Lightning Is the Only Way

"There is no one that elicits these kinds of feelings from me," Mortis answered. "I see so many different Cultivators, but they all look the same to me. They are either strangers, friends, enemies, or whatever. There is no difference."

"So, do humans need some kind of connection with a stranger for love to exist in the future?" Azure asked. She was genuinely curious about all of this.

Mortis' brows furrowed. "No, not really."

"Then why does that have to exist for you to try?" Azure asked.

For the first time, Mortis didn't answer immediately.

Why didn't he just get to know more people?

Was it really necessary that his spark had to exist for a relationship to blossom?

Obviously not.

There were plenty of mortals and Cultivators that got together with people after just being friends for years on end.

There had been no romantic attraction between them in the beginning, but they had eventually ended together.

For some reason, a kind of pressure appeared in Mortis' insides.

'Is it because of my past?' he thought. 'I've felt how Gravis have felt for so long. I've felt these intense bursts of warmth and love inside myself so many times.'

Mortis looked into the distance. 'Is it because I fear disappointment? Do I fear that my eventual love won't be as vibrant as the love Gravis feels for Stella?'

A moment of silence passed.

'And then, this entire thing with Joyce happened, which confirmed my fear. I was attracted to Joyce, but I never felt anything remotely as intense as what Gravis felt for Stella back then.'

'And then, Joyce died, and I felt like my ability to love died with her.'

Mortis glanced over at Azure, who only looked into the distance with a thoughtful expression.

'I think I fear disappointment,' Mortis thought. 'It might be possible that I'm afraid of losing my hope. I can dream about how great love is and how it makes me feel, but I'm afraid that my imagination is off.'

Another moment of silence.

'If even love turns out to be a disappointment, what else is there left but greyness in my life?'

'If love doesn't live up to my expectations, what reason do I even have left to live?'

"Azure, why do you cultivate?" Mortis asked.

Azure was surprised by the question. How did Mortis even come up with that question?

"Why do I cultivate?" Azure asked.

Mortis nodded.

Azure remained silent.

"I don't know," she said after several seconds. "Honestly, I haven't really thought about it. Living just feels natural to me, and it's like something I just have to do."

"Is there something in your life that you don't want to lose, no matter what?" Mortis asked.

Azure remained silent for a bit longer as her expression became uncomfortable.

"Not really," Azure answered with an unsure voice.

comprehending Laws? Why do you go through the fear and pain of

else. No Cultivator goes out and tempers themselves just for fun. We all do it out of necessity since we want to become more powerful. And

to feel the pain of a loved one dying. We want to spend more time with our loved ones. We want

point of surviving?" Mortis asked, looking at Azure. "From what you've said, you

Azure remained silent.

silent

that time, Mortis regretted his

he realized that his words

normal to Mortis. He was thinking these

never even

have to answer, and you also don't need to question yourself regarding this topic," Mortis added. "You obviously

you were right," Azure said, her expression showing an internal struggle. "What do I actually live for?

Mortis added. "Heaven made you to become powerful. You're not a human, and you don't need to have the feelings we humans have. For you, power might

to humans. You're not a human, and you already accepted that,

now, Mortis had regretted asking his earlier question. Azure seemed to genuinely

Mortis with confusion and nervousness. "I know what

Mortis raised an eyebrow.

am simply overwhelmed by something I have never felt before," Azure said. "That's

you feel?"

like a black hole that sucks out all the drive

became uncomfortable, and he felt guilty beyond

he was

"Hey, listen-"

some mortal. I'm a Star God, and I've gone through worse. You don't need to fix me or anything. I can deal with

looked at Azure skeptically. After all, he knew how

she didn't try to convince Mortis immediately. Instead, she wanted to tell him what she was thinking

right?" Azure asked. "I've never had an issue with life, and I felt satisfied with simply becoming more powerful. However, as soon as you brought my attention to the purpose of life, I suddenly felt this

certain that I wouldn't have felt anything like this in the past. I haven't felt anything even remotely like this, not even

right?" Azure asked. "So, when we get

fell into thought when Azure

Could she be right?

now, Mortis

then, Azure

Azure asked. "You said you know

it?" Mortis

know all the four main Laws, and one main Law always stumped me. I always tried to think of a way to comprehend it, but I

Law of Empathy," Azure

Mortis' eyes widened.

Right!

go about

he knew it, and he was sure that a beast couldn't feel the

impossible

if it's impossible for

you think that you can now feel love like humans?" Mortis asked

so, but I can't

looked at

try?"

Mortis froze.

That…

Azure. "Could you be

I can't feel it, I know a bit about how it works, and I know that it would hurt you if I couldn't reciprocate. So, we can just try, right? If it works,

scratched the back of

know," he

Azure asked, genuinely confused. "I see no downside, only upsides. We

Then, Azure remembered something.

is it because I'm not attractive to you?"