My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 114

I was kidnapped in the market of Helsinki, but I didn't feel the slightest fear because there was a powerful man within my reach who would always protect me.

He looked at me calmly and silently moved his lips, mouthing, "Don't be afraid."

I believed Shawn would save me, so I wasn't afraid at all. Suddenly, the person covering my mouth released me and shoved me into the car.

Then, he sat in the driver's seat.

When the car was about to leave, several men suddenly opened the car door and jumped in. Each of them had a suitcase in their hands and opened them as soon as they got in the car. They were full of disassembled weapons.

Did I meet terrorists? Or are they Shawn's enemy? Yes, they should be Shawn's enemy.

That was because I heard them calling Shawn's name just now.

I turned and looked out of the car window. Shawn quickly turned around and disappeared into the vast sea of people. I didn't know what he planned to do, but I believed he wouldn't abandon me.

At this moment, I had complete trust in him.

The several foreign men in the car began to assemble the weapons, and when the car drove out of the city, I heard them say in Chinese, "If he doesn't die this time, we'll die."

"He's alone this time, and we have a hostage."

The man driving the car had golden hair and blue eyes. There was a hint of awe in his voice as he said, "Speaking of which, this is the first time I've seen a woman by Shawn's side. Didn't Ms. Hayes said that he wasn't interested in women? It seems like it's just a rumor!"

Who's Ms. Hayes?

It sounded like a foreigner's name.

The person behind answered, "This woman of Shawn's is so beautiful. I wonder how she performs in bed! She must be amazing! Look at her small waist. Those long, fair legs, and that small mouth…"

They spoke fluent Mandarin. As I often interacted with various businessmen, I studied Mandarin to not fall for some pitfalls just by being a foreign businesswoman. Therefore, I was pretty familiar with the language and could understand when they made those lewd remarks.

I pursed my lips tightly and didn't speak, pretending not to understand them as the car continued driving north.

I didn't know where the specific destination was, but we were driving for five hours until a helicopter appeared in front of them to block their path.

They stopped and brought me down. There was a violent storm outside, and I figured this must be the northernmost part of Finland.

I was wearing a pair of stockings that weren't thick and a windbreaker, so when I got out of the car, my whole body trembled from the cold. They took me into the helicopter, and a beautiful woman sat inside.

Her features were like that of a European, but her eyes were black, and her hair was a dyed flaxen color.

"She's the woman who was with Shawn?"

The woman was wearing a mink coat, and in her hand was a glass of red wine, despite being in the middle of a blizzard. She swirled her drink as she stared at me and quipped, "She's a gorgeous woman, but she doesn't look outstanding at all. Oh, she's very courageous. She hasn't been frightened to tears yet."

Initially, I wanted to ask who she was, but I kept my mouth shut and didn't ask, as her target wasn't me but Shawn.

The person beside me said, "I saw Shawn talking to her with my own eyes, and he was so gentle that he seemed different from the man I know."

The woman's face hardened as she asked the man, "Where's Shawn? Is he coming soon?"

"Judging from his speed, he'll probably be here in twenty minutes.

Ms. Hayes, the consequences of you poking the sleeping bear will be very serious. If the old man knows, he'll be furious, so you should practice some restraint…"

It turned out that she was Ms. Hayes.

She said Shawn wasn't interested in women!

How did she know that about him?

Could it be that they…

I stopped my thoughts in their tracks and heard the order from the young woman they called Ms. Hayes, "Throw her into the snow. Let's go find Shawn."

The person beside me asked in surprise, "Just throw her into the snow?"

Raising her eyebrows, Tracy said, "She's just bait. Now, she doesn't serve any purpose anymore, so why should we keep her? To make me feel bad about myself? To remind me that Shawn likes a woman like her and not me?"

This woman spoke so highly of herself!

It was as if she was a cloud and I was mud.

I was tied with a rope and thrown into the snow. As I was wearing thin clothing, it wouldn't take long before I froze to death.

I hurriedly whispered to the person next to me in Mandarin, "If you come and save me later, I'll give you five times as much money as she's giving you."

He was surprised. "Yo, you can speak Mandarin?"

With his back facing Tracy, he said, "Why don't you spend one night with me? Then, I'll consider letting you go."

He couldn't let me go in front of Tracy, but he could wait for her to leave and come back to rescue me.

Through gritted teeth, I hissed, "That's a bad deal."

I was freezing, and my body was in pain. I had never experienced what it was like to be cold to the point of feeling pain, but I was feeling it now.

"Oh, what I lack isn't money."

