Lightning Is the Only Way

Gravis stood in the middle of the road as he looked into the direction his enemy had fled towards. He didn't say anything, but his imposing and cold aura still shook most of the onlookers. What was he thinking about?

'Should I have attacked regardless?' Gravis thought as he looked into the distance. 'As far as I know myself, I would have expected me to directly attack and kill him. Yet, I purposely showed my power in front of him to dissuade him from attacking.'

'Is it because I fear putting my life at risk after not fighting for such a long time?' Gravis thought as he analyzed himself.

'No, I don't think so,' he thought after several seconds. 'My power has grown tremendously ever since my fight with Heaven. If the guy had been able to resist my pressure, he would have still been able to put up a fight, but he hadn't been able to. Someone that isn't able to resist my pressure is not a true opponent. So, logically, it wasn't that I feared for my life.'

'Am I going soft?' Gravis thought. 'When Commander Rime interfered in my fight, I decided to kill him, even though I knew that he didn't want to hurt me. This guy wanted to kill me, but I simply scared him off. This is definitely not normal.'

Gravis just continued standing there as he thought about himself. 'I think it's because of my Law of Freedom,' Gravis thought.

'I didn't want to accept it in the past, but most of the time, when I killed such people or beasts, it was my lightning commanding me to do it. They had acted aggressively towards me, which meant that they had to be killed with everything I got. In the past, I always believed that this was also what I wanted to do, but was that really true?' Gravis thought.

'I think it was a coping mechanism. I heard about lightning's temperament in the lower world, and I became so strongly connected to lightning that it would be hard to even distinguish myself from it. I think I simply couldn't accept that I had an inner conflict going on. I thought I had everything under control, blinding me to the truth.'

'My father reminded me of the words I spoke after I found Skye's dead parent. Apparently, I said that I am I, and that won't change, no matter how much I change. Yet, I don't think that these words are accurate. These words might be accurate for every other living being, but not for me.'

'Orthar has also said something similar. He said that he was himself, but he was not the only himself. I'm not sure what he was referring to, but I can see a connection between myself and these words. I am I, but lightning is also I. Yet, does that mean that there is only one of myself?'

'When I think of the time I suppressed my emotions against Heaven, I would think that this person wasn't me. Yet, this was definitely me. I know that nearly everyone has a good side and a bad side in them. After all, I have never met a truly evil being before.'

'The lower Heaven acted like a tyrant against me without me even provoking it. Yet, the lower Heaven probably only wanted to protect itself and show its competence towards its parent Heaven. The High Priest in the lower world also reigned like a tyrant, but he was also stuck in his position forever, without any chance of becoming more powerful. Additionally, if Heaven wanted, it could have killed him. People with a weak will would also lose their minds in that position.'

is natural. Even the middle Heaven only followed the orders of the highest Heaven. Everyone has a story and a good and a bad

true for me. Azure has already commented several times that it is very unusual that I can adjust my own mindset this quickly and without issues. When I believe

through his life in his mind. 'When was

Some seconds passed.

Heaven's Trial. Manuel said that I had a ton of emotions bottled up, and I had realized that he

time was when Nero told me about his philosophy about darkness. After that was my talk with Skye after I killed the lower Heaven. I had felt

even spared the middle Heaven just because I wanted to spite the highest Heaven. Would I have done that in the past? Would I have let someone go that terrorized me for hundreds of years?

the words that the Black Magnate spoke to me. He said that I have an inner

I'm thinking about this, the more sense it makes. In the lower world, I completely followed and did whatever my lightning wanted. The first time I didn't follow it was when I didn't immediately kill Joyce's teacher

more like we made a

of Freedom, I started to be the one in charge. My lightning is angry. I feel it. My lightning hates me for not killing the middle Heaven, but it can't. My Law of Freedom is more powerful than Punishment Lightning. My Law of Freedom grants me

Law of Freedom is suppressing my

Then, my lightning will be more powerful than

or it takes over control, forcing me to follow its rules. It all depends on the rage of my lightning. Is it angry enough that it would even kill itself to kill me, or

become everything. It has no personality. It has

the first time in several minutes and summoned some lightning in his hand. It seemed completely normal to

is lightning me? Is that really true? Is this another form

'I don't know.'

way I can see out of this situation is to comprehend the level six Law of Freedom before using Divine Lightning. With the power of my Avatar supporting the

would be like running away. As soon as I reach the highest world, I would be able to come into contact with the next level of lightning, and I would face the

I can't think of

from beside Gravis, and Gravis looked over. He wasn't really