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Chapter 148: You Brightened My Darkness Chapter 148: You Brightened My Darkness Angelia

For a second day in a row, I skipped both school and work. It was easier skipping school but I felt terrible knowing someone else had to cover my shift. Still, I needed time to sort things out and my emotions were still all over the place. It exhausted me and I had to take care of myself before I added more to my plate. On a bright note, I actually got around to figuring out my next step yesterday like I had planned to.

It was hard because the next step wasn't something I was ready for but something I still needed to do. I needed answers and to get them, I had to talk to them. These past days made it clear that if I didn't speak to them, I would never truly move past it because I would always wonder why. It was the single most hardest choice I had made to grow up. When I was a kid, I thought that people over eighteen were adults but the older I got, the more I learned that it had nothing to do with

age and all to do with how you acted and how you handled difficult situations. I had always I becoming an adult because mature decision s**d a** no matter how beneficial they could be could be

dreaded

When Andy got back yesterday from picking up my stuff, he had told me about Riccardo showing

up and then Marshall. It hurt to hear about them but at the same time, it gave me hope that some

of what we had was genuine. I mean, they must have cared at least a little if they were trying to seek me out, right? Abandoning Andy and James at the dinner table, I walked to the room for privacy. Sitting down on the bed, I finally turned off the flight mode on the phone. I had avoided my phone like the plague but it was time to get my a*** in gear and deal because if it was one thing I hadn't done these past days, it was dealing with the shit that had happened. Instead, I had fully succumbed to wallowing in self-pity so much so that Andy had sent James over while he was at work just so I couldn't wallow too much. The joke was on him, James had brought a shit ton of

ice cream and we watched some movies. The saddest movie ever made in my opinion and we cried together and if that wasn't the height of wallowing, I didn't know what was.

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my chest as notification ticked in on my phone. Ldidn't know what I had expected but the overwhelming amount of both texts and missed wasn't it. Going for the easiest first, I clicked on the missed calls and scrolled down, seeing all the guys even Kingston who despised talking had called several times. The last call was just a few minutes ago from Marshall. I almost felt nauseous as I went to the texts next, choosing

out, my bunny. We will find a way to make it work, I promise. Call me when you can.' 1/4 Chapter 148: You

Marshall told me but you already know. Maybe not that I had been his student but he had known there could be a possibility at the very

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please give me a call." And then I read his third message.

longer? The thought that we weren't broke me further and I didn't know what I wanted, only that I didn't want to feel like this, a mix of too many negative emotions that I couldn't discern one from the other.

you. I was just too greedy to let you walk away

in my eyes as I read his message, I was surprised I even had the capability for more tears after all the crying I had done. My period which I had just gotten yesterday made my emotions go from chaotic enough to complete haywire. I wasn't ready to read the texts from the other, not after how shitty I felt after reading Riccardo's but it needed to be done. It was basically like pouring alcohol into a wound, it might hurt but it would

idiots. It pains me to know that we were causing you to hurt and I can never

many and yet they hadn't. If they had told me in the beginning, maybe...maybe I would have been more

we were on our date and I was thinking of you.

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I wiped it away as

moment I saw you in my class, I never cared about you being my student. You are worth the risk, you are worth everything.' My heart couldn't take this and

happy you have Andy, I know he will take care of you

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