Lightning Is the Only Way

"There is no one that elicits these kinds of feelings from me," Mortis answered. "I see so many different Cultivators, but they all look the same to me. They are either strangers, friends, enemies, or whatever. There is no difference."

"So, do humans need some kind of connection with a stranger for love to exist in the future?" Azure asked. She was genuinely curious about all of this.

Mortis' brows furrowed. "No, not really."

"Then why does that have to exist for you to try?" Azure asked.

For the first time, Mortis didn't answer immediately.

Why didn't he just get to know more people?

Was it really necessary that his spark had to exist for a relationship to blossom?

Obviously not.

There were plenty of mortals and Cultivators that got together with people after just being friends for years on end.

There had been no romantic attraction between them in the beginning, but they had eventually ended together.

For some reason, a kind of pressure appeared in Mortis' insides.

'Is it because of my past?' he thought. 'I've felt how Gravis have felt for so long. I've felt these intense bursts of warmth and love inside myself so many times.'

Mortis looked into the distance. 'Is it because I fear disappointment? Do I fear that my eventual love won't be as vibrant as the love Gravis feels for Stella?'

A moment of silence passed.

'And then, this entire thing with Joyce happened, which confirmed my fear. I was attracted to Joyce, but I never felt anything remotely as intense as what Gravis felt for Stella back then.'

'And then, Joyce died, and I felt like my ability to love died with her.'

Mortis glanced over at Azure, who only looked into the distance with a thoughtful expression.

'I think I fear disappointment,' Mortis thought. 'It might be possible that I'm afraid of losing my hope. I can dream about how great love is and how it makes me feel, but I'm afraid that my imagination is off.'

Another moment of silence.

'If even love turns out to be a disappointment, what else is there left but greyness in my life?'

'If love doesn't live up to my expectations, what reason do I even have left to live?'

"Azure, why do you cultivate?" Mortis asked.

Azure was surprised by the question. How did Mortis even come up with that question?

"Why do I cultivate?" Azure asked.

Mortis nodded.

Azure remained silent.

"I don't know," she said after several seconds. "Honestly, I haven't really thought about it. Living just feels natural to me, and it's like something I just have to do."

"Is there something in your life that you don't want to lose, no matter what?" Mortis asked.

Azure remained silent for a bit longer as her expression became uncomfortable.

"Not really," Azure answered with an unsure voice.

keep fighting? Why do you keep comprehending Laws? Why do you go through the fear and pain of

of necessity since we want to become more powerful. And why do we want to become more powerful? Because we

we have something in our life that we don't want to lose. We don't want to feel the pain of a loved one dying. We want to spend more time with our loved ones. We want to see

Mortis asked, looking at Azure. "From what you've said, you sound like you don't have anything you want to live

Azure remained silent.

remained silent for

Mortis

but he realized that his words

He was

in comparison, Azure had never even asked

answer, and you also don't need to question yourself regarding this topic," Mortis added. "You obviously have something to live for. Otherwise, you wouldn't have

you were right," Azure said, her expression showing an internal struggle. "What do I

to have the feelings we humans have. For you, power might have a

a human, and you already accepted that, right? Why search for

regretted asking his earlier question. Azure

Azure said as she looked at Mortis with confusion and nervousness. "I know what you're trying to

Mortis raised an eyebrow.

have never felt before," Azure

do you feel?"

a kind of emptiness," Azure said. "It's like a black hole that sucks out all the drive in my being, and

became uncomfortable, and

a feeling he was very

"Hey, listen-"

Azure interrupted Mortis. "Keep in mind that I'm not some mortal. I'm a Star God, and I've gone through worse. You don't need to fix me or anything. I can deal with this stuff

Azure skeptically. After all,

try to convince Mortis immediately. Instead, she wanted to tell him what she was thinking

and I felt satisfied with simply becoming more powerful. However, as soon

certain that I wouldn't have felt anything like this in the past. I haven't felt anything even remotely like this, not even

a Spirit when we become Star Gods, right?" Azure asked. "So, when we get a Spirit, does it also mean that our emotional

also fell into thought when Azure

Could she be right?

Mortis

Azure added

asked. "You said you know

it?" Mortis

Laws, and one main Law always stumped me. I always tried to think of a way to comprehend it, but I never came up with one. You know why?

the Law

Mortis' eyes widened.

Right!

go about comprehending the

of Empathy since he knew it, and he was sure that a beast

would be impossible

become a Heaven's Magnate if it's impossible for a beast to feel like

feel love

"I think so, but I

she looked at

to try?"

Mortis froze.

That…

you

"If it doesn't work, we can just stop. After all, even if I can't feel it, I know a bit about how it works, and I know that it would hurt you if I couldn't reciprocate.

the back of his head

know," he

you hesitating?" Azure asked, genuinely confused. "I see no downside, only upsides.

Then, Azure remembered something.

not attractive to you?" Azure asked,