My Hot Alpha

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We all had goals and up until now leading a pack of werewolf's wasn't mine. I wasn't the type of girl to stay home and not work.

I don't think I could be a housewife.

Grabbing a clean towel I closed my bedroom door quietly behind me. I was hoping my morning shower would clear my head. I worried about everything, I overthink every decision. Stripping out of my clothes I turned the shower on.

I worried I couldn't do it. What if I wasn't the strong girl he thought I was? What if his pack wouldn't follow my lead like he said. Standing under the water I closed my eyes.

My anxiety was through the roof this morning.

He was always telling me not to worry or stress about it but I couldn't help it. I put 100% into everything I did. I knew some of his pack members didn't like me but I understood why. I didn't ask to be his mate. He picked me not the other way around. Not that I would change it.

I had to stop putting so much pressure on myself.

Washing the soap from my body I took the towel off the rail wrapping it around my body. I didn't feel any better. My head felt like it was going to explode. At this moment I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I went to bed happy and woke up feeling like crap. My emotions were playing up and my game was off. I was stuck in a ruck with my life. I couldn't stop the what ifs in my head. Exiting the bathroom I went back into my bedroom.

He was awake his head buried in his phone.

"Morning princess".

"Hey". Taking a seat at my window I pulled back my curtain slightly. It was a wet one again.

looking at me his concentration still locked on his phone. It still amazed me that he could tell something was off with me. Was I having second thoughts? Did I really want this,

down to having an off day. We all had them and

"Babe?".

to my feet. Grabbing my clothes I made sure not to make eye contact. I didn't want him to worry. What I was feeling had an impact on him as well. "Leah

He was definitely worried.

"I-..." I hesitated.

He

"Know what?". I questioned.

this. You're having second thoughts". Getting to

I wanted him I guess it was the unknown that was

"No Jake that's-...."

in I would have taken you. I'd have

fucking game Leah. This is my life, our life and baby

that". He was jumping to conclusions like he did with everything. He always made it bigger than what it was. I wasn't having second thoughts. I wanted to be with him god he

"Shut up". I hissed.

what?". He snarled. "Don't you clench your

at the same time. Angry

I knew I was his I

his top lip pulled back into a

not scared of him either". I

but baby". He took a step towards me his hand slipping into the back of my hair. He pulled hard a cry falling from my lips. "You f*****g should be".