MY Possessive Mafia Men

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MY Possessive Mafia Men

Chapter 163: We Treasure You Chapter 163: We Treasure You Angelia

I couldn't, the words felt like sharp glass as they left my mouth, cutting me up inside and making me choke. My thigh stung as I continued pinching myself, doing everything in my power not to cry. I had done a lot of crying this week and I didn't want to be that kind of vulnerable right now with them around, not if I wanted to keep what I was hiding a secret.

These men, they read me like no one had ever done before. If I didn't keep everything together, then they would know that something wasn't quite right with me. That was how good they were at reading me. I bit my lip as I forced myself to meet each of their eyes. If I had to cause them any pain, then the least I could do was face up to it. It wasn't something I could hide from. Kingston, not surprisingly, didn't show much emotion, at least not on his face. His hands, however, were his tell, just as I have learned. When he clenched them like he was doing right now, it was either to keep himself in check or he felt something he didn't want to share with anyone. Throughout the years, he had mastered stone-cold facial expressions but the fists clearly indicated that he was at least feeling something. t and his eyes held both disappointment and acceptance. From the start, he had taken their mistake on his shoulders. When I had gone to talk to him, he had asked me to blame him and not the other two for their mistake. He was the kind of guy who there was no way in hell I would have ever been able to be with the other two without having him taken. It was impossible to choose between them and I didn't want it. It was Marshall, though that it especially hurt to look at because he was always so open with everything he was feeling. He rarely hid, like Kingston, where he shared next to nothing or held back like Riccardo. Where he showed a little but not the full extent of his emotions, no, Marshall showed it all. Everything abo about him conveyed his sadness, the way his eyes shone and his eyebrows furrowed somewhat, the slight frown on his face, the sigh escaping as he registered what I had said. It was all there, even in the way he held himself, with his shoulders slumped more than usual and his back wasn't as straight as it usually was, as if he was losing the strength to hold himself up. His openness hurt me especially. Shit, I hated the person who was trying to interfere with my life and life choices. I hated going against my own feelings and hurt not only myself in the process but the men I cared about as well. But that was why I was doing this, wasn't it? So that the only hurt they would eel was s the kind that would heal, I knew they cared about me but was it worth losing everything they had built? Their jobs and their reputation? Or maybe even their lives? "If that is how you feel..." Riccardo began, his voice heavy.

Riccardo's jaw was clenched, his mouth pressed tight des ahead of his own. If he could have secured the happiness of his best friend and mine, he would have done it without hesitation, even if that meant he would be left behind. That was what he had suggested, but who put others others' happiness

as I didn't want to, I nodded. Still pinching myself enough to cause a bruise. Instead of agreeing though, something else slipped from my lips. "I don't know if I am ready to end it yet but I need a break."

As

I

much as

I didn't know where the suggestion was coming from, I had come here to end things but my mind suddenly had other ideas, it was always like this with them so I shouldn't be surprised. My thoughts turned a bit hazy in their presence. When I mentioned that we would take a break i instead I of ending things, the atmosphere immediately brightened some. Marshall let out another sign, this time in relief. Riccardo's face softened and Kingston's hands uncurled. I don't know if it might have been best for them if I had just ended it right away because I had no clue when or even if we would be able to be together again. But it seemed that as selfless as I was, I also had a few egotistical traits as well. I wasn't ready to call it quits, I still had hopes that the situation I was in would fix itself soon enough. "What would this break entail?" Marshall asked.

"Umm, space and time for me to understand what I want to do."

I was pulling words out of

f my a**, bullshitting like a pro. It didn't feel good, though.

"Alright, we can give

you

that." Riccardo agreed.

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even think about being in the dungeon or participating in a scene

anonymous person was actually sponsored by the three of them. It would have been a kind gesture had they been upfront about the membership, but how I had learned about it made me feel more manipulated than thankful. At least, I did at the time. He nodded as if that settled things. "Then I will pause

back."

go before it gets late but I want you guys to know that I appreciate everything you have done for me. I will... umm." I bit my lip

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know that it meant the world

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will do that but until then, it is just a break, if all goes well. 1." Marshall said