Chapter 328

KESTER.

14 YEARS AGO.

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I lay on my bed, one arm limp at my side while my head rested on the other, with my eyes fixed on the

ceiling above me like it held the secrets to why my world had fallen apart.

From my headset, Billie Eilish sang what felt like the story of my life

What was I made for...

It was a quiet song, but it hit so loud in my chest.

I was probably too young to understand lyrics like those, but I understood hurt too deeply and too early. The song resonated with me so much that I couldn't stop listening to it.

And it made the ache in my chest louder sometimes. Like pressing on a bruise you couldn't help but touch.

But other times, it made me feel less alone and hopeful. Especially that last part.

... Think I forgot how to be happy

...Something I'm not, something I

can be

...Something I wait for

...Something I'm made for...

God, yeah. That part always cracked something inside me.

Because I had truly forgotten how to be happy and what it even meant. Didn't even know how it felt anymore.

Since my mum died - because she was dead

to me

a part of

me died. When Dad told me she was gone, I didn't cry.

I didn't scream or shout or break things like the kids in movies.

just sat there and waited to feel something... Sadness. Anger. Shock

was betrayal. And it was the

me. She left without looking back. She could have taken

hands of the monster she called my father. That was

And she still

of a mother

kind of a mother

all I knew how to do... Lie still,

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interested me, and Norlan's place was most days, I stayed

constantly shrinking. But I didn't know how to

and I tilted my head just a little to take a glance, but

called in the soft voice he started learning to use in the past weeks. It felt like he'd been practicing to use that tone in front of a

listening to was really low, so I could hear him, but I pretended not

door and entered my room, gently tapping me

tiny crack I'd been staring at for days. It was starting to look like a lightning bolt. Or maybe

He tapped me again.

peeled one side of the headset off my ear and turned my head just enough to face him. But

He stood there awkwardly

if I was looking through him or

said, "How

I almost laughed.

Son?

had

just stared at him, blank-faced

he

in fake smiles and softer tones. He always started with the same question

answer. I didn't care what he wanted. I just wanted him to get it

palms together, then sat at the edge of my bed. The mattress dipped slightly under his weight, and

about something," he said, still maintaining that soft tone, as if I was fragile

pretending not to be the one who

speak. I

"Jorja's moving in tomorrow."

didn't react. At least

her daughter, who'll become your

kid. I think you'll like her if you

normal. "Try to be

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that... that

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