Lightning Is the Only Way

Mortis simply continued lying on the ground.

'Gravis actually truly cares for me,' Mortis thought. 'I haven't noticed it due to my anger and hatred, but Gravis actually felt an overwhelming amount of guilt and self-loathing while lying to me.'

'I'm also sure that it's not just because I'm his Avatar,' Mortis thought. 'I think he has the feeling that he needs to protect me since he has been like me in the past. I'm like a younger version of himself that he feels like he needs to protect.'

'Usually, I would feel disdain to whoever dared to feel about me like this,' Mortis thought calmly. 'However, I don't feel so bad, actually.'

'Haven't I subconsciously depended on Gravis when I accepted the token for free Law Comprehension?'

Mortis' thoughts remained silent for a while.

'Gravis feels similar to Orpheus.'

Mortis had all the memories of Gravis, which meant that everything that happened to Gravis in the past also happened to Mortis.

'Orpheus has also helped me several times like this, and I've never repaid him even once.'

'Orpheus hasn't helped me because of a selfish desire, and I think Gravis is the same in that aspect. Gravis doesn't help me to make life easier for him, but because he genuinely cares for me.'

Mortis continued looking at the sky.

'I miss father and mom,' Mortis thought.

Mortis always thought of himself as a superior being that was always in control over his emotions.

Yet, in reality, Mortis was just a younger version of Gravis, which was why, when the barrier around his emotions cracked, their effects increased manifold.

However, Mortis was also far older than Gravis had been when he went through the same thing, which meant that Mortis could remain calm and deal with the emotions rationally.

'Is feeling cold apathy all the time really necessary?' Mortis thought with a concerned expression on his face.

'I am lightning, and I will never part from my lightning, but does being lightning mean that I can't do what I want?'

'I still remember the Black Magnate's words, and he said that chasing power will eventually lead to greyness and nothingness. I ignored these words for a long time, thinking that I couldn't be so mentally weak. After all, only weak people feel bad, right?'

The clouds passed above Mortis as he simply looked at them.

'I think the Black Magnate was actually right.'

'If I continue chasing power like this, I need to eventually confront nothingness.'

the Law of the Living World recently, and I'm far away from reaching

so empty and hollow after only being confronted with myself for this little

feel this empty right now, how empty will I feel in the

drifted

wants. I want to chase power, but I also want to be free

to be one with lightning, but I also don't want to

I

silent for a couple

started

freedom means I can

'I can combine both!'

am lightning. As long as I kill whoever I feel is deserving of death, and

even suppression? After all, I would want to do that regardless. Following these principles is already following the principles

mean that I have to be bitter and emotionless

because Gravis spared the middle

to

but it's understandable. After all, Gravis only knew the level four Law of Freedom, not the True Law of Freedom. If he honestly knew everything about freedom, Gravis would have directly comprehended the True Law of Freedom, which should

I spare

'I would have killed the middle Heaven since

no conflict between my lightning

in the past, not me. Our lightning is angry at him,

want freedom and the power to make a

and cast you out while I am you. I am a

a tool for you, but I also don't mind. After all,

want is what I want, and what I want

I want is to have the freedom to make my

that freedom, but it won't be

will gain our

looked at the darkening sky as night engulfed

living being dared to get close

at the stars and

actually don't feel

feel bad for thinking it, but Gravis beating me up might have actually

Mortis laughed bitterly.

masochist? Why am I grateful for

don't get any sexual pleasure out of it, but if I were, so what?' Mortis thought with

pressure,

follow Gravis' advice for once? Maybe by taking things easier, I can comprehend