Chapter 328

KESTER.

14 YEARS AGO.

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I lay on my bed, one arm limp at my side while my head rested on the other, with my eyes fixed on the

ceiling above me like it held the secrets to why my world had fallen apart.

From my headset, Billie Eilish sang what felt like the story of my life

What was I made for...

It was a quiet song, but it hit so loud in my chest.

I was probably too young to understand lyrics like those, but I understood hurt too deeply and too early. The song resonated with me so much that I couldn't stop listening to it.

And it made the ache in my chest louder sometimes. Like pressing on a bruise you couldn't help but touch.

But other times, it made me feel less alone and hopeful. Especially that last part.

... Think I forgot how to be happy

...Something I'm not, something I

can be

...Something I wait for

...Something I'm made for...

God, yeah. That part always cracked something inside me.

Because I had truly forgotten how to be happy and what it even meant. Didn't even know how it felt anymore.

Since my mum died - because she was dead

to me

a part of

me died. When Dad told me she was gone, I didn't cry.

I didn't scream or shout or break things like the kids in movies.

sat there and waited to feel something... Sadness. Anger. Shock

And it was the cold, heavy kind of

She left without looking back. She could have taken me with her, but

of the monster she called my father. That was

was. And

of a mother

a mother chooses

all I knew how to do... Lie still, keep quiet, and

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place was most days, I stayed in here and got lost in music that said

I was constantly shrinking. But I didn't know how

just a little to take a glance, but the moment I saw who it was, I went back

voice he started learning to use in the past weeks. It felt

of the music I was listening to was really

my room, gently tapping me to get

been staring at for days. It was starting to look like a lightning bolt. Or maybe

He tapped me again.

headset off my ear and turned my head just enough to face him. But

He stood there awkwardly

he wasn't sure if I was looking

"How are you doing,

I almost laughed.

Son?

had the

stared at him, blank-faced

what he wanted.

for days like he wanted to say something but couldn't figure out how to wrap it in fake smiles and softer tones. He always started with the same

answer. I didn't care what he wanted. I just wanted him to get it

bed. The mattress dipped slightly under his weight, and I hated how close

to talk to you about something," he said, still maintaining that soft tone, as if I

pretending not to be the

speak. I just

"Jorja's moving in tomorrow."

didn't react. At least not at

her daughter, who'll become

you give her a change." He was trying

normal. "Try to be

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that... that

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