My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 189

It was not until last night that I arrived in Finland, which subsequently, made today even more exhausting for my body. I reached out and stroked my stomach while saying to Christopher, who was beside me, "Now, I know better how loving someone feels like."

He responded with a little nod. "Shawn is so much better than Nicholas. He knows how to be considerate of you."

At the mention of Shawn, I smiled sweetly and said, "His personality is not particularly warm and he can appear cold at times because he looks indifferent to everyone. Women often find it tough to tolerate as they believe he doesn’t love them! But I know that when a man like him falls in love, he will protect her over his own life! Christopher, I have never understood how love feels like because I was never truly loved by anyone. For a period of my life, I yearned to be loved."

When Christopher heard this, he responded gently, "Did Shawn make you feel loved?"

The winter snow began to fall slowly from the night sky and Christopher was quick enough to drape his coat over me.

I lowered my gaze slightly as I noticed that his phone was still in my possession.

"Yes, more than ever," I replied immediately.

I remembered the first time I met Shawn, I was in awe of him despite our brief encounter.

The next time I saw him, he looked so frigid that it made everyone around him nervous.

He was cruel and unsmiling in the eyes of the world and I sometimes even thought that he could be a little conservative.

However, he was as pure as a snow, taking in all the punches that I threw.

"I really hope he’s the one for you, little girl."

"But he won't forgive me now," I said lamently.

Despite the fact that Shawn chose to trust me, he still abandoned me.

He probably believed I was the cause of it all.

Christopher let out a deep sigh before he smiled and reassured me, "I don’t think so. Though I’m only an outsider, I truly believe that he wouldn’t blame you for all that has happened!"

"Why is that?" I asked expectantly.

"You’re too wonderful not to be loved," he answered.

I was speechless.

"I suck." I said, sighing in sadness.

I had always felt like a sucker and seeing how I lived my life so far made me further believe it.

In all rationality, Christopher said, "Renee, you need to be highly aware of your circumstances now."

"And what are they?" I asked perplexedly.

"I've heard a little bit about Shawn's current state. He's been barely surviving for the past month and Diego just told you on the phone that Tracy is in Finland, ready to ambush you at any time now! With the life you both have, you’ll never have peace unless you find a way around it; you need to find a way to be invincible before you can live your life without these sinister fools. What you must do right now is to learn how to control the Xenos Family. You must have the Xenos on your side before the outside forces would even fear you."

He said that regardless of what I was doing, I needed to learn how to handle the Xenos.

He was right. There was not much that I knew about the Xenos Family since I took over.

The Xenos Family resembled a rusted sword in my hand.

Christopher went on, "You hold the power that Shawn once had, in which you can use to become a better version of yourself. This can also make the rest of the world dread you as much as they fear Shawn."

Christopher hoped that I would be able to defend myself.

"I understand. I’ll do my best," I affirmed with an appreciative smile.

I really need to step up now or else I might ruin everything!

Suddenly, he stood to his feet and said, "I'll look for Olivia to discuss something before heading to Eldham."

I was startled to hear that. "Are you heading to Eldham now?"

"My piano teacher from my childhood invited me to his house for the New Year."

I hummed in response while smiling and replied, "Happy New Year."

He nodded before replying, "Take care of yourself. You can call me if you need any help."

Then, I nodded earnestly and said, "I will."

After Christopher left, I instructed the bodyguards beside me, "Please make arrangements for my flight to Finland."

"Yes, Miss," said the bodyguard standing closest to me.

As I got up, I asked, "What's your name?"

"Joseph," he answered briefly.

"Please contact Anthony to inform him of my whereabouts, Joseph."

"Yes, I'll contact him right away," he said respectfully.

He then turned around to make a call and arrange my trip while the rest of the bodyguards followed me into the villa.

As I walked into the living room, I noticed that everyone was chatting when my mother summoned me at that precise moment.

I quickly approached her. "I have to leave soon, Mom."

My mother did not intervene. Instead, she asked, "Where are you going?"

In the meantime, Nicholas was scrolling through his phone casually. I did not want my parents to be concerned and I did not want him to know where I was going either, so I lied. "Francesca just called and asked me to a New Year's Eve dinner with Bradley later."

My father asked curiously, "Is that Leon's child?"

I nodded and he suggested, "Why not have Leon join as well?"

"They're still not on good terms," I responded swiftly.

My father stopped speaking after that. In front of my parents, I spoke to Nicholas in an unusually compassionate tone. "I'll be busy later, Nicholas. Could you take my parents back to Felix's Villa?"