One More Chance by Jaycelle Rodriguez

Chapter 57: File a divorce petition

~~~I'd give my best to you, nothing for me to do but have one last cry. One last cry before I leave it all behind. I've gotta put you out of my mind, stop living a lie. I know I gotta be strong, 'cause my life goes on and on. I'm gonna dry my eyes, right after my ONE LAST

CRY~~~

-Brian Mcknight-

"What the hell is going on with you and your husband? Is it true that he's cheating on you?"

But instead of answering her question, I lunged at her and hugged her tightly. And there on her shoulder, I started crying.

"Mommy..." I hugged her so tight like I was used to do when I was a child, seeking her embrace as if it was the solution to all my problems.

"Oh, my baby." She started rubbing my back and later I heard her sniff and that only added the weight I was carrying inside. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Mom..." I murmured as my shoulders trembled with my every sob.

'Why didn't I tell her?' The same question I have in mind, maybe because I don't want her to know I am in pain, that I'm always crying and no one hugs me every night to comfort me and ask me how I feel. I didn't tell her because she's my mom and the pain I have would be double for her. I know that because I'm a mother now and the pain that my daughter feels is also a stab in my heart.

"You should have told me about it, Sam." My mom said and then she put her hands on mine. "Why did you take all this by yourself?"

I closed my eyes as I let out a heavy sigh. We were in my old room and both sat on the edge of the bed. I told her everything, even Luke's real feelings for me or should I say Luke's empty feelings.

"Because I don't want you to be worried, mom, this is my fault and I should be the one to take the consequences."

"Samantha, if you're talking about what you did before, well it's been so long. It's already been four years and you now have a 4-year-old daughter."

"Yeah, it's been so long, but that long period of time being together hasn't even changed the love he has for his ex-girlfriend. It just lit up when they met again. He never learned to love me and he told me he never will, mom, and it hurts." I glanced at her with my eyes filled with tears. "It hurts a lot, mom."

"Ohh... my dearest daughter." She then pulled me in a hug and I continued to cry. I was just stopped when she mentioned my dad. "I can't let this happen anymore. I will tell your father and---"

"Mom, no!" I sit up straight, shaking my head as I plead. "Please don't tell dad about this or even Dale, I don't want them to know about it."

"But Sam---"

"Mom, promise me please, you won't tell them about it. You know them very well, they won't spare Luke for doing this. This is just about me and my husband and whatever is going on between us, I don't want you guys to be involved. I don't want your relationship with his family to change, besides, I started this, so I'll take the consequences."

She gave me a weak smile, shaking her head.

"It's my fault."

"Mom..."

"If I hadn't forced you to marry him at that time---"

"Mom, no, it's not your fault and I understand why you did it. You're just thinking about me and my baby."

pushed you to accept the proposal. If I

yourself for what happened to me and to our marriage because it's also my choice

I am your mother and I should be the one protecting you, but I didn't, instead, I pushed my 17-year-old daughter

I didn't live alone, I have a daughter and you've always

exchanged a weak smile and hugged each

"I missed you, mom."

up so fast and is now the mother of a lovely little girl." She cupped my cheek and put the loose strands on the back

what's your

hair with my fingers. A mannerism that Luke and

know yet, mom," I replied, but the answer she gave me made my head snap at her.

"Mom?"

a divorce petition, Sam, I will

and I know how she gives important having a complete family. "Yes, and don't ask me if I'm sure about it because I'm telling you, I am. I don't

"But mom---"

that he doesn't love you---no, he never loved you, so what's the point of

me shut in

Sam and the best thing to do is to let go. If he's stupid enough to walk away, then be smart enough

I gulped.

I can.

him and I'm sure you can still do it even when he's gone and out of your life. We are here for you, Sam and we

what would

explain everything to her. Remember, your Cali is smart and she even

but then I remembered my best friend. She's still not replying any of my messages and

studies and choose whatever you want to be and I will support you. When it regards to the company, well, you don't have to worry about it because your brother takes responsibility. So all you have to do is to get yourself back and be

couldn't help but hugged her

welcome,

conversation when we heard

of your

laughed and she motioned for me to stay seated as she will be the one to

then follow us

"Hmhm." I nodded, smiling.

heard my daughter's voice as soon as my mom opened

"Grandma..."

what's the problem of

"I'm hungry."

"You are hungry."

my tummy said bruppp-bruppp inside,

laughing when I heard what Cali said. I don't

God, is your

me when I feel hungry and I... I can hear its sound.

my mouth so she can't hear my laugh. I don't want her to see me like this, with reddened eyes and a

should go to the dining room now and I will serve