Chapter 138

KESTER.

Terrifying.

She meant it.

Her eyes locked onto mine, and I swear I saw something fold in her.

"You know what?" She wiped her eyes, "I want to be able to look at the father of my child and not wonder what he's capable of. But I can't. So, just leave. I never want to see you anywhere near me or my baby. Leave!"

That broke me.

She could threaten me with anything, but not our baby,

"Baby... What do I do to make you know how much I love you and that everything

I do, I do for you? Kasmine..." I didn't recognize my voice anymore, and the way my emotions spiraled from anger to hurt surprised even me. "This isn't love, Rester. It is control. I don't want it. Just... Go..." She sobbed, her lips trembling so hard. “Kasmine..... please." My words came out as a whisper, trembling with a vulnerability I had never shown to anyone except her. "Please just love me back. What does it take to love me? Baby?" I swallowed, closing the distance between us, “Just-just love me." I begged. I could feel my heart wrenching out of my chest. My hands trembled as they reached for her, brushing against her arms as if afraid she might vanish if I held her too tightly.

She looked at me like I was something pitiful, something broken-and maybe I

was.

"No! I can never love a selfish monster like you!" She let out a bitter scoff, wiping off the tears from her eyes with her trembling hands before letting them slump beside her as if she were tired of fighting.

"You don't need love, Kester. You need help," she stared at me weakly with those green orbs of hers, and I didn't like the look I saw there... It was that of pity. Not love. Not the love I expected.

I wanted her to love me, not pity me.

"I am not selfish, Mine. I chose you, I always choose you. I'm. Still. Choosing. YOU!" I counted my words ever so slowly, ignoring the crack in my voice, "I gave up so much for you. I am going through this whole mess right now because of you and you call me selfish?

hands is there because of you! Everybody I have and will take down is because of you! Don't you get it?

cupping her face in my trembling

her face

Fuck Yes.

I was crying.

blinding me as the words tumbled out, unfiltered and raw. "I've bled for you, Kasmine. I'll bleed again if that's what you want. I'll change Tell me. What do you want me

your love, even for a

raher

pressed against hers, my tears sliding down to mingle with the warmth of

couldn't lose her. Couldn't lose the only woman I had spere my life loving. This was the only time I ever

My voice cracked, so low and ragged it barely sounded like mine. "You say this isn't love. But you

leaned in closer, needing her to feel this. To fucking know

think I'm breathing air?" I whispered. "You think I wake up every morning, and it's oxygen keeping me alive?” I laughed, bitter and broken. “No. It's you. It's the little pieces of love you've thrown at me like scraps. That's

Her eyes flickered.

me while you were shaking under me, your legs wrapped around me while I was inside you? You promised me forever, baby. You said you'd stay. You looked me in the fucking eyes

an inch. "I bought it. I bought every word you said to

of me.

I waited

still loved me. That she

she stared straight through me

said what you

It was so quiet.

So calm.

she was putting down a

single sentence carved through my chest like a

hands drop from her face. My

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