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Was it awkward or was I just being my weird overthinking self again? I was listening to the conversation happening around the table while eating my food.

Lacey was massive and I joked about there being two in there, but she corrected me and was sure there was only one. Were we okay? Was the awkwardness there because of me? Was I making it awkward?

A sigh fell from my lips. I was becoming annoyed with myself for being stupid. We were all friends, the best of friends. I was overthinking the situation like always.

"I miss this". Lana smiled. "We never hang out anymore".

She wasn't wrong. I was surprised we all made it here today. Everyone was always busy living their own lives.

"Life gets busy". I shrugged. "But you're right we need to do this more often". I took a sip of my coke my eyes landing on Lacey.

She had barely touched her food at all.

"Are you okay?". I asked.

"Fine". She smiled.

"Okay". Jake's voice was ringing in my head. I was not to push her; she didn't feel comfortable around me as it is because of the pregnancy which again was the stupidest thing I had ever heard. "Pregnancy is kicking your ass Lacey". Alanna spoke. "Are you still being sick?".

She nodded.

"Have you tried ginger?". I asked.

tablets but they're not working. I'm sick all day

the ginger. Charlotte said it worked a treat when she was pregnant with the

will". She smiled. "Thanks Leah and look I'm

more tacos". Alanna grabbed her arm pulling her

Lana groaned. "Don't pull

a good friend". She sighed. "I

need to

myself to shove my pregnancy in your face". "You know I would never think that, Lacey. I'm happy for you this is an exciting time, and I wish you

be a happy time in my life, and I hate it. I'm sick every day, I can't sleep at night because I can never get comfortable and

she

to get your house back to you". It was the least I could do. My gran would just

staying at his parents.

you want?".

"And I would never expect your gran to

guess she was right. I couldn't ever see

have thought that in the first place. How are you

about the loss of my baby wasn't something I was ready to talk about and I wasn't sure if I would ever be ready. Jake and I have dealt with it our own

to do with anyone else. It wasn't going to do anyone any good and yeah,

me.

best for me. It happened and then it didn't, and I was okay with that. I was a strong believer of everything happens for a reason and sadly it wasn't our time but that didn't mean it was never

hint and for that I was grateful. Not that she or anyone else would