Nanny and the Alpha Daddy

#Chapter 173: Said Too Much

Edrick

“I want to know the real reason behind why you find it so abhorrent to be intimate with me,” Moana said, chasing after me and grabbing my arm as I tried to storm out.

What I said next was a mistake. I knew that as soon as the cruel words came out of my mouth, and I wished that I could take them back when I saw the look on Moana’s soft face.

“Because!” I said, whirling around to face Moana. “I will never marry you! Not you, and not anyone, and I don’t want to give you the wrong idea! I don’t care that you’re my mate. The mate bond means nothing.”

Moana’s eyes widened. She released her grip on my arm and covered her mouth with her hand, taking a step back. We stared at each other in shocked silence for several long moments before she suddenly brushed past me and ran out of the room.

“God dammit, Edrick,” I whispered to myself once she was gone. I slapped my hand on the wall and cursed under my breath. I felt like such a fool for saying too much; not only had I revealed that Moana was my mate too early, but I had completely misconstrued what I wanted to say and I had hurt her feelings because of it.

“You’re too harsh with her,” Eddy, my wolf, said. He was normally silent, and only offered advice when I specifically asked for it. Every wolf had its own personality, and Eddy was definitely the stoic type. But even he realized that I messed up just now and had to tell me about it.

“I’m aware of that, Eddy,” I responded out loud as I paced restlessly around my bedroom. I sighed and flung the balcony doors open to let in the fresh air, and stepped out into the cool night. As I leaned on the railing and looked out over the city, I felt myself beginning to be able to think more clearly.

want to mate with Moana. I knew how I felt about her; I knew that, eventually, I would no longer be able to resist

everything it stood for. I hated the lies that it spread, how people were so blinded by the idea of it that they just assumed that nothing could ever break the mate bond. My father and my mother

never betray me. I knew that I could never betray her, either. I

like Moana — rare cases where people’s wolves wouldn’t appear until later in life — would often shift upon marking their mate. It was rare, but it could happen. Not only that, but it

control of my stupid tongue. Why was I cursed

from the balcony railing and headed back inside. The bed looked empty without Moana; I needed to make things right with her. I decided to go over to her room and apologize, and explain what I really meant earlier. At the very least, I thought that I should check

bedroom and tried to open the door, I

a sniffle inside, followed by a quiet sob. Had I made her

moments, battling with myself about whether I should go in there and talk

me. “Don’t just

my face and make it

wishes, I chose to leave

happy about that decision. Neither was I, admittedly. But I couldn’t bring myself to look her in the face — not after I had made her cry with my words. I would have never admitted it to

decided that I would talk to her in the morning, after we had both had a good