Chapter 148: You Brightened My Darkness Chapter 148: You Brightened My Darkness Angelia

For a second day in a row, I skipped both school and work. It was easier skipping school but I felt terrible knowing someone else had to cover my shift. Still, I needed time to sort things out and my emotions were still all over the place. It exhausted me and I had to take care of myself before I added more to my plate. On a bright note, I actually got around to figuring out my next step yesterday like I had planned to.

It was hard because the next step wasn't something I was ready for but something I still needed to do. I needed answers and to get them, I had to talk to them. These past days made it clear that if I didn't speak to them, I would never truly move past it because I would always wonder why. It was the single most hardest choice I had made to grow up. When I was a kid, I thought that people over eighteen were adults but the older I got, the more I learned that it had nothing to do with

age and all to do with how you acted and how you handled difficult situations. I had always I becoming an adult because mature decision s**d a** no matter how beneficial they could be could be

dreaded

When Andy got back yesterday from picking up my stuff, he had told me about Riccardo showing

up and then Marshall. It hurt to hear about them but at the same time, it gave me hope that some

of what we had was genuine. I mean, they must have cared at least a little if they were trying to seek me out, right? Abandoning Andy and James at the dinner table, I walked to the room for privacy. Sitting down on the bed, I finally turned off the flight mode on the phone. I had avoided my phone like the plague but it was time to get my a*** in gear and deal because if it was one thing I hadn't done these past days, it was dealing with the shit that had happened. Instead, I had fully succumbed to wallowing in self-pity so much so that Andy had sent James over while he was at work just so I couldn't wallow too much. The joke was on him, James had brought a shit ton of

ice cream and we watched some movies. The saddest movie ever made in my opinion and we cried together and if that wasn't the height of wallowing, I didn't know what was.

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texts and missed wasn't it. Going for the easiest first, I clicked on the missed calls and scrolled down, seeing all the guys even Kingston who despised talking had called several times. The last call was just a few minutes ago from Marshall. I almost felt nauseous as I went to the texts next, choosing to read Riccardo's

figure it out, my bunny. We will find a way to make it work, I promise. Call

continued to lie if I hadn't found out? Marshall told me but you already know. Maybe not that I had been his student but he had known there could be a possibility

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me a call." And then I read his third

we will be waiting. We are not giving up on us.' Us? Was there even an us any longer? The thought that we weren't broke me further and I didn't know what I wanted, only that I didn't want to

we saw you. I was just too greedy to let you walk

capability for more tears after all the crying I had done. My period which I had just gotten yesterday made my emotions go from chaotic enough to complete haywire. I wasn't ready to read the texts from the other, not after how shitty I felt after reading Riccardo's

to know that we were causing you to hurt and I can never apologize enough for it, please

the beginning, maybe...maybe I would have been more inclined to forgive them. Now that feelings were involved, it was much

by the restaurant today where we were on our date and I was

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I wiped it away as

You are worth the

Andy, I know he will take

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