Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 18

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Secrets of Us: A Forbidden Love Romance

Chapter 18

I find Nikki at lunch the next day, not having seen Aiden nor Zaid a day yet.

Not that I care. Well, about Aiden a little, but only if he apologizes

me about Sadie.

Zaid, on the other hand? Zaid can go fuck himself.

"I didn't see you in class yesterday, did you go home?" Nikki takes a bite of her pizza, frowning at me.

I nod, pressing my lips together. "Kinda."

She narrows her eyes. "Something's different about you."

I blush, I know I look different because I can feel it. I clench my teeth together and

tell her everything. Every little thing, every little detail.

Well, except for the fact that I am extremely sore and I've felt Jake's phantom cock inside me all night last night and all day today.

I also do not tell her about the fact that I thought about him all night last night and

had to rub myself through a wildly unsatisfactory orgasm.

I tell her about Zaid, except for the conversation about my brother.

I tell her about Will and Sadie.

She leans, her jaw dropping open a bit more as I talk. Her eyes immediately go to the side of my face where I tried to cover my bruise with fuck-ton of make up. I finish, looking at her to see if I've lost my mind.

"Wait, wait, wait," She shakes her head, pressing her fingers to her temples. "We have to like talk about this in chunks because this

is too much."

I chuckle, relieved that she's not judging me just yet.

"First of all, girl! You slept with a random man that picked you up on the side of the road?"

I grimace and nod.

"What the hell were you thinking?"

"I wasn't, really."

you know what could have happened to you? He could have

pink.

make you feel safe, wanted and free all at

"He could've killed you!"

didn't." I sigh, chuckling

"Oh my god, Alina."

I was desperate." I don't regret anything, but I can see how

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virgin, and yeah it can be embarrassing but you don't see me flagging down cars to

I refuse to let her make me feel bad for something I enjoyed. "That's not even what happened, and that's not the desperate that I'm

"Then, what?"

And not because I'm overwhelmed, it's because I don't feel anything half the time." My nostrils flare and I can feel the beginnings of my lips trembling. Fuck, I can't talk

drop and she nods, telling

once, to feel something again. To laugh. To feel

time, I'm walking around like a zombie and I just... I just wanted to

I

nice." I

"You promise?"

"Yes."

"Okay."

sets her pizza on her plate, rubbing her

to get

rid of

any

crumbs.

turns to me slowly, pressing her lips together before she smack them. "So, was it

good, really good. I didn't know it could feel like that. I mean I remember my friends talking about losing their virginity and they all talked about how

he's experienced." She shakes her shoulders and

"Exactly."

you don't

bit." I really don't The only regret I have is that we agreed to not see each other again. I don't tell her that, though, afraid she will go off

freaking out a little. I just want

as long as you don't

I don't." She smiles sweetly at

"Good."

in comfortable silence again, the both

clapping her hands

talk about the fact that Zaid is in love with

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