Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 18

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Secrets of Us: A Forbidden Love Romance

Chapter 18

I find Nikki at lunch the next day, not having seen Aiden nor Zaid a day yet.

Not that I care. Well, about Aiden a little, but only if he apologizes

me about Sadie.

Zaid, on the other hand? Zaid can go fuck himself.

"I didn't see you in class yesterday, did you go home?" Nikki takes a bite of her pizza, frowning at me.

I nod, pressing my lips together. "Kinda."

She narrows her eyes. "Something's different about you."

I blush, I know I look different because I can feel it. I clench my teeth together and

tell her everything. Every little thing, every little detail.

Well, except for the fact that I am extremely sore and I've felt Jake's phantom cock inside me all night last night and all day today.

I also do not tell her about the fact that I thought about him all night last night and

had to rub myself through a wildly unsatisfactory orgasm.

I tell her about Zaid, except for the conversation about my brother.

I tell her about Will and Sadie.

She leans, her jaw dropping open a bit more as I talk. Her eyes immediately go to the side of my face where I tried to cover my bruise with fuck-ton of make up. I finish, looking at her to see if I've lost my mind.

"Wait, wait, wait," She shakes her head, pressing her fingers to her temples. "We have to like talk about this in chunks because this

is too much."

I chuckle, relieved that she's not judging me just yet.

"First of all, girl! You slept with a random man that picked you up on the side of the road?"

I grimace and nod.

"What the hell were you thinking?"

"I wasn't, really."

know what could have happened to you? He could

pink.

he didn't." It's weird to explain how a stranger can make you feel safe, wanted

"He could've killed you!"

didn't." I sigh,

"Oh my god, Alina."

regret anything, but I can see how it looks like I lost my

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can be embarrassing but you

but I refuse to let her make me feel bad for something I enjoyed. "That's not even what happened, and that's not the desperate that

"Then, what?"

and father died...I feel like I'm drowning. And not because I'm overwhelmed, it's because I don't feel anything half the time." My nostrils flare and I can feel the beginnings of my lips trembling. Fuck, I can't talk about them without losing

and she nods, telling me she's

to feel something again. To laugh. To feel alive.

like a zombie and I just...

guess I

nice."

"You promise?"

"Yes."

"Okay."

pizza on her plate, rubbing her hands

to get

rid of

any

crumbs.

her lips together before

my friends talking about losing their virginity and they all talked about how painful it was

because he's experienced." She shakes her shoulders and wags

"Exactly."

don't regret

have is that we agreed to not see each other again. I don't tell her that, though, afraid

sighs. "Okay, good. Sorry for freaking out a little. I just want to make sure you're

long as you don't think differently about

She

"Good."

in comfortable silence again, the

of nowhere, clapping her

the fact that Zaid is in love

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