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Was it awkward or was I just being my weird overthinking self again? I was listening to the conversation happening around the table while eating my food.

Lacey was massive and I joked about there being two in there, but she corrected me and was sure there was only one. Were we okay? Was the awkwardness there because of me? Was I making it awkward?

A sigh fell from my lips. I was becoming annoyed with myself for being stupid. We were all friends, the best of friends. I was overthinking the situation like always.

"I miss this". Lana smiled. "We never hang out anymore".

She wasn't wrong. I was surprised we all made it here today. Everyone was always busy living their own lives.

"Life gets busy". I shrugged. "But you're right we need to do this more often". I took a sip of my coke my eyes landing on Lacey.

She had barely touched her food at all.

"Are you okay?". I asked.

"Fine". She smiled.

"Okay". Jake's voice was ringing in my head. I was not to push her; she didn't feel comfortable around me as it is because of the pregnancy which again was the stupidest thing I had ever heard. "Pregnancy is kicking your ass Lacey". Alanna spoke. "Are you still being sick?".

She nodded.

"Have you tried ginger?". I asked.

sickness tablets but they're not

try the ginger. Charlotte said it worked a treat

She smiled. "Thanks Leah and look I'm

grabbed her arm pulling her from her seat. "We'll be

Lana groaned. "Don't

haven't exactly been a good friend". She

to explain

or put distance between us but-...". A sigh fell from her lips. "You lost your baby, and I couldn't bring myself to shove my pregnancy in your face". "You know I would never think that, Lacey. I'm happy for you this is an

to be a happy time in my life, and I hate it. I'm sick every day, I can't sleep at night because I

She wasn't catching a break, and she still had a long way to go

your house back to you". It was the least I could do. My gran would

not our house and Jack prefers staying at his parents. He doesn't like me

that what you

for the best". She shrugged. "And I would never expect your gran to move out

well she was the one that up and left in the first place, but I guess she was right. I couldn't ever see myself throwing my gran out. I wouldn't be able to bring myself to do that. "So, we're

never have thought that in the first

okay keeping busy". Talking about the loss of my baby wasn't something I was ready to talk about and I wasn't sure if I would ever be ready. Jake and I have dealt with

It wasn't going to do anyone any good and yeah, maybe keeping it locked away wasn't the answer, but I was doing what was

me.

It happened and then it didn't, and I was okay with that. I was a strong believer of everything happens for a reason and sadly it wasn't our time but that didn't mean it was never going to happen again.

hint and for that I was grateful. Not that she or anyone else would ever force me