Chapter 328
KESTER.
14 YEARS AGO.
1
I lay on my bed, one arm limp at my side while my head rested on the other, with my eyes fixed on the
ceiling above me like it held the secrets to why my world had fallen apart.
From my headset, Billie Eilish sang what felt like the story of my life
What was I made for...
It was a quiet song, but it hit so loud in my chest.
I was probably too young to understand lyrics like those, but I understood hurt too deeply and too early. The song resonated with me so much that I couldn't stop listening to it.
And it made the ache in my chest louder sometimes. Like pressing on a bruise you couldn't help but touch.
But other times, it made me feel less alone and hopeful. Especially that last part.
... Think I forgot how to be happy
...Something I'm not, something I
can be
...Something I wait for
...Something I'm made for...
God, yeah. That part always cracked something inside me.
Because I had truly forgotten how to be happy and what it even meant. Didn't even know how it felt anymore.
Since my mum died - because she was dead
to me
a part of
me died. When Dad told me she was gone, I didn't cry.
I didn't scream or shout or break things like the kids in movies.
just sat there and waited to feel something... Sadness. Anger. Shock
was betrayal. And it was the
me. She left without looking back. She could have taken
hands of the monster she called my father. That was
And she still
of a mother
kind of a mother
all I knew how to do... Lie still,
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interested me, and Norlan's place was most days, I stayed
constantly shrinking. But I didn't know how to
and I tilted my head just a little to take a glance, but
called in the soft voice he started learning to use in the past weeks. It felt like he'd been practicing to use that tone in front of a
listening to was really low, so I could hear him, but I pretended not
door and entered my room, gently tapping me
tiny crack I'd been staring at for days. It was starting to look like a lightning bolt. Or maybe
He tapped me again.
peeled one side of the headset off my ear and turned my head just enough to face him. But
He stood there awkwardly
if I was looking through him or
said, "How
I almost laughed.
Son?
had
just stared at him, blank-faced
he
in fake smiles and softer tones. He always started with the same question
answer. I didn't care what he wanted. I just wanted him to get it
palms together, then sat at the edge of my bed. The mattress dipped slightly under his weight, and
about something," he said, still maintaining that soft tone, as if I was fragile
pretending not to be the one who
speak. I
"Jorja's moving in tomorrow."
didn't react. At least
her daughter, who'll become your
kid. I think you'll like her if you
normal. "Try to be
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that... that
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