My Alpha’s Betrayal: Burning In The Flames Of His Vengeance

19. 19. Turmoiled Thoughts 

THEON 

Yilevna‘s mother was the one who killed mine... The conflict I felt inside of me had shaken me to my core. 

paced around my cabin; it had been an hour since we had found her, but I had been unable to stay in her presence, my head was about to burst. 

I looked around the room, it was too fucking small, the sway of the ship was making me sick and it almost felt like I couldn‘t fucking breathe. 

What do I do? 

What the fuck do I do? 

I stared at the ceiling, that was only a few inches above my head, 

It was too fucking claustrophobic in here. 

I threaded my hands together, placing them behind my head as I took deep breaths. 

I had killed Hana and William De‘Lacor, something I regretted every single fucking day... 

I know, I fucking know I no longer can take away her birth mother from her, I know what I fucking need to do... 

But everything I had worked my entire fucking life for was unravelling. First from the image of reality that Dad had portrayed, one that was beginning to hold a lot of questions and holes to the revenge I craved... I had spent the last decade waiting for the day I’d see that monster and kill her... 

She had been before me, but Yileyna had protected her and I had hesitated… 

My chest was burning up from the wounds, I needed to change my bandages before anyone saw them but I just... I couldn‘t fucking focus... 

I exhaled sharply, pulling my shirt off and unwrapping the bandages that were a disgusting mess, making my wounds itch. 

I looked down, seeing the injuries were looking as bad as they did days ago. I dropped down to the ground by the door, staring at the wall across from me as the ship swayed. 

What do I do? 

I felt fucking lost, every fucking thing I had worked my life for was... gone. 

I closed my eyes, squeezing my head, rocking slightly as I took deep breaths. 

When everything you have worked your entire fucking life for is just... gone, what do you do? 1 

A knock on the door made my head snap up, but I didn‘t move. I didn‘t want to see anyone. Not when I felt like I was going to fucking spiral. 

Another knock followed but I didn‘t reply until I heard the footsteps retreating. I stood up grabbed the bloody bandages, along with my dirty shirt, and walked to the bathroom, ready to wash off. 

Night had fallen, and I had gone out briefly to tell Flynn we were to head to Eastcourt, buti nad avoided Yileyna. I just needed to make sure Thea was ok, from there I would see what I can find out, and then head to Hunter‘s pack. 

I needed fucking answers, or I was going to lose my fucking mind. 

Yileyna... I needed to find out what she planned to do... but as relieved as I was that she was alive and near, no matter how much I wanted to pull her into my arms and never fucking let go, I couldn‘t. 

The rejection was still painful in my mind... everything that had happened... it all was fucking too much… and on top of that her Siren mother.... her identity... Fuck, why couldn‘t it be anyone else but her? 

My mind was still reeling. 

I dropped onto the bed, shirtless, the stinging had eased a little, but the wounds were still fucking hurting. Sleep didn‘t come and I sat up, maybe I‘d pop down to the hold and get some ale or wine..? 

I stood up, picking up a shirt and pulled it on, before leaving my room. Her scent lingered in the halls and I frowned, what was she doing out here? 

She had changed slightly, looking even more beautiful, although I have no fucking idea how that was possible... Yileyna... I was unable to get how fucking appealing she looked out of my mind... 

The urge to strip her naked and admire her was a temptation that would never be a reality. 

siren form, she had looked different than others. Her tail was far more extravagant, with her scales hanging low on her hips and dipping in a

good she looked,

door to the Hold, and I walked down

and I had been down here, after I had that nightmare. I opened a crate and took out a bottle of wine. It would do nothing to ease the pain but... why

bit the cork off and dropped to the floor, resting my head against the hard

get any easier?

for the rest of my fucking

to a point where I no longer knew what was right and wrong.

when there was no reprieve from anything.

Dad has told me turns out to be a lie… I

door creaked open, and I opened my eyes as her familiar scent

did she want?

down the steps and her creamy legs came into view, clad in just an oversized shirt. She paused at the bottom of the steps and looked towards me. Her aura radiated off her and it was far more

need to talk to you.” She spoke, her voice held a sexier edge, a little more dangerous and a little more exotic. I wondered how it would sound if she was under

the distraction right about now.

sat down next

flawless thighs, taking

She began softly.

wanted to talk about it,

remained silent, letting her carry on if she so wished.

one who killed your mother and sister... I‘m sorry... and I‘m not trying to justify her actions, but it‘s because of

a little older, as if she had shed the

entertaining her, or maybe because I needed a reason to justify

other than her being Yileyna‘s

shaky breath and began telling me the version that Andres had not told me...

we sat in silence as I

they made the Heart of Kaeladia, and then when he was done, he tried to

She said quietly.

than me, Dad... or Andres. We are all hurting so many others in the name of revenge, to justify our own fucking actions.” I murmured quietly, looking at her. Her iridescent eyes seemed to be fixed and they drew my attention; purple, pink, blue yellow and green blended together, more vibrant than I

rejection came back to mind... She was made for me, but I was far too fucked to keep her.

her gaze flickering to mine before

miss the look in her

want that to change, we can‘t keep going on like this Theon... it‘s a vicious cycle. The King apparently betrayed your father, I‘m saying apparently because he too seems like a monster, whether you agree or not. The king also betrayed Deliana, forcing her to want vengeance on all Alpha males, and in the process she killed your mother and sister, which

something she said making my heart

and I knew

brush it off. My

the siren?” I whispered menacingly. “Repeat

Alpha male on

There. 

She said it. 

came for me. If I hadn’t been there, they wouldn‘t have died.

was my

it.” She said, gripping my wrist and pulling my hand away from her

rolled into her command, but it didn‘t work

my hand, staring

I was the one behind it all, with enough fucking bad luck that I

Everyone. 

couple who had

shoulder, and I turned to look

stay away from me.” I warned her quietly as I stood up, downing the last drops in the bottle. She

this isn‘t about me and you. Theon, there‘s so much more going than you think, and I need you by