Letting My Brother's Best Friend Take My V-Card

UNWELL

JESS

"Hey, babe. Are you ready? Everything packed?" I asked Luke as I dragged his suitcase out of the bedroom. He was so handsome even though he only wore a pair of slacks and a navy T-

shirt. I stood on my tiptoes to kiss him. He walked to the front door and turned around. Suddenly, his face changed, and there was blood. Blood on his shirt, his pants. I looked up, and he was choking. I wanted to run to him, to help him, but I couldn't move. Why couldn't I m "Luke."

"Luke!"

I sat up, gasping for air, just in time to make it to the bathroom.

The nausea had been creeping up

for weeks, relentless and unforgiving, even now that we were back home. I'd thought that leaving Jakarta's oppressive heat and humidity behind might help, but it hadn't. The sickness remained a constant, unsettling reminder of everything that had changed, everything that wrong.

made it to the bathroom. Kneeling by the toilet, I gripped

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closed my eyes, breathing through the dizziness. And

the warmth of his hand rubbing gentle circles on my back. I could

myself fall into that fantasy, sinking into it, wanting so desperately to

okay, babe," he whispered, and I believed him. Even though I still wanted to vomit my guts out, I heard him. Maybe I was dehydrated and hallucinating. If so, it would be worth it. "We are going

wiped them away. What a foolish dream.

how many times I told myself it was just my imagination, that feeling stayed

he would have phrased it

and stepped through the cool shower like I would in Indonesia when I felt like this. The frigid sensation brought me back

for more than a few seconds without having Luke's face haunt my every waking moment. Something inside of me refuses to believe this

that daydream stuck with me, and

living. room, Laura came bursting through the door, clutching a white paper bag. She didn't bother to knock or say hello. She just held out the bag, her eyes wide