My Dad's Bestfriend

Chapter 174 It's Upto You Now

Evelyn

Bottling up my emotions, desires, and the twisted dreams my heart dared to whisper despite what it went through-dreams I deemed too bizarre, too dangerous for the future I craved-I stepped out of the room and agreed to go out with Cameron. No trauma, no doubts, no pain. That was the life I envisioned for myself, so here I was, sitting beside him, my safe choice, our feet sinking into the cool lake water. The bench, which Cameron described or I would say guessed as specially designed for this-soaking feet and relaxing-did little to calm the chaos in my mind. In my memory, this bench used to sit a foot away from the water. I vaguely remember coming here as a child, back when the lake seemed smaller, more innocent. But time and rising water had expanded it, so now, the bench sat at the perfect level for someone to sit and let the water gently touch their feet. I suppose, in different circumstances, it might have been calming.

But my mind was a battlefield. Instead of peace, I was drowning in a whirlpool of what-ifs and regrets-the choices I should have made, the ones I didn't, and the ones I knew I'd be forced to make soon, even if my heart screamed in protest.

If I had to rate this little outing, I'd give it a generous two out of ten. The two were solely because of Cameron, and maybe that sounds harsh, but in my current state, even those two points felt like a lot.

Truth is, I didn't leave the house just because Cameron asked and to say I did...well, that would've been an absolute fucking lie. There were two main reasons: first and more important, I needed to be anywhere but near Jacob, to escape and maybe, just maybe, find some sliver of peace a task I was hopelessly bad at. And second, it was Cameron who asked. Cameron, the guy who had been endlessly trying to be the best thing for me, did everything he could to pull me out of this abyss.

I couldn't deny his efforts. Cameron was a good guy, and somewhere deep down, I think he knew he was fighting a losing battle yet he was still not giving up. He had to know that my heart was still shackled to Jacob. Everyone knew how hopelessly, foolishly in love I still was with him. Cameron wasn't blind. He was sharp-painfully aware.

But I had no right to break Cameron's heart.

I wouldn't break his heart. Not ever.

"Does it still feel cold?" Cameron asked, his voice soft, almost teasing. His blue eyes sparkled under the pale glow of the moonlight, the colors shifting like an endless ocean. Maybe, if I hadn't first fallen for the stormy green in Jacob's gaze, I might have drowned in the sea of hues swirling in Cameron's. But I never allowed myself to look that deep. Because the eyes that had captured me had unraveled me were the same shade of green Jacob carried. Eyes that held secrets deeper than any forest. And I had lost myself in them long before Cameron stepped into my life.

was

amount of thoughts that circled my poor, stressed and overworked mind. To answer his question truthfully, I shifted

of the lake. Reaching out, he gently tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ear. "I told you. When you give things time, they stop feeling so impossible. Fear

scattered stars like pearls floating on the surface. Something in his words tugged at me, a deeper meaning hidden beneath his usual easy charm. There was

than I intended, the

the question by myself. "That

thumb brushed slowly over my skin, sending a ripple of warmth through me. "Fear takes away the best things in life. The adventures we're too Scared to

his words sinking deeper than I wanted to admit. Was he talking about Jacob? About us? Did he know

Cameron wasn't usually thisel.ne

he felt different More serious. As if he, too, was standing on the edge of something he wasn't sure

slipping out before I could hold it back. I didn't have the energy to pretend I wasn't confused, or that I

softened, and then

pressing the gentlest of kisses to

the

skin.

barely