He pushed my body down the slope, and I instantly fell into the snow as it covered my entire body. After a while, I heard the sound of the helicopter leaving, and then everything went quiet. Only the storm and snow were left as I curled up, freezing.

I wasn't afraid just now, but I was now. I was fearful that my body would freeze, especially my thin legs.

If I suffered from muscle necrosis…

I dared not imagine it, so I kept on calling for Shawn in my mind.

My body gradually lost its heat, and my brain began to lack oxygen. I didn't know how long it was when I felt a slight movement on my side.

I could vaguely hear someone speaking.

That voice was remarkably familiar.

"Where was she buried?"

"There's so much snow. How would I know?"

The man snapped, "Tracy, do you want me to ruin your future?"

"I've really forgotten. How would I know where your woman was buried? You've just killed the only few people who know."

The man ordered, "Dig. Dig three feet into the ground."

"Mr. Xenos, it's only been 20 minutes so far. According to the limit of human's ability to survive, Ms. Felix should be in a state of blurred consciousness at this moment. Her life isn't in danger."

No one responded to him.

My body was numb, but the pain gradually disappeared, and my consciousness was a complete blur. Then, suddenly, someone yelled, "Here!"

Within a few minutes, I was dug out and in someone's arms. Someone wrapped a few down jackets around me, and warmth gradually returned. I stared at the person holding me for a long time.

"Babe, can you hear me?"

"Tsk, Shawn, that's so intimate!"

I could vaguely tell that the voice belonged to that woman called Tracy.

I curled my fingers into fists as I looked at him. For a moment, I couldn't recognize him. Then, when he saw my dazed state, he hurriedly got up and carried me into the car.

The car was warm, so I snuggled into his arms and moved my legs, saying pitifully, "My legs are freezing."

Shawn quickly reached out and touched my cold legs. However, suddenly, he made a bold move by stripping off my clothes, including my underwear, and wrapped me in a warm blanket.

When he removed the cold clothes from my body, it took me a while to react. I stared at Shawn in a daze, not speaking at all.

He rubbed my cheeks repeatedly with his fingers in careful motion, then suddenly scolded me. "Who told you to follow me to Finland?"

I replied in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Shawn's handsome face was less than three centimeters away from me. Less than two minutes later, he set me down and got out of the car. Through the car window, I saw him kick Tracy severely. This was the first time I saw Shawn hit a woman.

Tracy fell to the ground and stared at him in shock. I rolled down the window and heard Shawn say, "I never hit a woman, but it's not that I can't! Tracy, for the sake of your old man, I will spare your life. If you ever get fed up with this life, you can go to hell with your old man and make amends."

"Shawn, are you turning against the Hayes family for a woman?" Tracy gracefully got up from the snow and laughed. "I don't believe you can fight the world just for her!"

Shawn suddenly called out, "Tracy!"

Startled, she asked, "What?"

"We've known each other for decades, and you know that I don't have much joy in life. If you deprive me of my only hope, I will do my best to turn the world upside down! Especially the person who destroys her, I will let them know what's hell on earth."

Shawn was the kind of person who never explained what he did. Whenever he fought someone or did something, what was done was done. To put it simply, he did whatever he wanted to.

However, he had just said seriously that I was his only hope.

I didn’t understand what he meant by hope.

That was because he felt no love for me.

Since when did he regard me with such importance?

And was it even a gesture of affection?

Tracy asked in astonishment, "You actually…”

There was a violent snowstorm outside, and the snow falling on Shawn's body made him look extremely cold and indifferent. Finally, he interrupted Tracy and said icily, "I say this because I hope you will act cautiously in the future. If you repeat what you did today."

In a soft voice, Tracy asked sarcastically, "Oh, by saying that, do you mean I have to protect her if I see her in danger in the future?"

Shawn coldly replied, "There’s no reason why you shouldn’t."

The man turned and left Tracy. He came to see that the car window was wide open, so he frowned and asked, "Ray, aren’t you cold?"

I smiled and babbled, "Initially, I wanted to eavesdrop on what you were saying, but the wind was too loud, and I only saw you kick her."

Shawn opened the car door and got in the car, so I quickly moved inside. Then, he shut the window and asked, "Do you still feel cold?"

I whined as I felt terrible, "Well, my body is still in pain. When I looked in the mirror just now, my face was all frostbitten. It’ll probably take a long time to recover."

I was wrapped in a blanket, and my legs were inadvertently exposed. Shawn raised his hand and touched it in a familiar motion. As I stared at him in astonishment, he calmly said, "It's okay. As long as your legs don't freeze out."

I quickly withdrew them, and Shawn ordered the driver to return to the villa.

