My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 572 Rudy’s Real Thoughts

Rudy was staying in Shawn's villa by the beachside the whole time. Even after Sir Larson wounded him badly last time, he felt no qualms about his safety. After he recovered from the injury, he returned to the villa without hesitation.

It seemed like he wasn't afraid of Sir Larson's revenge at all.

Clair dropped me off at the beachside. I asked him not to wait for me since there was a garage in the villa, and I could drive home on my own.

"All right. Remember to call me if you need a ride home."

I answered meekly, "Don't worry about me, Clair."

After seeing Clair off, I walked up to the villa. Rudy wasn't in his room. Meanwhile, there were two sun loungers in front of the swimming pool. Rudy took the one on the left and enjoyed the evening breeze. Approaching him, I stated, "I'm here."

He began in a casual tone, "Why don't you join me first?"

Since he offered, I lay down on the other sun lounger and watched the night sky. "Do you like it here?"

He didn't give me a straight answer. "Define 'like'."

He was giving me a hard time with that question.

The night breeze was somewhat cool despite it being summer. Besides, the villa was built next to the beach. I covered my injured belly with a white blanket on the sun lounger.

He continued because I didn't answer, "After experiencing the ups and downs in the business sector for years, I always wonder how to become powerful or to gain a firm foothold, or even more, catch up with Shawn. One important thing never occurred to me in the past. Even after I traveled around the world and saw beautiful sceneries, I never slowed down to appreciate them until now. And I finally figured out the simple truth."

I urged, "What is it?"

"Why do people pursue wealth and power?"

It was a tricky question that different people had different answers to it.

Shawn needed wealth and power to protect me and our children.

As for me, I was forced to take over the responsibilities.

Wealth and power were never my life goals.

However, now I would embrace them to protect my family.

And so, I asked, "What about you?"

Rudy fell into silence for a long time. I tilted my head and studied him. He was looking into the distance with an unreadable expression. Before I could change the topic, he explained in a low tone, "My family abandoned me once because I'm not a legitimate child. During that time, all I could think about was to survive and get revenge on them. I wanted to live a better life. When I finally climbed the ladder, I was surprised to learn that my resentment against them was unnecessary. It vanished because they were barely a capable opponent. I lost the motivation to strive until I met Shawn. I wanted to stand side-by-side with him, and maybe surpass him. Thus, I traveled around the world. Furthermore, I plotted against him. When I think back to the old days, I only find a busy life. I didn't even have time for leisure. To be honest, I've had enough of this kind of life. I want something simple."

He had enough of the life in which he had been plotting against the others, but Shawn told me that Rudy was planning to start all over again.

Rudy's words gave me the impression of him being uninterested in making a comeback.

"What's your point?"

He didn't answer right away, Instead, he mumbled something I couldn't comprehend, "Shawn and I used to never stand in the sun. Thus, the darkness in life doesn't bother us. We aren't scared of darkness. Back when…"

He abruptly trailed off and was lost in his thoughts. After a long time, he deeply sighed. "We had no weakness back then. We never thought life was boring. In fact, we saw life as being only that. However, Shawn met you, and I met May. Shawn and I don't deserve such kindness from you and May. We are reluctant to let the warmth go. Your existence caused ripples in our hearts and we became cowards. We think about the women we love every day and are afraid of losing them. Furthermore, we can no longer see things in the same way as before. We long for a simple life."

Rudy and Shawn were alike.

Men like them overcame ups and downs in life.

Time granted them the experience.

Despite the knowledge that helped them to survive in the world, it also took something in return. They couldn't feel the joy in life and they had nobody by their side.

"What brought this on?"

After pondering for a moment, I added, "You seldom share your story."

"I only know a few people in Bryxton. I only stay here because of May. The reason I'm telling you this is…" He stopped again. The night breeze brushed his hair off his face and he took his time to collect himself. "Even though Shawn is my rival, he's my only friend too. Besides, you're his wife and May's best friend. I have nobody to share the stories with other than you. Renee, there's something you need to know. Love helps and ruins Shawn and me at the same time. It makes Shawn a better person, but I have chosen the wrong path."