Letting My Brother's Best Friend Take My V-Card

CHAPTER 9 JESS

I was dreading today.

Not because Monday was special.

I dreaded today because the chances of seeing Luke were one hundred percent.

Luke has been hot and cold, and it started giving me whiplash. I couldn't figure him out, and I was done trying. It's a new week. It's a new me.

If he thinks he can just offer to be my first but then hook up with half the girls in this town right in front of me, he's sadly

mistaken. I was drunk that night. I made a mistake. One I intend to correct.

I finally confessed to Laura and Sam about Luke, and they were convinced I was drunk and imagined it. I gave up trying to convince them. It doesn't matter-there's no more Luke. There's been no more Luke for a long time, and it will stay that way. I grew up, and he grew up to be an asshole.

So what was I afraid of? I could do it and then get it over with. Maybe I'm afraid of crossing that line with Luke because there's no going back once I'm over it. Maybe I'm scared that he wouldn't want more.

I spotted him first when I got to school. Our eyes locked for a

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few seconds, and I was the first to break it. I couldn't look at him without a guilty feeling churning in my stomach.

straight and even tried some makeup. I know it doesn't sound like much, but it was a lot of effort for

"Hey! Jess!"

clutching my

and he had a smile plastered

make you jump. You okay?" He leaned in and put a hand on my shoulder. I stared at it for a second, just sitting there like I was the most normal thing ever - a boy touching a girl. Only for this girl, boys never touched her

but luckily,

good, Jess," he said

Was that a compliment?

finally mumbled, and Tom laughed like I'd just told a funny

for this Friday? I was

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then maybe I'd buy you an ice cream or

someone beat

up to see Luke and Josh standing

and Sam were standing behind me, and I saw Josh look past me for

he seemed a little nervous. I watched Luke glare at me behind him, and before they could say anything else, I reached

smiled up at him, scribbling my number on his

"You are not going out with Tom," Josh repeated, coming right up to my face. I looked back, refusing to back down. "Where do you get off telling me what to do? I don't exist to you, remember." I

Jessica," Luke repeated,