Initially, we were supposed to go back to Eldham in the afternoon, but because of my condition, we could only go to Espoo. Shawn carried me back to the room when the car arrived at the entrance. Then, he went downstairs to make a pot of oatmeal for me.

After I finished one bowl, I was filled with warmth. Eventually, after lying on the bed for a while, I fell asleep. It was already early in the morning when I woke up, and Shawn was in the room, sleeping beside me.

My heart still thumped when I thought of what he said to Tracy, which simply sounded like a man's oath to a woman.

However, he didn't allow me to get closer to him.

If I wanted to kiss him, he would refuse me decisively.

It wasn't snowing in Espoo, and the moonlight outside the window was bright. His handsome face was facing me, so I raised my hand and gently traced the outline of his face. I felt a little greedy, so I reached out to touch his lips.

Shawn's lips were thin. I heard that men with thin lips were naturally colder and indifferent. I pursed my lips, suddenly wanting to kiss the corner of his lips.

At that moment, I forgot Nicholas about my former obsession and love. The only person I saw was the man who didn't understand love, rejected care, was born cold and ruthless, and held great power.

He was Shawn, and his hands were full of blood.

In the eyes of the world, he was a monster.

He was Shawn, who was also clean and pure, as he had never had a single woman before.

Shawn was simply too perfect, so perfect that I dared not taint him. I pursed my lips and lowered my head but stopped above his lips. I wanted to kiss him. I was desperate to kiss him.

But I didn't have the courage after all.

There were too many layers between us.

I was about to withdraw my head when Shawn suddenly opened his eyes, so we just stared at each other, studying each other.

My heart was pounding because Shawn caught me in the middle of specific impure actions. When I tried to find an excuse, he asked faintly, "Ray, did you want to kiss me?"

His expression was serious when he questioned me. I didn't want to kiss him at first, but his abstinence attracted me.

I nodded obediently, then heard him ask in a cold voice, "Then, do you know what this means?"

I remained silent because I didn't know how to answer his question, but I knew that that action would snap the thin line between us once I kissed him.

It would no longer be classified as familial affection; more importantly, we hadn't determined each other's intentions yet.

I didn't even know if I loved him.

I just had an urge to get close to him, and he clearly didn't love me.

Shawn let out a low sigh as he noticed my confused state. He sat up and stretched out his palm to stroke the back of my head, then slowly leaned toward me, his thin lips getting closer and closer to me.

Our breathing became clearer, then it blended. Only when I licked the corners of his lips and finally felt his sweetness did I react and wrap my arms around his neck.

I tightened my grip and held Shawn tightly. Unfortunately, he didn't seem to be good at kissing, as he gently pressed his lips against mine but made no next move.

Since he didn't move, I dared not flaunt my experience.

After all, compared to him, I was a woman who had experienced sexual love, and even knew where men's sensitive spots were.

After a long time, he let go of me and said, "Never again."

Surprised, I asked, "Sunny, what was that for?"

"To fulfill your wish."

I was speechless at his curt remark.

Is it because I've been thinking about it for a long time? Then, this kiss doesn't mean anything, does it? Shawn and I are still just Shawn and I.

He didn't want to be in a relationship with me, which I found to be good, because ever since a long time ago, I already wanted to find a man who didn't want to date me but was willing to spoil me.

I even held such hopes obout Merlin but found thot he hod other intentions.

Now thot I finolly found someone who didn't love me but wos willing to spoil me, I should feel ot eose. Although I wos comforting myself this woy, I felt indescriboble disoppointment.

It seemed os if I wosn't willing to do this.

Becouse I didn't hove concer onymore.

Now, I wos quolified to love someone wholeheortedly.

I suddenly remembered thot Woylen hod soid thot Shown once thought obout forming o fomily ond hoving children, but I could not do so…

At the end of the doy, I still didn't hove the quolificotions to love someone ond be in o long-term relotionship.

Shown wonted to get out of bed ond leove, but I reoched out ond grobbed his sleeve, then osked brozenly, "Con I kiss you ogoin?"

Shown wos ot o loss for words.

I repeoted weokly, "I wont to kiss you."

His breoth wos sweet, which I liked very much.

I probobly oppeored too eoger os Shown suddenly osked me o serious question. "Hove you forgotten obout Nicholos?"

In on instont, my heort exploded with shome. I looked ot Shown in ostonishment, unoble to soy o word os thoughts of Nicholos filled my mind.

Yes, thot's right. Why did I forget Nicholos? I used to be so deeply in love with him! But, I…

I couldn't beor to let go of the mon in front of me.

I couldn't let go of him from the bottom of my heort.

My heort wos storting to feel messed up.