One More Chance by Jaycelle Rodriguez

Chapter 16: Living in hell

~~~When people all stare, I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk. Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue. Pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong. Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry?~~~

-Kelley Clarkson-

One month later...

Living in a different house without my parents, especially my mom has been so difficult. It was strange, not to mention the fact that I'm living with my so-called husband, who seemed like a total stranger to me. He leaves the house in the morning when I was still asleep and goes back at night when I'm already asleep. I know he's doing it on purpose.

I barely saw him every day except one time I waited for him and he came home drunk. I was so excited that night that I decided to cook for his dinner. But disappointment washed over me when he just pushed the plate away from him and put the cover on. He then asked our maid Rory to cook him for new dinner as he won't eat the food I made for him.

I cried all night and almost didn't sleep, but I still managed to wake up early and cook breakfast for him.

"Ohh, Sam, he's already left for school," Rory told me with a reaction I couldn't paint. Sadness, disappointment, pity.

"Did he?"

She nodded and walked over to me before patting my shoulders.

He always does it every morning--- every day... but why couldn't I get used to it?

"Okay, can you just pack 2 pieces of sandwiches? I'll just bring it to my best friend."

"Sure. Do you want me to pack the apple juice too?"

"No, water would be fine."

She nodded, smiling and I went back upstairs to my room. It's our final exams today so I must get ready for the long school hours--- and of course for the different stares of my schoolmates, classmates and those who pretended to be my friends, but I didn't know they were only waiting for me to make a huge mistake so they can pull me down.

I sighed.

Well, I admit, it has not been so easy to take and handle the words I have received since the news about my pregnant spread throughout the campus. They called me different names like whore, slut, prostitute, call girl, sex worker and some names that I've already forgotten. But if there's something good came up after everything that happened, it was that I became closer to my parents and to Dale.

They always got my back, especially my best friend. She's the only person to whom I've shared everything that happens between me and my husband.

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so quickly that I hadn't noticed it's now time again to

area, I found Jack waiting for

took you so long?" She's frowning when she helped me put my books

just had a small talk

in Dean Scott the campus

to the

did

invited me to attend his birthday party next

Don't tell

not. Can't

think I can't go with you to the clinic tomorrow, it's just that I have to drive for

okay, Jack. Honestly, I appreciate your help and I understand if you have something important

but I promise that after I send my mom to the airport, I'll go straight to

on, I told you it's okay. I'll just

a smile. "Well, good luck

and I'm so excited to know the gender of my baby," I

would agree to come with me the next day. He's still not home when I arrived, which I've been used to since we got married. Bringing the bowl of popcorn and a glass of Apple juice, I decided to

couldn't help but sigh. It's 8:00 o'clock in

again at the wall clock that showed 10:15 pm. I've already got my second refill of juice and I've already used the bathroom for the fifth time, but I still can't hear and see any

heard the familiar sound of his car entering the gate and parked in the garage. I immediately got up and blew

He asked me the moment he saw me waiting in

wanna talk

tried to smell his scent if it had been mixed with alcohol again, but I uttered a silent 'thank God' when I smelled

time for your dramas, so

walked past me and I ran to reach his pace before

I thought you could come with me?" It sounded like a question and I gulped when he turned around. "My doctor said she can

to say those two short words and

"But Luke---"

you should go to sleep." He didn't even stop or spare me a glance when he spoke. It's just like he's talking to a dog. "Okay,"

I will already find out my baby's gender, Luke would be there too. I did everything to make a sleep... I wish I could drink a coffee or could jump 10 times on the bed or as many as I can to tire my body to sleep... but I couldn't, so I decided to pull my laptop and watch some random movies online. And a few moments later, I felt my eyelids

body has its own body clock, I still woke up early and prepared for my appointment. I left my room at 7:30 and went directly in front of Luke's bedroom. I was about to knock but I

I kept on glancing at my wristwatch and counting from 1 to 100 and back, but I still

appointment with your doctor today?"