Chapter 275

Audrey

Tina quickly wiped her face, trying to hide her tears, but it was too late. I had already seen everything.

“I’m not crying,” she whispered, but her voice cracked halfway through and betrayed everything. “Okay, maybe… Yes. I am. A little. Just… just don’t look at me right now, okay?”

But I didn’t turn away. How could I turn away from my friend when she was crying? I sat down beside her, wrapping one arm around her trembling shoulders. “Tina, what’s going on? Is everything alright? Too much champagne?”

She hesitated, swallowing hard. “I–I thought I could handle it,” she choked out. “Being… just being me, you know? But I can’t even do that right.”

I tilted my head, watching her as she looked away, staring out into the darkness beyond the courtyard. “What happened?” She laughed, but there was no humor in the sound. Only something tight and sad. “Avis’s friend, Sarah–she, um, she was really nice. So, so nice. But she… she made it clear that she wanted more than I could give her.”

I didn’t say anything yet, just quietly waited for her to keep going.

“She was looking for… for something physical. She even wanted to take me home tonight. And when I told her that wasn’t something I was comfortable with, she was nice about it. Genuinely nice. But… but she’s not interested in seeing me anymore, and it just… it just hurts,” Tina said, her voice breaking on the last word.

“You’re talking about… sex?” I asked.

She nodded and took a shaky breath. “Yeah.”

“Well that doesn’t mean that anything is wrong with you,” I said gently. “If anything, you should be proud of yourself for setting that boundary.”

She shrugged. “But Audrey, I think… I think maybe there is something wrong with me. I think I might be asexual. And I know it shouldn’t feel like a bad thing, but sometimes… I don’t know. I feel like something is missing, or like I’m… I don’t know, broken somehow.”

My heart twisted, and I held her a little tighter. “Tina, there’s absolutely nothing broken about you. A lot of people feel that way-”

that,” she interrupted. “But when you’ve got someone looking at you and expecting something you just… you just don’t want… it’s hard not to feel like a total

I want to be with someone who understands me, but when it comes to sex, I don’t know. Sex just feels wrong to me, and the thought of doing it… kind of grosses me out. It’s part of

always felt

sniffling. “Yeah, I have. I think I’ve been pretty good at hiding it, but I really just don’t feel that… drive that everyone else seems to. And it’s hard because, like, I know I’m

at the same time, I feel like a fraud. I mean, how can I call myself a lesbian when…

wasn’t looking at me now, but staring at the ground, almost like she couldn’t

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breath, choosing my words carefully. “Tina… being a lesbian isn’t about having sex. It’s about who you love, who you want to share your life with. And that doesn’t have to include anything you’re not comfortable with. It’s not about… doing anything to ‘prove‘ who

eyes were filled with a kind of desperation that made my heart break all over again. “But what if that means I’m alone forever?” Her voice wobbled. “What if I never find

of me… just the way

I know you will. There

hand. “I just feel so… lost. Like I don’t belong in any space. I don’t even belong in my own home with my own parents. It’s like,

hand, running my thumb over

cried on my shoulder. “You fit in with us,” I

quiet, although I could feel her huff out a little

finally whispered after a few moments of silence. “Thank you for

with a laugh of my own. “And hey.” I placed my hand under her chin and lifted it, forcing her to look at me. “You will find someone someday, if that’s

sighed. “I hope so. But until then…

that’s a good idea.” I paused, smiling a little. “And in

She

laugh and looked away. “We’ll see about

favorite confident girl? Where’s the girl who once

belted the entire

me. “Alright, alright,” she said, wiping her tears. “You’re right. As always. You and your gorgeous fucking

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