storm as I try to keep myself

near the children. She’s been in the safe house. My stomach churns and it’s taking my all not to

he walks over to me and places his hands on my shoulder. “Now. How about the two of

have a question. If Mom is captured, then what? Will she be

He smiles.

shot you, but I don’t think she will kill your

isn’t my woman.” I correct him and I fucking mean it because I don’t fucking deserve her. The memory of her touch, her body

don’t

widens as he pats my back, a move that

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