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Was it awkward or was I just being my weird overthinking self again? I was listening to the conversation happening around the table while eating my food.

Lacey was massive and I joked about there being two in there, but she corrected me and was sure there was only one. Were we okay? Was the awkwardness there because of me? Was I making it awkward?

A sigh fell from my lips. I was becoming annoyed with myself for being stupid. We were all friends, the best of friends. I was overthinking the situation like always.

"I miss this". Lana smiled. "We never hang out anymore".

She wasn't wrong. I was surprised we all made it here today. Everyone was always busy living their own lives.

"Life gets busy". I shrugged. "But you're right we need to do this more often". I took a sip of my coke my eyes landing on Lacey.

She had barely touched her food at all.

"Are you okay?". I asked.

"Fine". She smiled.

"Okay". Jake's voice was ringing in my head. I was not to push her; she didn't feel comfortable around me as it is because of the pregnancy which again was the stupidest thing I had ever heard. "Pregnancy is kicking your ass Lacey". Alanna spoke. "Are you still being sick?".

She nodded.

"Have you tried ginger?". I asked.

tablets but they're not working. I'm sick all day

said it worked

will". She smiled. "Thanks Leah and

grabbed her arm pulling her

Lana groaned. "Don't

haven't exactly been a good friend". She

need to explain yourself

lips. "You lost your baby, and I couldn't bring myself to shove my pregnancy in your face". "You

I hate it. I'm sick every day, I can't sleep at night because I can

felt sorry for her. She wasn't catching a break, and she still had a long way to go before the baby was

your house back to you". It was the least I could do. My gran would just have to

frowned. "It's not our house and Jack prefers staying at his parents. He

that what you want?". I

would never expect

one that up and left in the first place, but I guess she was right. I couldn't ever see myself throwing my

have thought that in

of my baby wasn't something I was ready to talk about and I wasn't sure if I would ever be ready. Jake and I have dealt with it our own way. We're happy,

because honestly, I don't think I need to. It had nothing to do with anyone else. It wasn't going to do anyone any good and yeah, maybe keeping it locked away wasn't the answer, but I was

me.

then it didn't, and I was okay with that. I was a strong believer of everything happens for a reason and sadly it wasn't our time but that didn't mean it was

I was grateful. Not that she