Mated To The King’s Gamma By Jessica Hall

Abbie POV

I watched as he left. He really left. He walked out, and I glanced back at the bed nervously before looking back at the door. I hear him knock on Liam’s door down the hall and I move toward ours when I hear Liam’s voice.

“What’s up, brother?” I just managed to hear him say. I crack the door open just a little to listen. I knew it was coming but I thought I had more time, that maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much when it did. Yet hearing Gannon’s following words crushed me.

“I can’t do this with her anymore; I can’t. She is impossible. She-” he doesn’t finish, just sighs.

“Come on, let’s get a drink,” Liam says, wandering off with him. I shut the door, tears burning my eyes at what he said. Did he mean he didn’t want me? Did he finally realize I wasn’t enough for him, that couldn’t be what he needed?

My thoughts festered, racing through my head as I waited for him to return yet after an hour realized he wasn’t going to. Panic started to grow and writhed through me as I tried to calm my. racing heart and thoughts. Not wanting to wake Tyson, I slipped into the bathroom and sat on the floor. He was leaving me. He was going to leave me because, just like Sia, I was hurting him. I was no good for him, he deserved better. They all did!

better. Tyson deserved a mother that wasn’t afraid of her own shadow, afraid of his father’s affections. Gannon needed a mate, something I could never truly be for him. I loved him, yet couldn’t do what was expected of me. I didn’t want to see the disappointment on his face when he realized I was tarnished, used, and ruined, and I didn’t want to endure the flashbacks that came with

stared at the tub. Maybe if I bathed, I would feel better, not so dirty, maybe could wash away

amount of scrubbing would remove the scars, remove the sense of their touch, remove what they did to me and what I was too weak to

gross and now

as my actions hurt Tandi that day and ruined her life. Just as I ruined Azalea’s because she suffered so much for me, she

them, always the burden and now I was seeing that with startling clarity, and that guilt

Everything would be fixed if I weren’t here Gannon would move on and find someone who could love him the way he deserved, and Tyson would have

I ran the

cursing my stupidity before slashing and hacking at them again. Still, I healed, tears burned my eyes when I couldn’t even do that right. Getting

I know he would never give me up, even if that meant killing himself. I owed them