No More Waiting, She Chooses Love

There was anger, there was repression, and there was a readiness to strike.

This was a side of Shirley I had never seen before, and for some reason, it made me incredibly tense.

I swallowed hard, "If you hate him so much, and you know what he's done, why would you..."

I trailed off, unsure of her thoughts.

Given her hatred, she shouldn't have had Nancy. Another child meant she couldn't make a clean break. But she did have her.

"Why have Nancy, right?" Shirley picked up on my thoughts.

I nodded, glancing towards where Nancy was, "If you two really fall out, what's going to happen to her? She's innocent."

"Do you think I wanted to have her?" Shirley drained her glass of wine in one go.

Watching her painfully swallow the wine, I felt a pang in my heart.

Shirley shook her head, replying, "When I first got pregnant, he had the doctor take my blood, found out it was a girl, and then hired six nannies. Officially, they were to take care of me, but in reality, they were there to watch me."

"You didn't want the child at

his child after the way he got me?" Shirley said, her gaze drifting towards Nancy, "You know, if she had been a boy, she

struck me, and

a thumbs up, "You're

I didn't need. I looked at her, "Lord doesn't want this child, wants you to get rid

said he'd bring someone first thing tomorrow," Shirley said, reaching for the bottle

"You're pregnant, you

the point? He won't let it stay," Shirley gestured

by Lord, and now, with this child, when Lord wanted

was indeed full of

to keep this baby?"

fixed on Nancy. After a long pause, she said, "I want

Thinking back to how she hated Lord,

Lord for the long haul, nor did she

she was waiting for the day she

Shirley inspired a kind of respect in me, one that comes from not settling for fleeting riches and comfort, from not abandoning vengeance. "Then you could

shook her head,