Chapter 328
KESTER.
14 YEARS AGO.
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I lay on my bed, one arm limp at my side while my head rested on the other, with my eyes fixed on the
ceiling above me like it held the secrets to why my world had fallen apart.
From my headset, Billie Eilish sang what felt like the story of my life
What was I made for...
It was a quiet song, but it hit so loud in my chest.
I was probably too young to understand lyrics like those, but I understood hurt too deeply and too early. The song resonated with me so much that I couldn't stop listening to it.
And it made the ache in my chest louder sometimes. Like pressing on a bruise you couldn't help but touch.
But other times, it made me feel less alone and hopeful. Especially that last part.
... Think I forgot how to be happy
...Something I'm not, something I
can be
...Something I wait for
...Something I'm made for...
God, yeah. That part always cracked something inside me.
Because I had truly forgotten how to be happy and what it even meant. Didn't even know how it felt anymore.
Since my mum died - because she was dead
to me
a part of
me died. When Dad told me she was gone, I didn't cry.
I didn't scream or shout or break things like the kids in movies.
sat there and waited to feel something... Sadness. Anger. Shock
And it was the cold, heavy kind of
She left without looking back. She could have taken me with her, but
of the monster she called my father. That was
was. And
of a mother
a mother chooses
all I knew how to do... Lie still, keep quiet, and
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place was most days, I stayed in here and got lost in music that said
I was constantly shrinking. But I didn't know how
just a little to take a glance, but the moment I saw who it was, I went back
voice he started learning to use in the past weeks. It felt
of the music I was listening to was really
my room, gently tapping me to get
been staring at for days. It was starting to look like a lightning bolt. Or maybe
He tapped me again.
headset off my ear and turned my head just enough to face him. But
He stood there awkwardly
he wasn't sure if I was looking
"How are you doing,
I almost laughed.
Son?
had the
stared at him, blank-faced
what he wanted.
for days like he wanted to say something but couldn't figure out how to wrap it in fake smiles and softer tones. He always started with the same
answer. I didn't care what he wanted. I just wanted him to get it
bed. The mattress dipped slightly under his weight, and I hated how close
to talk to you about something," he said, still maintaining that soft tone, as if I
pretending not to be the
speak. I just
"Jorja's moving in tomorrow."
didn't react. At least not at
her daughter, who'll become
you give her a change." He was trying
normal. "Try to be
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that... that
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