Lightning Is the Only Way

Mortis simply continued lying on the ground.

'Gravis actually truly cares for me,' Mortis thought. 'I haven't noticed it due to my anger and hatred, but Gravis actually felt an overwhelming amount of guilt and self-loathing while lying to me.'

'I'm also sure that it's not just because I'm his Avatar,' Mortis thought. 'I think he has the feeling that he needs to protect me since he has been like me in the past. I'm like a younger version of himself that he feels like he needs to protect.'

'Usually, I would feel disdain to whoever dared to feel about me like this,' Mortis thought calmly. 'However, I don't feel so bad, actually.'

'Haven't I subconsciously depended on Gravis when I accepted the token for free Law Comprehension?'

Mortis' thoughts remained silent for a while.

'Gravis feels similar to Orpheus.'

Mortis had all the memories of Gravis, which meant that everything that happened to Gravis in the past also happened to Mortis.

'Orpheus has also helped me several times like this, and I've never repaid him even once.'

'Orpheus hasn't helped me because of a selfish desire, and I think Gravis is the same in that aspect. Gravis doesn't help me to make life easier for him, but because he genuinely cares for me.'

Mortis continued looking at the sky.

'I miss father and mom,' Mortis thought.

Mortis always thought of himself as a superior being that was always in control over his emotions.

Yet, in reality, Mortis was just a younger version of Gravis, which was why, when the barrier around his emotions cracked, their effects increased manifold.

However, Mortis was also far older than Gravis had been when he went through the same thing, which meant that Mortis could remain calm and deal with the emotions rationally.

'Is feeling cold apathy all the time really necessary?' Mortis thought with a concerned expression on his face.

'I am lightning, and I will never part from my lightning, but does being lightning mean that I can't do what I want?'

'I still remember the Black Magnate's words, and he said that chasing power will eventually lead to greyness and nothingness. I ignored these words for a long time, thinking that I couldn't be so mentally weak. After all, only weak people feel bad, right?'

The clouds passed above Mortis as he simply looked at them.

'I think the Black Magnate was actually right.'

'If I continue chasing power like this, I need to eventually confront nothingness.'

Law of the Living World recently, and I'm far away

already feel so empty and hollow after only being confronted with

right now, how empty will I feel in the future when there's nothing

drifted

to chase power, but I also want to be free

lightning, but I also don't want to feel this emptiness inside me all

can't I just

for a couple of

he suddenly started laughing

freedom means I

'I can combine both!'

feel is deserving of death, and as

After all, I would want to do that regardless. Following these principles is already following the principles

lightning doesn't mean that I have to be bitter and emotionless all the

because Gravis spared the middle Heaven's life

to kill the middle Heaven, but he wanted to prove his own freedom to himself by sparing the

Freedom. If he honestly knew everything about freedom, Gravis would have directly comprehended the True Law

I spare the

Mortis thought without hesitation. 'I would have killed the middle Heaven since it was deserving of

between my

me. Our lightning

freedom and the power to make a choice, huh?' Mortis thought, thinking

you out while I am you. I am a

feels like I'm just a tool for you, but I also don't mind. After all, we are

is what I want, and what I want is

have the freedom to make my

freedom, but it

wait. We will gain our

only looked at the darkening sky as

no living being dared to get close to a

the stars and the moon

things actually don't

thinking it, but Gravis beating me up might

Mortis laughed bitterly.

I a masochist? Why am I grateful

get any sexual pleasure out of it, but if I were, so what?' Mortis thought with a peaceful

I am not under pressure,

and follow Gravis' advice for once? Maybe by taking