No More Waiting, She Chooses Love

Otherwise, he wouldn't have saved so many people each year, to the point of not having enough money to get his sister a heart transplant.

Besides, in Conrad's case, if I hadn't given blood, it would have been like letting him die. I really couldn't figure out Ernest Collins's intentions, and I didn't want to pretend to be confused. So, I suddenly opened my eyes, leaving no place for his tenderness to hide.

He paused as his hand caressing my face froze; the softness and pain in his gaze were unmistakable.

But after a brief stiffness, he withdrew his hand, yet I caught it faster, "Ernest, what do you mean? You obviously care about me and are hurting for me, so why are you tormenting me?"

As I spoke, my tears burst forth.

I guess I'm just a crier, huh?

Sometimes I think I can be tough, but tears always show up to mess things up. Let them flow if they want, especially in front of Ernest, to let him see clearly that I love him and can't bear to lose him. This way, he could also see how much I love him.

He didn't speak or even tend to my tears. Just now, he had lovingly wiped the tears from the corner of my eyes, but now that I was awake and crying, he didn't bother. His silence like this was truly driving me insane. "Ernest, what do you really want? Speak up. Why do you love me yet don't want me?" My voice became shrill, almost hysterical. "I've already told you," his voice was deep and resonant.

I shook my head. "I don't believe you. You're not someone who gets confused over right and wrong, gets jealous without reason, and even if we broke up, you're not having an easier time either; otherwise, you wouldn't be pulling all-nighters with Grant or sneaking smokes."

A few times that I passed him, I smelled tobacco on him.

"As you said, I love you, and of course, it's hard on

These words only

why did you break up with me?" Ernest swallowed hard a few times, "I love you, but not to the extent of allowing you, when you are with me, to risk your life for another

said, that doesn't

interrupted me, "Not loving him isn't enough. You being with me, your life should be mine. If you can so easily give it to someone else, that just proves

statement was somewhat irrational, and I

if you love, you do

those words left me no room to argue. It wasn't that I hadn't given him my whole heart, but it's also true I nearly lost my life trying to save Conrad. Like when Conrad was with me, he said he loved me, but he always neglected me to take

pain I once endured, if I have

my mistake, I

"Ernest, I was wrong this time. I promise there won't

up at him humbly for the first time, "Ernest, I don't want to separate. I

I spoke, my chest aching with pain that made

hugging his neck tightly, "Ernest, let's mend things. Let's not break up, okay?" My tears rubbed against his

feeling of

was lost gave

when I