Letting My Brother's Best Friend Take My V-Card

OVERTHINKING

LAURA

It had been a whole week of awkward glances and total silence between Josh and me. Every time I passed him in the halls, he'd look at me-just for a second-and then immediately look away, like I was something too painful or shameful to face. The worst part? It didn't matter. Not really. Because no matter how much I wanted to believe otherwise, Josh would never see me the way I saw him.

dragged my books closer to my chest as I walked past him again. He was leaning against the lockers, laughing at something one of his friends said. The sound of his laughter made my chest tighten, even though I knew better. He didn't see me. Not really.

That night at the party-God, what was I thinking? Josh was drunk, and I was just... almost. Almost a convenient fuck. The kind of girl you don't remember in the morning because she didn't mean anything. And then that night at my house-he only stayed because he felt guilty. He hit me. It was an accident, but still... He stayed because he felt bad, not because he wanted to.

He didn't stay because he liked me. Or because he thought I was worth his time. It was guilt. Plain and simple. And I needed to stop torturing myself by hoping it was anything else.

"Laura!" Jess's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I turned to see her and Sam walking toward me, Jess with her signature unimpressed expression and Sam grinning ear to ear like she

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had just won the lottery.

football game this weekend," Sam announced, practically bouncing

I asked, arching

be amazing. Hot boys running into each other over some stupid ball. Plus, there's an afterparty. With more boys. Boys not from this godforsaken school." Jess groaned. "Why do you always do this, Sam? You

Sam said, waving her off, "but you don't hate parties. And there will be cute guys there. Guys who don't

"You two go have fun. I'll be at home with movies

to me, her eyes sparkling with determination.

thing. Especially not after the

as appealing as swallowing nails. But the way Sam looked at me-so hopeful, so

said, forcing a

hands together like she had

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major victory. "You won't regret it. This

Jess said,

being so mopey and start having some fun. Laura, you've been sulking all week, and Jess, you-well, you're always moody, especially when you see Luke." Jess rolled her eyes, but I could see the hint

though I knew it was a lie. I'd been sulking, all right. Sulking, overthinking, replaying every awkward moment with Josh in my head until I wanted

scream.

that's okay. But this weekend, we're changing

was, I wasn't sure anything could fix how I felt right now. How do you get over someone who was never yours in the first place? How do you stop wanting