Chapter 328

KESTER.

14 YEARS AGO.

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I lay on my bed, one arm limp at my side while my head rested on the other, with my eyes fixed on the

ceiling above me like it held the secrets to why my world had fallen apart.

From my headset, Billie Eilish sang what felt like the story of my life

What was I made for...

It was a quiet song, but it hit so loud in my chest.

I was probably too young to understand lyrics like those, but I understood hurt too deeply and too early. The song resonated with me so much that I couldn't stop listening to it.

And it made the ache in my chest louder sometimes. Like pressing on a bruise you couldn't help but touch.

But other times, it made me feel less alone and hopeful. Especially that last part.

... Think I forgot how to be happy

...Something I'm not, something I

can be

...Something I wait for

...Something I'm made for...

God, yeah. That part always cracked something inside me.

Because I had truly forgotten how to be happy and what it even meant. Didn't even know how it felt anymore.

Since my mum died - because she was dead

to me

a part of

me died. When Dad told me she was gone, I didn't cry.

I didn't scream or shout or break things like the kids in movies.

waited to feel something... Sadness. Anger. Shock

what I felt was betrayal. And it was the cold, heavy kind of

She could have

in the hands of the monster she

he was. And she still left

a

a mother chooses

all I knew how to do... Lie still, keep quiet, and be

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was most days, I stayed in here and got lost in music that said

constantly shrinking.

head just a little to take a glance, but the moment I saw who it was, I went back to staring

soft voice he started learning to use in the past weeks. It felt like he'd been practicing to use that tone in front of

volume of the music I was listening to was really low, so I could hear him, but I pretended not

the door and entered my room, gently tapping me to get

I just kept my eyes on that ceiling, tracing the same tiny crack I'd been

He tapped me again.

time, I exhaled slowly, peeled one side of the headset off my ear and turned my head just enough to

He stood there awkwardly

wasn't sure if I was looking through him or at him.

said, "How are you doing,

I almost laughed.

Son?

had the

stared at

what he

He always started with the same question

didn't care what he wanted. I

together, then sat at the edge of my bed. The mattress dipped slightly under his weight, and I hated

like to talk to you about something," he said, still maintaining that soft tone, as if

to be the one who dropped

speak.

"Jorja's moving in tomorrow."

react. At least not at

her daughter, who'll become your sister," he

I think you'll like her if you give her a change." He was

"Try to

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