In the Alpha’s Arms

Get Your Mind Right

Lita leaned her head against the window, watching the world pass her in a blu. Her mind was cluttered and she couldn’t seem to settle the feeling in her chest. Nothing would ever be the same as it was before she knew werewolyes were real. As miserable as life tied to Brian and her mother, Diane, had been, it was at least routine. Yes, they controlled every second of her life, but she knew how to navigate them and their world.

She understood their buttons and how to avoid them. She understood her place in the hierarchy of her life. She wasn’t at the top, and she accepted that. And on the off chance she would forget, apparently they’d been using their Alpha tones to correct her. That was scary but also comfortable because it was predictable. Part of her hated that pain was more comfortable duan anything else. She’d spent more time with it than any other emotion, which only added to her depression.

She paused that line of difficult thoughts for a moment. Lita didn’t know why she’d assumed that only men could be Alphas, but there she was, faced with the obvious fact that her mother could have led her own park. How’d she end up playing second fiddle to Lita’s father, Rali, a Beta? Had she rejected her destined mate in favor of Lita’s father? Had Rafi done the same?

Any time she’d ever seen them hosting a party or entertaining guests, they were in prototypical gender roles. Her mother didn’t have a say in anything. The only place she had any power was within her own company and with Lita. At home, she was just Rafi’s wife and the mother of his children. That brought up more questions than answers, and she made a mental note to ask someone more about how wolf genealogy worked.

At almost the worst time imaginable, in the silence of a compact car, Lita’s stomach let out a monstrous growl. Brody didn’t even pretend to hide his amusement like a gentleman would. And the sound surprised Lita. First breakfast this morning and now she was hungry again? After months with no appetite, she couldn’t figure it out. She’d lost nearly half her body weight since James left for the west coast and yet now she found herself hungry all the time.

“Dunn, that’s a grown man’s stomach right there. Strange for such a small he laughed, “Don’t worry, dinner will be on the table by the time we tet back home.”

Home. It was such a simple thing to say. Something he probably said all the time without ever really thinking twice. But for Lita, she hadn’t been anywhere that truly felt like home since James left. And the day he died, her only home died with him. But it was nice to hear someone talk about home and include her in it. It felt like a spark of lightning in her darkness. Maybe Stace had been right, this sense of belonging, of being important, was what she’d secretly been craving all along.

“Oh but, um listen, I should warn you,” Brody looked out of the windshield, completely avoiding Lita’s stare, “Sometimes Erica comes by for dinner. mean I don’t know if she’ll be there tonight but… you know… she doesn’t war anyone first, just shows up even when she and Alpha are on another of their infamous breaks…

“Okay… should I know her? I don’t think I’ve met an Erica… Is she another pack member?” Lita straightened up in her seat, flipping her new bank card absentmindedly in her hands. Why did she feel fidgety all over again? She was just looking for something to occupy her during the drive, she reasoned to herself.

“Shit, Alpha didn’t mention her to you when he said he was rejecting you?” Lida gave him a wide–eyed stare and Brody scratched his neck. “Look, I really shouldn’t have said anything I thought he would have told you already so you wouldn’t be upset. But, I guess either way, the wolf’s out of the bag now, She’s from his birth pack, moved out here a few years ago. Anyway, she and Alpha… uh… well before he knew about you…”

There it was. There was the unconscious reason for her nerves. She knew the second she heard the woman’s name that it wasn’t going to be good news. Lita felt her heart drop. Why the hell did she even care what he did? Her stomach twisted, robbing her of every hunger pain. She suddenly didn’t want dinner at all.

They weren’t married. Hell, they weren’t even dating. He didn’t want her as a mate, or whatever either. She shouldn’t have cared at all, but she did, it’s Just an irrational biological response, she told herself. Brody was still snapping his eyes back and forth from the road to her. Old fears climbed up her spine and she reacted.

“Keep your eyes on the fucking road, Brody!” He jumped, hands white knuckling the wheel. “Sorry, It’s just–nevermind. Just say it, I’m not fragile,” Lita huffed, pretending to be stronger than she was, knowing in reality she was actually as fragile as glass, barely holding together after being Shattered. “They were fuck buddies or something? Friends with benefits?”

“Nah, they’re the whole shebang, you know? Well, let me not say that, they’ve been on and off for a long time. She’s a pain in the ass and between you and me, I don’t like her. But they had been on for like a month straight this last time. I think they split like a week ager so the odds are good that she’ll invite herself over.”

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swallowing the bile. He had this whole situation when he kissed her? When he groped her and acted like he couldn’t stop himself? She wanted to scream. Brian was her ex–And a terrible

could he?

snorted to herself. This was why he was going to reject her. Hadn’t he said as much? That mates could come in

road so he couldn’t see her misting with unshed tears. It was stupid to feel so rejected. So hurt. Shouldn’t she have been numb to emotional pain

him that she’s his future. I don’t know what they are that

know it was probably the wolf equivalent of a wife. Again, why did she care? Why did she feel so disappointed? Was it because she didn’t

did that mean? Was it purely physical? That they could have a type of pleasure she wouldn’t get from anyone else? Was it emotional? Like somehow he would just understand her in a way she didn’t know she needed? She just couldn’t stop

mates, so telling you is just the right thing to do. We have already blindsided you enough today, I didn’t want that to make you feel worse, you know? I know what that’s

know I’m feeling

all over your face. Today was hard for us all, but I’m sure it hit you even worse. I don’t know what women do to get mind together, but

that

I’m

their

optimistic that it will help, Lita mumbled under her breath, well aware that Brody’s wolf cars would still pick up on it. He shook his head, biting his lower lip to hold in

building behind the gym. Lita hadn’t paid much attention to it on the way out, but now she could see it was taller than the gym, likely made up of three floors and a basement. It was all cement blocks and very little curb

see the way they felt about their less–than–perfect gym in the way they cared for the equipment. In the way they each took turns cleaning and mopping between workouts. This was their home and they

the structure a packhouse and Lita followed him in, trying not to let her emotions

in for. Setting her spine, Lita lowered herself into one of the empty seats next to them. Brody slid into the last seat on her right and Andres sat on her left, in between her and faz. It was a large farmhouse table with matching benches and a weathered black exterior

and they were served in courses. She’d never experienced family–style dinner Lita had hardly taken a

spaghetti again, Mark, how

any times can

the same

buzz of chatter among the others kept Lita from feeling completely ill, but it still stung to see someone so perfect and put together. She made Lita look like a bruised

cook next time, Ericu,” Mark snapped back, acting completely out of character. He’d only ever been charming, happy, and flirty. -Lita had never seen him make that face before, but she couldn’t ignore what Brody said earlier. Did

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can’t enak for shit. Alphas got a lifetime of ready made

said quietly, a word of

on Lita instead. Lita had been around rough fake women in her life to recognize one

baby! I love that about you. Now jaz is a friend.” She leaned in to kiss him, but at the last second Cole turned so she grazed his cheek. The conversations around the table completely stopped. Stace’s mouth hung open and