Pregnant With Alpha’s Genius Twins

#Chapter 191 – Final Words

“Victor,” I say, my hands sliding down the bars of my cell as I sink to the floor. He’s just across the short aisle from me, but with these metal bars between us…

He might as well be a world away. I am desperate to go to him, touch him, help him – but I can’t.

He doesn’t say a word in response, but I can see him breathing, his breath fast and shallow. I press on.

“Victor, I’m so sorry –“

“No,” he says, interrupting me. His word is light – so light – but I hear the intensity in it, even if it’s barely audible.

I see him work to move then, to turn towards me and look at my face, but I also see him flinch, hear the hiss of breath that escapes from his mouth.

“Don’t,” I say, reaching out a hand towards him to stop him – ridiculously, as if I could touch him, stop him. “Please, Victor – don’t move – it’s not worth it.”

He pauses and then sighs, and I can see his shoulders slump. “I want to look at you, Evelyn. When I tell you how sorry I am. I want you to see it in my face, how much I mean it.”

Tears begin to slip down my cheeks then. God damnit, why are we separate in this moment? All I want to do is be with him, be next to him, press my body up against his. Where it belongs.

“It’s all right, Victor,” I say, shaking my head, not bothering to wipe away the tears that drip off my chin. “You don’t have to say anything – I know, I understand –“

“No, Evelyn,” he insists. “I have to say this to you. My darling,” he takes a deep breath, preparing himself. “Everything I did, I did wrong. And I’m not just talking about that morning, after the fire.”

I rest my forehead against the bars, closing my eyes and trying to control my tears. I don’t want him to hear me, to think that he’s somehow making me feel worse.

I knew, Evelyn,” he says, “from that very first day when I met you again, with the boys, at that ridiculous game show – I think I knew, even then, that there was this thing between us. Whatever it is. I

hand over the power and control over my life that loving him would have required. But I had known, that day, that I was tied to

you then – with the boys, as much as the boys – maybe more than the boys – wanted you in my

hear him scowl at himself, then, a thick grumble building in his chest. I open my eyes and see his body wince with it,

Evelyn, the day you walked back into it. But thank god it did, because it was not the life I wanted at all. It was not the life with you. And in the months since then, I’ve been better – I’ve been starting

I say, my own voice thick with tears, shaking my head. “I’m so

work, now, to turn on the ground, with his shoulder against the floor as the pivot, using his legs and his feet to push himself in

on his face. Several times I whisper to him to stop, but he keeps going, determined. I’m sobbing by the time he looks at my face, overwrought by my love for him, my worry for him, my agony in the face of

this. The man I love, laid so low. At the

be

Evelyn,” Victor whispers. “Don’t. Every moment has been worth it. Every single thing that has fallen apart and been rebuilt, no matter how shaky – it is right. You

so hard I can’t shape words. But I do know it. I know it in the very

live it? Has the price

slightly. “The only, singular thing I would change is how I treated you that morning, after the phone call in

been right – I had betrayed him so completely, had done things that were

and my gaze back to his. “You can’t – you can’t blame yourself. I backed you into a corner where you had no

not really able to believe what I’m hearing. He’s complimenting

of humor in his voice. I look up at him, shocked. “It’s something Alvin and Ian would have done. I think I always took a little credit, unfairly, for their affinity for spying and subterfuge, but you’ve really outdone me this time – you

can’t help it – the shaky laugh that bursts from me at that – racking through my agonized body and spirit. I grip the bars of the cell for

can I be laughing