Pregnant and Rejected by My Alpha Mate

#Chapter 89 Breeding

Selene’s pov

“What?” I ask, unable to conjure any other words.

“I’ve been away too long,” Bastien sighs, “And so have you.” He adds pointedly. Suddenly I realize he must have dropped everything to come here. He has so many responsibilities in Elysium, I don’t know how he managed it. Who’s been running the pack while he’s been busy chasing me around Asphodel? The council?

Next I wonder how none of this occurred to me before. We can hardly be together while living in separate cities. In Bastien’s mind, I probably agreed to come back to Elysium the moment I let him claim me. The last card in my hand had been needing to keep Lila near her father, and that excuse went out the window when I told him the truth about the DNA test.

“Bastien, I have a life here.” I reply hesitantly,

“You had a life there too:” Bastien reminds me, brushing a few strands of hair out of my eyes.

“No.” I correct him. “I had you and nothing else. Here I have a business, friends, a purpose beyond standing beside you and looking pretty.”

“That’s not what I want for you, Selene. You can have all those things in Elysium. You could have had those things before if…” He trails off, uncertain why I hadn’t shown an interest in opening a cafe or having a life of my own when we were married. Puzzled and clearly concerned he asks, Did you think I wouldn’t let you?”

“No.” I exhale heavily, “It wasn’t anything you did, well, not in the way you mean.” I amend, reaching up to stroke my mate’s clenched jaw. “You have to understand. When you first rescued me I was completely helpless. I did need you to do everything for me, and you were so willing to take on that role that you never pushed me to step out of my comfort zone or do anything for myself. At the time I thought it was because you didn’t think I was capable of standing on my own two feet.” I share, reaching into my memories.

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“If I coddled you, it’s because I love you.” Bastien informs me, looking perturbed. “I didn’t push you because taking care of you was never a burden to me, I wanted to do everything for you. I never wanted you to have to struggle again.”

to fend for myself. I never got far enough out into

Goddess, Selene, you were trapped in a basement through your entire adolescence.” He reminds me – as if I could forget. “You had to learn everything from scratch, all

the apartment and provided for me financially, but I had to figure out how to survive on my own. I

things in Elysium.” Bastien beseeches,

not sure how successful my

Selene? That you and Lila would stay here when I went

squeak, not sure I

eyes. “You’re

me things I already know this evening. “So?”

mate appears to be praying for patience, bringing his palms together and speaking very deliberately, “You’re the most fertile you’ll ever be, and we’ve had

brace myself. Suddenly my knees feel like jelly. How could I have failed to connect those dots? Without contraception heat cycles almost always result in babies – it’s kind

loud whirring. I’ve never considered having another pup. I wouldn’ t have ever wanted one with anyone but Bastien and I

picture what it would be like to go through a pregnancy now, how different it might be from the first time with Bastien by my side. I try to imagine having another pup, a sibling for Lila, maybe a little boy – a miniature

to have another child with Bastien, but I’m not sure I’m ready to do it right this minute. We still have a lot to figure out. Lila and I are

he might get me pregnant again. He seems to expect it, treating it like it’s a foregone conclusion. What’s

get me pregnant? Did you see I had a child with Drake and

rubs the back of his neck, looking decidedly guilty. “The thought did occur to me,” He admits, “But in my defense, I thought you

I would thoughtlessly jump into such a big commitment when things were so uncertain between us – when we live in different cities! When my first pup is already endangered because

and his silver eyes are glaring down at me. “It’s instinct, Selene.” He states sternly, “It’s my instinct to breed my mate, to mark what’s mine and wipe away any remnants left behind by other wolves.” Goddess help me, but his words are starting to excite me again. “I assumed

they? I think. Was I subconsciously trying to seal our bond with another baby? Is all this lust really driven

is. Luna tells me, I want another pup, I want to raise