Pregnant With Alpha’s Genius Twins

#Chapter 86 – Christmas

A few days later, Christmas morning dawns with a fresh fall of snow, which I’m glad to see. It’s been so long since we’ve had a white Christmas. It’s the boys’ first, actually.

They came tearing down the stairs at the break of dawn, eager for their presents, but I was ready for them, having slept down here on the couch after setting everything up.

“Mommy!” Ian had said, giving me a big hug. “How did you beat us down here? We woke up so early.”

I laughed and gave both of them a kiss. “I stayed down here all night! I wanted to see if Santa Claus would give me a Christmas kiss.”

The boys wrinkled their noses in disgust, making me laugh harder.

“Don’t kiss Santa,” Ian said, “he’s old.”

“Yeah,” Alvin said, picking up the thread of the conversation as he fell to his knees and started riffling though the wrapped presents. “Besides, you shouldn’t kiss anyone except daddy.”

I raise a hand to my cheek now, remembering that moment a few hours ago when my face had gone red with embarrassed surprise. The three of us had let the moment pass without comment – but still. Why would they say that? They’d never seen me kiss their father – did they somehow know what happened?

Either way, it just deepened my conviction that we need to get out of here. It’s too complicated.

I stand by my little sink now, staring out the back window that overlooks the yard. The boys are out back, chasing each other in the snow with Archie nipping at their heels. I don’t know how they’ve been out there for two hours, but they show no signs of coming in.

Sighing, I turn to the stove and put the kettle on to heat.

Victor sent down a bunch of gifts, of course, but I haven’t seen him since the night of the hunt. Part of me is grateful – it’s easier this way, not having to face him. But the other part…

I glance down at the floor, remembering the feel of it pressed against my cheek, my bare breasts, as Victor knelt behind me, pulling my hips closer –

I shake my head, banishing the thought. Damnit. I can’t let myself remember it like that.

I glance out the window briefly and then do a double take, fear racing through my veins. I start and lean closer to the window, looking everywhere – the boys are gone, nowhere in sight –

Gasping, I push myself away from the counter and head for the door – where could be –

But then the door opens, and the boys stumble in, a cold blast of snow coming with them.

“Oh, thank god,” I say, my heartbeat still pounding with panic in my ears as I clutch my chest and take a deep breath.

“What’s wrong, mommy?” Alvin asks, coming close and staring up in my face.

“Nothing, baby,” I murmur. “I just couldn’t see where you went from the window. It scared me for a second.”

“We’re okay!” Ian says, flashing me his big smile. Archie shakes his fur, sending snow flying.

I take the three of them in and am grateful for the relief that runs through me. It’s fine. Everything is fine. I laugh a little, realizing how silly I’ve been. Things really have been too stressful lately. Inwardly, I can’t wait for Christmas and the wedding to be over so that we can move on from here.

I say, “snow clothes off, and

listening to some music while the turkey finishes cooking in the oven. It’s just a small turkey – the three of us don’t need much – but I can’t

eyes droopy with exhaustion from so much excitement and play. “Will Daddy come down to visit us

I’ve been dreading this question all

your presents, but he probably wants to spend Christmas with Amelia. She’s going to be his wife very soon, and they’re going to build

his

know, and you always will be,” I say. “But…things might be a little different,

stare into the fire. They’re growing

to admit that a little part of me is sad that

decide. Victor and I should have clear boundaries. I’m grateful that Victor has not shown up, I

watching it creak open. I can’t help the small smile that creeps onto my face as the boys yell “Daddy!” and throw their blankets

laughing softly as he kneels to give each of

you so long,” Ian says, pounding him on the shoulder with

“I spent the day with Amelia, and then we did some things for

it’s all going to be different after the wedding,” Alvin

his coat

him stand there, looking him over. As much as I hate it, I feel a hunger

boys run in, eager

his voice low, stopping a few paces from me. I see his

feels the same craving that I do.

say, breaking his gaze to look over at the

but I hear him sigh as he settles down on the floor. He rests his back against the couch where I’m sitting. I breathe in his smell, savoring it, while I cast my eyes over the dark hair on the back

think as I curl my hand into a fist, resisting the urge to run my fingers through his hair, to touch

it being his hard to resist

my eyes to see

are you closing your eyes, daddy?” Ian asks, frowning.

see that he’s

little, clearing his

idea that I’m not alone in this. But then dread

Alvin says, fiddling with a toy train that

a book on astronomy to show his dad. “But do you have to marry

– “ Alvin starts, but

with warning. “You will speak of Amelia with

but Alvin hides his feelings a little better, looking back down

to hear him ask. I know that he already

voice as well.

Alvin says slowly, still looking innocuously down at

at this as well. Where are they getting these

special to me, because we have the