One Night With My Alpha Professor by Eve Above Story

Chapter 174 Audrey

I was suddenly thrust back into the present, gasping as if I had just been underwater,

Edwin was still holding my wrist, his grip tight but not painful. We were still standing in the middle of the training room, the fluorescent lights harsh against my eyes after the darkness of Edwin's memory. My heart was racing, and I could feel a thin sheen of sweat on my skin. The room suddenly felt too warm, too small, as if the walls were closing in on us. Edwin's chest was heaving, and he released my wrist as if it had burned him.

"Well, now you know," he said softly, unable to meet my eyes. His voice was rough, as if he had been shouting "Now you know why I won't let you fight. Why I won't fight"

I stared at him, my mind reeling from what I had just witnessed.

*Edwin, I.... that wasn't your fault." I assured him, taking a step forward. "You were young, you

didn't mean to

"It was my fault, Edwin interrupted, his voice sharp enough to make me flinch. "I lost control. I seriously hurt someone. Audrey. Forlife. That man.. he wound up losing his eye because of me." I didn't know what to say.

He ran a hand through his hair, frustration and shame evident in every movement. I could see his fingers trembling slightly. That's why I hate fighting. I'm terrified of losing control again. My father.." He paused, swallowing hard. I could see the muscles in his jaw working as he struggled to continue. "My father always said I had a dark side. That I lacked self-control."

I reached out to touch his arm, but Edwin flinched away. The rejection stung, but I tried not to let it show. "Well, your father) was wrong, Edwin. You're not-

"What if he wasn't?" Edwin's voice was hardly more than a whisper, but in the silence of the room, it might as well have been a shout. "What if he was right? What if there's a monster just beneath the surface, waiting to hurt someone again?"

one of the cardboard boxes in the corner. He kicked one with the toe of his

He shook his head, turning and crossing over to one sneaker, and I heard a faint jangling inside.

"Your medals..."

Edwin scoffed wryly. "I used to take so much pride in them that despite everything. I couldn't bring myself to fully throw them away. My d**n ego kept me from doing it. I should have burned them." "You used to work so hard," I said. "It's okay to have pride in your achievements. One bad thing doesn't negate all of that."

never fought again. I couldn't even think about it. So I threw myself into my other hobby instead: sewing. In my mind, I was better off creating things, rather than destroying them. So I began to create, and that's how I ended up where

a moment, processing his words. The pieces were starting to fall into place-his reluctance to teach me

destroyer. What had happened that night. It was an accident. A horrific one, yes, but

out of him. He hung his head in his hands, his shoulders slumped in defeat. "I'm sorry you had to see that monstrous memory," he muttered. "I've tried to

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his fingers through his dark, sweat-damp hair over and over again. Even now, through our bond, I could feel

and crouched, cupping his stubbled face

"Edwin, look at me."

eyes were red-rimmed, and I could see the pain and self-loathing swirling

acceptance I could muster into our bond. I knew he could feel it down

"Audrey-"

accident, yes, but not something that defines who you are. I love you. Edwin. All of you. And I'm glad you showed me this part of yourself. Thank you." Before he could respond, I wrapped my arms around him in a tight hug. I felt some of the tension leave his body as he returned the embrace, his arms encircling me with a desperate kind

shadows surrounding his soul ebb away, replaced by shafts of silver light on the fullest night of the moon. After a long moment, he pulled back. His eyes were clearer now, though still a bit troubled. "I think... I think we should cut training short today," he said softly. "I don't think I'm in the right headspace

completely. "Of course. Besides, I added with a tiny smile, tomorrow is Christmas Eve. We still have a tree to cut down and a house

"I did promise we could do that, didn't

did. So let's stop

leaving the small of my back. As we entered the kitchen, the delicious smell of breakfast

Hadley said with a smile, his cheerful demeanor seeming to relax

out for me, and 1 sat, immediately pouring us both a steaming cup of coffee. Hadley's aging eyes flicked across Edwin's troubled

I ate in companionable silence for a little while, the hot coffee and crisp-bacon soothing our nerves and tired muscles. I propped my foot up on his leg

couldn't help but imagine the two of us here, just like this, for years to come. Just us.

attempt to cheer him up, and Edwin startled slightly. A small smile touched his lips, his eyes flicking-up to