My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 484

"These bells… and me."

People who learned psychology were truthfully terrifying. Although I did not show any hint of emotion, he already guessed my answer; my thoughts seemed to have exposed themselves in front of him. No shreds of emotion could escape him, for he had a full grasp of me.

I asked unnecessarily, "You knew?"

"Yup. I know you won't lie, Miss. When you looked at my wrist out of reflex in the elevator, I guessed it. I wanted to talk to you about it, but I stopped myself upon recalling my promise to you. Yet, this is fate now. I didn't know you were here. Fortunately, I managed to watch your performance. You truly are stunning, and the music was very pleasing. I sincerely mean every word." After a pause, he stated, "Miss, I think you know my feelings for you. I like you a lot. Fourteen years, I've been keeping you in my thoughts."

Caught somewhat off guard, I replied, "I'm already married. Besides, I don't like you and hope you won't disturb me anymore."

Though my words seemed cruel, I was not close to him, so I was not obliged to show him my kindness. Still, he had been crushing on me for fourteen years, so I did somehow feel a little heartless saying that. After giving it some thought, I said, "If I wasn't married and was still single, I might consider it, but I am and have two children. I love my husband very deeply. So, sorry, Ezekiel. I thank you for your feelings."

He smiled and replied, "I'm well aware of the stable relationship you share with Shawn, Miss. I'd never thought about disrupting your family, but I still want to talk about something. Miss… Thank you for giving me a single ray of hope fourteen years ago. If not for you, I wouldn't have been able to hold on because I was…"

The sound of the bells kept ringing in my ears as I heard him continue, "I was ready to end it all that day since it was just too hard to keep on living. I never thought life could be so crushing, even more than death… Yet, I was lucky to have met you, Miss. You asked me why my body was riddled with injuries and cared about me. Scared that I would wince due to pain, you kept holding my hand and blowing on it. You even gave me these bells. Although you said they were your protective charms, you promised that if I wore them, I would never get hurt again. You stated that you liked the glimmer in my eyes and hoped they would shine like that forever. Also, you saved me, saying that I needed to live on no matter the hardship I would endure. Even though you said so much, I remember every single word."

Although Ezekiel was smiling, tears started to roll down his cheeks. People said that men did not cry easily, even more so for a man as emotionlessly detached and secretive as him. At that moment, I could not imagine how much pain and hardship he had harbored inside, for I even started to pity him!

He reached out, wanting to touch my cheek, yet he stopped in midair as if he was afraid of something. Blinking, I heard him state gently, "I am so afraid of ruining you, Miss. That is why I never dared to approach you. Even now, I shudder at the thought of touching you. Miss, this is the first time I've opened myself to you like this. I had never thought of saying all this to you, but I cannot resist what my heart wants. In the end, I still divulged it all in front of you. Again, I'm sorry for disturbing you."

"I'm sorry, Ezekiel." I could not reciprocate his feelings.

"Miss, sometimes, it's better to forget than to remember."

Puzzled, I asked, "What do you mean?"

"Thank you for lending me your ear."

The ringing of the bells never went away until Joseph called out to me. "Miss? Why are you standing here in a daze?"

Snapping out of it, I noticed that Ezekiel was long gone, and our conversation was slowly fading away from my memory!

There was a moment of blankness, and I seemed to have forgotten about something, so I asked Joseph, "Who's Ezekiel? Ezekiel Hastings."

"Mr. Reyes said that he was Mike."

"Who's Mike?" I asked.

Joseph waved his hand in front of my eyes before I recalled who Mike was after a long, hard thought. "I remember now. He's Shawn's enemy."

"Yes. He has always been an enemy."

I felt woozy and only remembered that along with his actions, Ezekiel was Shawn's enemy. Yet, I could not recall the details of what he actually did. It was like someone erased specific parts of my memory, and the worst of all was that I did not know what was missing!

However, I felt the lingering sadness that permeated my heart, together with the recurring sound of 'Miss' and bells.

I ordered Joseph in a pensive mood, "I seemed to have forgotten about something important, Joseph. Investigate whom I met just now."

"Yes, Miss."